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Friday, March 31, 2006
happy wid what i have.
i am so happy with what God has given me.
all the relationships, material stuff, education, health, actually everything.
i am so grateful for my family, baby n his family and my friends.
they have been there for me in one way or another.
many people come n go in my life,
esp friends.
but there are wonderful people who stay through out my life.
i am very glad i have friends like that.
i will like to say a big thanks to my mum.
she has been there for me when i was sad n happy.
given me all advice and comfort i ever needed.
my baby who has never failed to share everything in my life.
always comforting me when i am down and blissful when i am happy.
he has always been my strength for me to carry on in life.
thanks dada a million.
and to my gals; sharon & misha,
always listening to my never ending story.
also being there for me in my dark times.
not forgetting my wonderful vinod aka biggest bum on earth.
he is always wanting the best for me.
advising me which has helped me in many ways.
he is a wonderful friend who i never wanna trade for anything in this world.
he has not only been there for me but for my relationship wid my baby.
he never fails to brighten up my day.
thanks monkey for everything.
and when we are all free n have money,
we shld go some where n enjoy ourselves.
it will be so fun.
muacks to all the wonderful people in my life.
all the relationships, material stuff, education, health, actually everything.
i am so grateful for my family, baby n his family and my friends.
they have been there for me in one way or another.
many people come n go in my life,
esp friends.
but there are wonderful people who stay through out my life.
i am very glad i have friends like that.
i will like to say a big thanks to my mum.
she has been there for me when i was sad n happy.
given me all advice and comfort i ever needed.
my baby who has never failed to share everything in my life.
always comforting me when i am down and blissful when i am happy.
he has always been my strength for me to carry on in life.
thanks dada a million.
and to my gals; sharon & misha,
always listening to my never ending story.
also being there for me in my dark times.
not forgetting my wonderful vinod aka biggest bum on earth.
he is always wanting the best for me.
advising me which has helped me in many ways.
he is a wonderful friend who i never wanna trade for anything in this world.
he has not only been there for me but for my relationship wid my baby.
he never fails to brighten up my day.
thanks monkey for everything.
and when we are all free n have money,
we shld go some where n enjoy ourselves.
it will be so fun.
muacks to all the wonderful people in my life.
memories will be memories,
it will last forever.
feelings on the other hand can fade away.
so keep the memories and what it contains.
enjoy every moment before its too late.
cause it may never come back again.
Guardian Angel
There's an Angel watching over you,
Helping with whatever you're going through.
Guardian Angels are hard to recognize,
Sometimes they come at such a surprise.
Maybe they look like you and me,
Or maybe they're impossible to see.
Walking through a garden all alone,
You feel the presence of something unknown.
I wonder if it just might be,
Your guardian Angel by the tree.
Don't be afraid of the feeling,
Believe it's just your blessing.
Sent from your very special friend,
That will follow your shadows 'til the end.
my baby means everything to me.
my baby was admitted yesterday night.
daddy n mummy drove me to the hospital.
they left first while i waited for stephen who din show up.
anw i am so worried abt my baby.
today i realised so many things.
i realised that my baby is the only one i care abt.
i mean he is all i need.
i have done so many things,
but i realised many things.
my baby is always there for me despite the situation.
he always sets loads of things straight for me.
he helps me in everything.
i love him no much.
i am just so worried for him now.
thanks baby for everything.
just remember that i am always here for u.
u know spending time wid u in the hospital its just really amazing.
i dun know how to explain but i did enjoy.
muacks my love.
daddy n mummy drove me to the hospital.
they left first while i waited for stephen who din show up.
anw i am so worried abt my baby.
today i realised so many things.
i realised that my baby is the only one i care abt.
i mean he is all i need.
i have done so many things,
but i realised many things.
my baby is always there for me despite the situation.
he always sets loads of things straight for me.
he helps me in everything.
i love him no much.
i am just so worried for him now.
thanks baby for everything.
just remember that i am always here for u.
u know spending time wid u in the hospital its just really amazing.
i dun know how to explain but i did enjoy.
muacks my love.
P.S
just move on.
i know it seems hard.
but like u said its better for both of us.
i know how u are feeling.
u will understand everything one day.
when u really move on, you will see that special person coming ya way.
i'll pray for u no matter what.
nothing is ya fault.
Thanks Uma n Grj for helping in my blog template.
Thursday, March 30, 2006
dang.
emotions are still haywire.
not really sure how to bring myself back.
vision seems so blur.
i hope i can get through it all.
baby is also sick.
he in the MO as i am writing this.
they had him on drips.
i dun know why.
he has yet to tell me wat happened to him.
so worried for him.
hope u are doing well babe.
wishing u were here so i can take care of u.
but i guess he is ok now also.
i'll just wait for the weekend.
i wish i can be myself again.
i hate going on a roller-coaster ride.
its so hard to get back after that.
sigh.
i guess this is life.
some times u think u are doing something right,
but it ends up all wrong.
i feel thats whats happening now.
u tot i will feel better,
but its all going worse.
nvm i dun wanna say anything alr.
i'll just leave it all.
God knows what to do.
thanks for everything.
i will never forget u.
not really sure how to bring myself back.
vision seems so blur.
i hope i can get through it all.
baby is also sick.
he in the MO as i am writing this.
they had him on drips.
i dun know why.
he has yet to tell me wat happened to him.
so worried for him.
hope u are doing well babe.
wishing u were here so i can take care of u.
but i guess he is ok now also.
i'll just wait for the weekend.
i wish i can be myself again.
i hate going on a roller-coaster ride.
its so hard to get back after that.
sigh.
i guess this is life.
some times u think u are doing something right,
but it ends up all wrong.
i feel thats whats happening now.
u tot i will feel better,
but its all going worse.
nvm i dun wanna say anything alr.
i'll just leave it all.
God knows what to do.
thanks for everything.
i will never forget u.
My perfect man.
Find a guy, who calls you beautiful instead of hot.
Who calls you back when you hang up on him.
Who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.
Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead.
Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.
Who holds your hand in front of his friends.
Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you.
Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says, "...that's her."
For me thats my babyboy.
He really does all the things that are mentioned above.
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Who calls you back when you hang up on him.
Who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.
Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead.
Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.
Who holds your hand in front of his friends.
Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you.
Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says, "...that's her."
For me thats my babyboy.
He really does all the things that are mentioned above.
('',)
Wednesday, March 29, 2006
confusion.
my life is in a mega confusion state now.
there is so many things happening.
arghh..
i am deceiving myself n the way i feel.
i am cheating myself.
why am i doing all this??
i am totally disappointed in myself.
things are not going too well.
emotions thrown all over the place.
its like an emotion roller-coaster.
damn its a very fast one.
i am not sure how things are going,
but it does not seem too well.
wish baby was here to hold me in his arms.
he always makes things better.
feelings and relationships are a very hard thing to get a hold of.
u can never know when its going to change.
it can just come n go.
esp for feelings.
sometimes its so strong that it over powers ya state of mind.
arghh i dun even know what i am writing now.
sighs.
i am so damn confused.
people cant be wid the ones they like.
i mean it does happen positively always.
you shld be happy.
move on dear.
i want u to me happy.
i cant see u being like that.
i know i am doing something.
i have the guilty conscience.
its killing me inside.
no one knows.
pls understand.
nothing is ya fault.
i promise.
you will understand one day.
take care.
i will always be here still.
there is so many things happening.
arghh..
i am deceiving myself n the way i feel.
i am cheating myself.
why am i doing all this??
i am totally disappointed in myself.
things are not going too well.
emotions thrown all over the place.
its like an emotion roller-coaster.
damn its a very fast one.
i am not sure how things are going,
but it does not seem too well.
wish baby was here to hold me in his arms.
he always makes things better.
feelings and relationships are a very hard thing to get a hold of.
u can never know when its going to change.
it can just come n go.
esp for feelings.
sometimes its so strong that it over powers ya state of mind.
arghh i dun even know what i am writing now.
sighs.
i am so damn confused.
people cant be wid the ones they like.
i mean it does happen positively always.
you shld be happy.
move on dear.
i want u to me happy.
i cant see u being like that.
i know i am doing something.
i have the guilty conscience.
its killing me inside.
no one knows.
pls understand.
nothing is ya fault.
i promise.
you will understand one day.
take care.
i will always be here still.
Tuesday, March 28, 2006
penis joke.
In the examination room Fred nervously asks, "You won't laugh?"
Of course I won't laugh," the doctor said.
"I'm a professional. In over twenty years I've never laughed at a patient."
"Okay then," Fred said, and proceeded to drop his trousers,revealing the tiniest Penis the doctor had ever seen.
It couldn't have been the size of a peanut.
Unable to control himself, the doctor started giggling, then fell laughing to the floor.
Ten minutes later he was able to struggle to his feet and regain his composure.
"I'm so sorry," said the doctor.
"I really am, I don't know what came over me. On my honor as a doctor and a gentleman, I promise it won't happen again. Now, what seems to be the problem?"
Fred replied, "It's swollen."
Of course I won't laugh," the doctor said.
"I'm a professional. In over twenty years I've never laughed at a patient."
"Okay then," Fred said, and proceeded to drop his trousers,revealing the tiniest Penis the doctor had ever seen.
It couldn't have been the size of a peanut.
Unable to control himself, the doctor started giggling, then fell laughing to the floor.
Ten minutes later he was able to struggle to his feet and regain his composure.
"I'm so sorry," said the doctor.
"I really am, I don't know what came over me. On my honor as a doctor and a gentleman, I promise it won't happen again. Now, what seems to be the problem?"
Fred replied, "It's swollen."
Monday, March 27, 2006
The Etiquette of Being on Time
A dinner party
Regional customs vary, from being on time to arriving 15, or even 30, minutes late. (And it's rude to arrive early; you might surprise the host and find him in his bathrobe vacuuming.)
A restaurant date
Even if your lunch or dinner mate is easygoing, it's disrespectful to arrive more than five minutes late.
A movie or play with friends or a date
Aim to arrive at least five or ten minutes before the curtain goes up. Arriving after showtime can spoil the whole evening.
A wedding ceremony
Arrive at least 10 to 15 minutes early. No one came to see you—a guest—walk down the aisle. If you arrive after the bride's and groom's mothers have been seated, keep a low profile by using a side aisle and sitting in the back. If you're so late that you fear you'll be elbowing the bride as she prepares to make her entrance, wait outside until her processional is under way.
A cocktail party or large reception
A delay of 10 to 15 minutes (sometimes 30 minutes or even more) is fine for fluid gatherings where people are invited to come and go.
Regional customs vary, from being on time to arriving 15, or even 30, minutes late. (And it's rude to arrive early; you might surprise the host and find him in his bathrobe vacuuming.)
A restaurant date
Even if your lunch or dinner mate is easygoing, it's disrespectful to arrive more than five minutes late.
A movie or play with friends or a date
Aim to arrive at least five or ten minutes before the curtain goes up. Arriving after showtime can spoil the whole evening.
A wedding ceremony
Arrive at least 10 to 15 minutes early. No one came to see you—a guest—walk down the aisle. If you arrive after the bride's and groom's mothers have been seated, keep a low profile by using a side aisle and sitting in the back. If you're so late that you fear you'll be elbowing the bride as she prepares to make her entrance, wait outside until her processional is under way.
A cocktail party or large reception
A delay of 10 to 15 minutes (sometimes 30 minutes or even more) is fine for fluid gatherings where people are invited to come and go.
Watch Out For These 'Friends'
The Blamer
This is a person who consistently blames you and/or everyone else for her problems. The world and the people in it always seem to create havoc for this person, and instead of taking responsibility for her life, she'd rather blame others.
The Complainer
This person likes to hear her own voice. She constantly complains about what isn't working in her life and yet gets energy from complaining and dumping her frustrations on you.
The Drainer
This is the needy person who calls to ask for your guidance, support, information, advice, or whatever she needs to feel better in the moment. Because of her neediness, the conversation often revolves around her, and you can almost feel the life being sucked out of you during the conversation.
The Shamer
This person can be hazardous to your health. The shamer may cut you off, put you down, reprimand you, or make fun of your or your ideas in front of others. She often ignores your boundaries and may try to convince you that her criticism is for you own good. The shamer is the kind of person who make you question your own sanity before hers.
The Discounter
This is the person who discounts or challenges everything you say. Often, she has a strong need to be right and can find fault with any position. It can be exhausting to have a conversation with the discounter, so eventually you end up giving in and deciding to just listen.
The Gossip
This person avoids intimacy by talking about others behind their backs. The gossip gets energy from relaying stories, opinions, and the latest "scoop." By gossiping about others, she creates a lack of safety in her relationships, whether she realizes it or not. After all, if she'll talk about someone else, she'll talk about you.
This is a person who consistently blames you and/or everyone else for her problems. The world and the people in it always seem to create havoc for this person, and instead of taking responsibility for her life, she'd rather blame others.
The Complainer
This person likes to hear her own voice. She constantly complains about what isn't working in her life and yet gets energy from complaining and dumping her frustrations on you.
The Drainer
This is the needy person who calls to ask for your guidance, support, information, advice, or whatever she needs to feel better in the moment. Because of her neediness, the conversation often revolves around her, and you can almost feel the life being sucked out of you during the conversation.
The Shamer
This person can be hazardous to your health. The shamer may cut you off, put you down, reprimand you, or make fun of your or your ideas in front of others. She often ignores your boundaries and may try to convince you that her criticism is for you own good. The shamer is the kind of person who make you question your own sanity before hers.
The Discounter
This is the person who discounts or challenges everything you say. Often, she has a strong need to be right and can find fault with any position. It can be exhausting to have a conversation with the discounter, so eventually you end up giving in and deciding to just listen.
The Gossip
This person avoids intimacy by talking about others behind their backs. The gossip gets energy from relaying stories, opinions, and the latest "scoop." By gossiping about others, she creates a lack of safety in her relationships, whether she realizes it or not. After all, if she'll talk about someone else, she'll talk about you.
thinking state.
there are so many things to think about.
things that are affecting you.
things that will affect you indirectly.
many many things actually.
now i am being affected by quite a number of things and it got me thinking.
family, my baby, friends and unwanted people.
sighs.
i dun really have the strength to face many things now.
as i said in my previous entry,
my chest pain has started again.
it has caused me to feel even worse.
as it is i am pooped.
arghh.
i just heard from baby that his whole bunk is being quarantined.
cause one of his friend has chicken pox.
so they might not be able to book out for 2 weeks.
that is very very bad news.
i dun know how to go by these 2 weeks.
its not confirmed yet.
but hearing this is bad enuff.
missing him so much alr.
why do people have to serve the Nation?
ok there are the good points but has the bad ones too.
i guess i cant do anything abt that.
just have to tahan n go by it.
days are long now.
since he has gone back to camp.
today vinod got p'hunked by mummy.
was so so funny.
he sounded so humble and soft when he was talking to my mum.
aiyo shld have recorded it la.
damn cute.
blah blah.
but i am still loving u.
hehe.
he is my very good friend.
i will never wanna trade anything for this relationship.
he has been there for me when i was down.
he always wished for the best between me n baby.
thanks alot bum.
you are the best.
although i have so many friends,
i can say that you are the closest.
(",)
i thank God for everything i have now in my life.
i am loving every single moment of my life.
although its kinda dreary.
but i love everyone who are close to me.
thanks for being there for me.
love u all.
missing sch so much!!
things that are affecting you.
things that will affect you indirectly.
many many things actually.
now i am being affected by quite a number of things and it got me thinking.
family, my baby, friends and unwanted people.
sighs.
i dun really have the strength to face many things now.
as i said in my previous entry,
my chest pain has started again.
it has caused me to feel even worse.
as it is i am pooped.
arghh.
i just heard from baby that his whole bunk is being quarantined.
cause one of his friend has chicken pox.
so they might not be able to book out for 2 weeks.
that is very very bad news.
i dun know how to go by these 2 weeks.
its not confirmed yet.
but hearing this is bad enuff.
missing him so much alr.
why do people have to serve the Nation?
ok there are the good points but has the bad ones too.
i guess i cant do anything abt that.
just have to tahan n go by it.
days are long now.
since he has gone back to camp.
today vinod got p'hunked by mummy.
was so so funny.
he sounded so humble and soft when he was talking to my mum.
aiyo shld have recorded it la.
damn cute.
blah blah.
but i am still loving u.
hehe.
he is my very good friend.
i will never wanna trade anything for this relationship.
he has been there for me when i was down.
he always wished for the best between me n baby.
thanks alot bum.
you are the best.
although i have so many friends,
i can say that you are the closest.
(",)
i thank God for everything i have now in my life.
i am loving every single moment of my life.
although its kinda dreary.
but i love everyone who are close to me.
thanks for being there for me.
love u all.
missing sch so much!!
Sunday, March 26, 2006
my lil baby is so cute.
today i had loads of fun.
slept till about 11 plus.
then woke up and went to baby's hse.
stephen was also in the hse.
god knows for what.
but its nice to see him.
hardly get to see him these days.
spent lots of time wid baby.
then headed to telok blangah to ammama's hse.
i found out some things today at the hse.
aunty rani showed me all the pics that they have taken since long ago.
and to my surprise,
i saw many of my baby's pic.
he looks so cute.
when u see the pics,
u wld just wanna pinch those chubby cheeks.
so yummy.
at that time when i was looking at the pics,
i felt like taking the pics widout telling.
it was so tempting.
maybe one day i will ask for the pics then i can scan.
i love u baby.
u still look cute n gd to me now.
muacks.
after some time,
we went for dinner at Newton.
i went wid baby and his whole family.
it was really wonderful as i never had a meal wid them like that.
moreover going out together.
it felt so gd except that i felt kinda wierd cause of all tat has happened.
i used to be so close to annah but now.
sighs.
its just not right.
i dun know how he feels,
but i definately feel sad.
its ok.
i know God is watching.
he will do something soon i guess.
even if he doesnt,
i just want annah to be happy.
love him still no matter what.
thanks dada for a wonderful time.
despite my body aches and terrible chest pain,
i enjoyed my day.
my chest pains are getting worse.
not sure why though.
am not having probs but the pain worsens.
sigh.
whats happening to me.
but i know u care for me so much.
u take care for me like i am ur lil baby.
i feel so warm da.
thanks ma.
you have always been there for me.
no matter what the situation is.
(",)
cant wait for this weekend.
so that i can spend time with u.
muacks.
loving u always.
slept till about 11 plus.
then woke up and went to baby's hse.
stephen was also in the hse.
god knows for what.
but its nice to see him.
hardly get to see him these days.
spent lots of time wid baby.
then headed to telok blangah to ammama's hse.
i found out some things today at the hse.
aunty rani showed me all the pics that they have taken since long ago.
and to my surprise,
i saw many of my baby's pic.
he looks so cute.
when u see the pics,
u wld just wanna pinch those chubby cheeks.
so yummy.
at that time when i was looking at the pics,
i felt like taking the pics widout telling.
it was so tempting.
maybe one day i will ask for the pics then i can scan.
i love u baby.
u still look cute n gd to me now.
muacks.
after some time,
we went for dinner at Newton.
i went wid baby and his whole family.
it was really wonderful as i never had a meal wid them like that.
moreover going out together.
it felt so gd except that i felt kinda wierd cause of all tat has happened.
i used to be so close to annah but now.
sighs.
its just not right.
i dun know how he feels,
but i definately feel sad.
its ok.
i know God is watching.
he will do something soon i guess.
even if he doesnt,
i just want annah to be happy.
love him still no matter what.
thanks dada for a wonderful time.
despite my body aches and terrible chest pain,
i enjoyed my day.
my chest pains are getting worse.
not sure why though.
am not having probs but the pain worsens.
sigh.
whats happening to me.
but i know u care for me so much.
u take care for me like i am ur lil baby.
i feel so warm da.
thanks ma.
you have always been there for me.
no matter what the situation is.
(",)
cant wait for this weekend.
so that i can spend time with u.
muacks.
loving u always.
**Rowan Tree (Sensitivity)**
Oct 04 to Oct 13 - Rowan Tree
**Rowan Tree (Sensitivity)** --
full of charm,
cheerful,
gifted without egoism,
likes to draw attention,
loves life,
motion,
unrest,
and even complications,
is both dependent and independent,
good taste,
artistic,
passionate,
emotional,
good company,
does not forgive.
**Rowan Tree (Sensitivity)** --
full of charm,
cheerful,
gifted without egoism,
likes to draw attention,
loves life,
motion,
unrest,
and even complications,
is both dependent and independent,
good taste,
artistic,
passionate,
emotional,
good company,
does not forgive.
Friday, March 24, 2006
1 year 6 months.
my day was actually going fine.
except that i miss baby alot.
i mean its our 18 month anni but he cld not book out.
its ok its not his fault.
anw i passed all my modules.
i am so happy for that.
all the nonsense started in the late evening.
i heard that some bitch is going ard telling that my mum has cancer.
watch ya mouth dumb ass.
i know u will be happy if something happens to me or my mum.
but too bad nothing is happening.
we are fine and happy.
i am not just putting on a show.
im stating a fact.
anw u n ya son,
all so happy so why bother??
i thought u said that u dun ever wanna say my name n be bothered abt anything to do wid me.
now what are u doing??
u said my name and act so concerned abt my mum.
screw u la.
just get a damn life.
go alter ya life first before u talk abt others.
damn u man.
arghh
anw its ok.
i am just missing my baby so much.
wish he cld be here wid me so that we can celebrate.
its ok.
we can celebrate tml.
love u dada.
maucks!!
except that i miss baby alot.
i mean its our 18 month anni but he cld not book out.
its ok its not his fault.
anw i passed all my modules.
i am so happy for that.
all the nonsense started in the late evening.
i heard that some bitch is going ard telling that my mum has cancer.
watch ya mouth dumb ass.
i know u will be happy if something happens to me or my mum.
but too bad nothing is happening.
we are fine and happy.
i am not just putting on a show.
im stating a fact.
anw u n ya son,
all so happy so why bother??
i thought u said that u dun ever wanna say my name n be bothered abt anything to do wid me.
now what are u doing??
u said my name and act so concerned abt my mum.
screw u la.
just get a damn life.
go alter ya life first before u talk abt others.
damn u man.
arghh
anw its ok.
i am just missing my baby so much.
wish he cld be here wid me so that we can celebrate.
its ok.
we can celebrate tml.
love u dada.
maucks!!
Thursday, March 23, 2006
October
> ---------------OCTOBER------------------->
Loves to chat.
Loves those who love them.
Loves to takes things at the center.
Inner and physical beauty.
Lies but doesn't pretend.
Gets angry often.
Treats friends importantly.
Brave and fearless.
Always making friends.
Easily hurt but recovers easily.
Daydreamer.
Opinionated.
Does not care to control emotions.
Unpredictable.
Extremely smart,but definitely the hottest AND sexiest of them all.
Loves to chat.
Loves those who love them.
Loves to takes things at the center.
Inner and physical beauty.
Lies but doesn't pretend.
Gets angry often.
Treats friends importantly.
Brave and fearless.
Always making friends.
Easily hurt but recovers easily.
Daydreamer.
Opinionated.
Does not care to control emotions.
Unpredictable.
Extremely smart,but definitely the hottest AND sexiest of them all.
Wednesday, March 22, 2006
my boring days.
u know my days are so damn long.
i mean its only 2 weeks since hols have started and i wish for it to end.
sch re-opens on 24th april.
my 19months anni.
its been like that since last year.
and for this sem,
my results are on my 18month anni.
hope that will give me gd luck.
if i pass all my modules,
i'll just be so happy.
cause i dun have the slightest bit of hope for my SF module.
Singapore Families Policies & Practices.
arghh..
anw recently i have been watching loads of programmes which are about special needs.
it wierd yet good at the same time.
i mean i feel its a sign for me.
but i am not sure if that is a calling.
i know i love to advance in special needs,
but i dun know if God is showing me signs.
it all seems to fall in place right.
i shall pray.
anw i am missing my baby lots.
whenever he goes to camp,
its the start of a boring week and an empty one too.
i dun have anyone to go out wid and also i dun have $$.
so whats the point.
oh ya u din know,
im the new security guard for my house.
i am not being paid much but at least i have gd food.
my own bed, pillows, bloster, personal fan.
gd hospitality i would say.
so why get a better job.
~smiles~
but it gets kinda boring at times,
doing this job.
but i have nothing else to do.
my baby's calls and msges are the ones that brighten up my dark, long days.
i love u dada so much.
i cant wait for this friday.
for 2 things actually.
one is my results.
and another is my anni.
i am planning on doing something for my baby.
but havent really thought of anything.
must go n seek advice from the bum tml.
he is our personal friend, adviser and many more roles he play.
the best is being a bum!
but i still love him.
(",)
i mean its only 2 weeks since hols have started and i wish for it to end.
sch re-opens on 24th april.
my 19months anni.
its been like that since last year.
and for this sem,
my results are on my 18month anni.
hope that will give me gd luck.
if i pass all my modules,
i'll just be so happy.
cause i dun have the slightest bit of hope for my SF module.
Singapore Families Policies & Practices.
arghh..
anw recently i have been watching loads of programmes which are about special needs.
it wierd yet good at the same time.
i mean i feel its a sign for me.
but i am not sure if that is a calling.
i know i love to advance in special needs,
but i dun know if God is showing me signs.
it all seems to fall in place right.
i shall pray.
anw i am missing my baby lots.
whenever he goes to camp,
its the start of a boring week and an empty one too.
i dun have anyone to go out wid and also i dun have $$.
so whats the point.
oh ya u din know,
im the new security guard for my house.
i am not being paid much but at least i have gd food.
my own bed, pillows, bloster, personal fan.
gd hospitality i would say.
so why get a better job.
~smiles~
but it gets kinda boring at times,
doing this job.
but i have nothing else to do.
my baby's calls and msges are the ones that brighten up my dark, long days.
i love u dada so much.
i cant wait for this friday.
for 2 things actually.
one is my results.
and another is my anni.
i am planning on doing something for my baby.
but havent really thought of anything.
must go n seek advice from the bum tml.
he is our personal friend, adviser and many more roles he play.
the best is being a bum!
but i still love him.
(",)
Saturday, March 18, 2006
Vinod's 21st B'day
my eldest brothers' b'day is on the 17th March.
which was yesterday.
and on the same day,
Vinod celebrated his 21st b'day.
so in the evening i met baby n went for the party.
it was really so fun.
we danced and took pics.
then after the party,
steph, tim, vinod, baby & me,
we headed to east coast.
we brought the vodka bottle too.
we drank and talked so much.
it was so much of fun.
then at about 6 am,
we headed to steph's house.
all of us were so damn tired.
so we just slpt there.
i slpt on baby's hands.
so nice and comfy.
then i woke up and went home.
and slpt even better.
as it was on my own bed.
but it is not the same as slping on my baby's hands.
overall it was so damn fun.
thanks vinod for all the fun.
Happy B'day My Darling Brother!!
which was yesterday.
and on the same day,
Vinod celebrated his 21st b'day.
so in the evening i met baby n went for the party.
it was really so fun.
we danced and took pics.
then after the party,
steph, tim, vinod, baby & me,
we headed to east coast.
we brought the vodka bottle too.
we drank and talked so much.
it was so much of fun.
then at about 6 am,
we headed to steph's house.
all of us were so damn tired.
so we just slpt there.
i slpt on baby's hands.
so nice and comfy.
then i woke up and went home.
and slpt even better.
as it was on my own bed.
but it is not the same as slping on my baby's hands.
overall it was so damn fun.
thanks vinod for all the fun.
Happy B'day My Darling Brother!!
pictures
all of us.b'day boy in the center.
trying our best to look cute.think we did a gd job.
baby giving me flowers.cant really see cause of the table.
steph n me.after so long.
Friday, March 17, 2006
spending time wid my baby.
past few days my baby could book out as he had to go for medical appt.
this is the only time i get to spend loads of wid him.
its really nice as i dun get this opportunity often.
spending time wid him just brings me great joy.
im most content.
i like.
he is joy that i can never receive from anyone else.
thanks dada.
you have always been there for me.
taking caring and sayang me alot.
muacks.
this is the only time i get to spend loads of wid him.
its really nice as i dun get this opportunity often.
spending time wid him just brings me great joy.
im most content.
i like.
he is joy that i can never receive from anyone else.
thanks dada.
you have always been there for me.
taking caring and sayang me alot.
muacks.
Wednesday, March 15, 2006
long long night.
i just reached home from Tan Tock Seng Hospital.
my bro met in an accident.
he was on his way home,
when he was hit by a car.
the car was in the wrong.
arghh..
my bro was driving in the major road and the car was in the minor road turning right.
my whole family went to the hospital.
we were very worried.
but when we reached the hospital we knew what had happened.
and my bro was not in a serious condition.
thank god nothing serious had happened.
no fractures or any serious injuries.
the doc wanted him to stay for a couple of days,
but my bro insisted on going home.
he is just scared of all the needles and injections.
but as long as he is ok tts good enuff.
i cant bare to see anything happening to any of my family members.
thank you Lord for guiding all my loved ones.
thank you so much!!
my bro met in an accident.
he was on his way home,
when he was hit by a car.
the car was in the wrong.
arghh..
my bro was driving in the major road and the car was in the minor road turning right.
my whole family went to the hospital.
we were very worried.
but when we reached the hospital we knew what had happened.
and my bro was not in a serious condition.
thank god nothing serious had happened.
no fractures or any serious injuries.
the doc wanted him to stay for a couple of days,
but my bro insisted on going home.
he is just scared of all the needles and injections.
but as long as he is ok tts good enuff.
i cant bare to see anything happening to any of my family members.
thank you Lord for guiding all my loved ones.
thank you so much!!
Tuesday, March 14, 2006
Hospital Window
Hospital Window
A great note for all to read it will take just 37 seconds to read this and change your thinking.
Two men, both seriously ill, occupied the same hospital room.
One man was allowed to sit up in his bed for an hour each afternoon to help drain the fluid from his lungs.
His bed was next to the room's only window.
The other man had to spend all his time flat on his back.
The men talked for hours on end.
They spoke of their wives and families, their homes, their jobs, their involvement in the military service, where they had been on vacation.
Every afternoon when the man in the bed by the window could sit up, he would pass the time by describing to his roommate all the things he could see outside the window.
The man in the other bed began to live for those one hour periods where his world would be broadened and enlivened by all the activity and color of the world outside.
The window overlooked a park with a lovely lake.
Ducks and swans played on the water while children sailed their model boats.
Young lovers walked arm in arm amidst flowers of every color and a fine view of the city skyline could be seen in the distance.
As the man by the window described all this in exquisite detail, the man on the other side of the room would close his eyes and imagine the picturesque scene.
One warm afternoon the man by the window described a parade passing by.
Although the other man couldn't hear the band - he could see it.
In his mind's eye as the gentleman by the window portrayed it with descriptive words.
Days and weeks passed.
One morning, the day nurse arrived to bring water for their baths only to find the lifeless body of the man by the window, who had died peacefully in his sleep.
She was saddened and called the hospital attendants to take the body away.
As soon as it seemed appropriate, the other man asked if he could be moved next to the
window.
The nurse was happy to make the switch, and after making sure he was comfortable, she left him alone.
Slowly, painfully, he propped himself up on one elbow to take his first look at the real world outside.
He strained to slowly turn to look out the window beside the bed.
It faced a blank wall.
The man asked the nurse what could have compelled his deceased roommate who had described such wonderful things outside this windowThe nurse responded that the man was blind and could not even see the wall.
She said, "Perhaps he just wanted to encourage you.
Epilogue:
There is tremendous happiness in making others happy, despite our own situations.
Shared grief is half the sorrow, but happiness when shared, is doubled.
If you want to feel rich, just count all the things you have that money can't buy.
"Today is a gift, that's why it is called the present.
The origin of this letter is unknown, but it brings good luck to everyone who passes it on.
A great note for all to read it will take just 37 seconds to read this and change your thinking.
Two men, both seriously ill, occupied the same hospital room.
One man was allowed to sit up in his bed for an hour each afternoon to help drain the fluid from his lungs.
His bed was next to the room's only window.
The other man had to spend all his time flat on his back.
The men talked for hours on end.
They spoke of their wives and families, their homes, their jobs, their involvement in the military service, where they had been on vacation.
Every afternoon when the man in the bed by the window could sit up, he would pass the time by describing to his roommate all the things he could see outside the window.
The man in the other bed began to live for those one hour periods where his world would be broadened and enlivened by all the activity and color of the world outside.
The window overlooked a park with a lovely lake.
Ducks and swans played on the water while children sailed their model boats.
Young lovers walked arm in arm amidst flowers of every color and a fine view of the city skyline could be seen in the distance.
As the man by the window described all this in exquisite detail, the man on the other side of the room would close his eyes and imagine the picturesque scene.
One warm afternoon the man by the window described a parade passing by.
Although the other man couldn't hear the band - he could see it.
In his mind's eye as the gentleman by the window portrayed it with descriptive words.
Days and weeks passed.
One morning, the day nurse arrived to bring water for their baths only to find the lifeless body of the man by the window, who had died peacefully in his sleep.
She was saddened and called the hospital attendants to take the body away.
As soon as it seemed appropriate, the other man asked if he could be moved next to the
window.
The nurse was happy to make the switch, and after making sure he was comfortable, she left him alone.
Slowly, painfully, he propped himself up on one elbow to take his first look at the real world outside.
He strained to slowly turn to look out the window beside the bed.
It faced a blank wall.
The man asked the nurse what could have compelled his deceased roommate who had described such wonderful things outside this windowThe nurse responded that the man was blind and could not even see the wall.
She said, "Perhaps he just wanted to encourage you.
Epilogue:
There is tremendous happiness in making others happy, despite our own situations.
Shared grief is half the sorrow, but happiness when shared, is doubled.
If you want to feel rich, just count all the things you have that money can't buy.
"Today is a gift, that's why it is called the present.
The origin of this letter is unknown, but it brings good luck to everyone who passes it on.
the happiest i have been in a long time.
i am so happy.
it is all going damn good.
i never knew today wld be so much of happiness.
anw today i could not sleep properly so i woke up and helped my mum with the chores a little.
then i decided to watch dvd.
Nanny Mcphee is good.
and u know something,
the youngest character in the movie is Agatha.
wow.
alot of magical movies,
my name is in it.
i wonder why too.
so after that movie,
i watched Memoirs of a Geisha.
it was ok.kinda slow.
after the movie i went to have a short nap.
then i got ready and met my baby at Causeway point.
i bought a black sandles.
i like.
my baby helped me to choose it.
then we went to buy some stuff at popular as i am going to the child care center again this wed.
then we went to buy baby's mummy a present.
it was nice.
after all the shoppin,
baby n i ate at pastamania.
we ate there at last.
whoohoo.
then we went back to his house.
i had an extremely good time at his place.
his parents were talking to me about many things.
i mean i never felt this happy for so long.
his daddy also have the same phone as me.
i am just so happy.
i was playing with his sister also.
it was all so fun.
i love him n his family.
thank you dada for everything.
u just make me happy always.
muacks my love.
i am really so thankful.
i am waiting for so many more things to happen.
it is all going damn good.
i never knew today wld be so much of happiness.
anw today i could not sleep properly so i woke up and helped my mum with the chores a little.
then i decided to watch dvd.
Nanny Mcphee is good.
and u know something,
the youngest character in the movie is Agatha.
wow.
alot of magical movies,
my name is in it.
i wonder why too.
so after that movie,
i watched Memoirs of a Geisha.
it was ok.kinda slow.
after the movie i went to have a short nap.
then i got ready and met my baby at Causeway point.
i bought a black sandles.
i like.
my baby helped me to choose it.
then we went to buy some stuff at popular as i am going to the child care center again this wed.
then we went to buy baby's mummy a present.
it was nice.
after all the shoppin,
baby n i ate at pastamania.
we ate there at last.
whoohoo.
then we went back to his house.
i had an extremely good time at his place.
his parents were talking to me about many things.
i mean i never felt this happy for so long.
his daddy also have the same phone as me.
i am just so happy.
i was playing with his sister also.
it was all so fun.
i love him n his family.
thank you dada for everything.
u just make me happy always.
muacks my love.
i am really so thankful.
i am waiting for so many more things to happen.
Monday, March 13, 2006
i got it all wrong.
i have mistaken alot of things.
i have misunderstood the situation.
and came to the wrong conclusion.
i am so sorry.
anw they did not say i could not come to the house.
they just din want more problems to occur,
if both of us happened to be there at the same time.
sighs.
i was really upset wid myself when i found out the truth.
how can i think abt his parents like that??
how could i??
i am so sad.
baby explained everything to me.
he was angry tat i got it all mistaken.
i mean i said things i was not suppose to,
but i was really so sad.
sighs.
but i am happy its all alright now.
baby even said that mummy n daddy asked why i din come to ammama hse.
i was really happy when i heard that.
it really showed that they really do care.
i am very very happy.
thank you baby.
i am very sorry for all that i have said,
its my fault for saying widout thinking.
love u boy!
anw i got my 7610 today.
oh my i have waited so long for this phone.
i know i know u may think that this is an old model,
but i like it so u cant say anything.
loving the phone so much.
muacks thanks to my wonderful family!!
i have misunderstood the situation.
and came to the wrong conclusion.
i am so sorry.
anw they did not say i could not come to the house.
they just din want more problems to occur,
if both of us happened to be there at the same time.
sighs.
i was really upset wid myself when i found out the truth.
how can i think abt his parents like that??
how could i??
i am so sad.
baby explained everything to me.
he was angry tat i got it all mistaken.
i mean i said things i was not suppose to,
but i was really so sad.
sighs.
but i am happy its all alright now.
baby even said that mummy n daddy asked why i din come to ammama hse.
i was really happy when i heard that.
it really showed that they really do care.
i am very very happy.
thank you baby.
i am very sorry for all that i have said,
its my fault for saying widout thinking.
love u boy!
anw i got my 7610 today.
oh my i have waited so long for this phone.
i know i know u may think that this is an old model,
but i like it so u cant say anything.
loving the phone so much.
muacks thanks to my wonderful family!!
Sunday, March 12, 2006
my life has gone far away.
you said u dun want me,
but i know tats just coming from ya mouth.
i know u want me so much.
i hope tts all true.
i dun wanna have false hope.
i dun wanna live on something which is not there at all.
i have lost so much in life.
if only u knew everything.
i am so sorry i had been hard on u.
i know its all my fault.
things have gone this way bcoz of me.
i shld have just listened,
but i spoke too much.
i know saying sorry is not going to help.
hope u just realised how i feel.
i know u will.
u have always been the one there for me.
now i have no one at all.
im just sitting in this dark room,
wondering how i am going to carry on wid life.
i cant move on,
the fact is that no one can ever replace u.
n i do not love anyone as much as i love u.
i have said this so many times,
you are my life n my everything.
when ya life has left ya body,
what's left?
just the body of course.
and thats no use at all.
widout life the body cant work.
im feeling so weak and devastated.
i know u feel the same way too.
i wish i can tell u now.
i wish u can hold me in ya arms and tell me,
its alright i am here for u.
STOP THINKING!!
its never going to happen ever again!!
just move on.
this is just what my mind is telling me,
but my heart acts otherwise.
just tell me once again u love me,
so that i can carry on for the rest of my life.
its hurts so much.
to take a breath of air seems to be so hard.
i wonder how its going to be to carry on.
its amazing im still holding on.
there is no one else to blame except me.
im wrong n have always been.
its not right to give me another chance.
u will be happy like this.
i know u can achieve more.
if u think i am happy think again.
maybe u will just think i am going in the bad way like how i did before.
but its ok.
although im nothing to you,
you will always be my everything.
i said tat if my everything left me,
i will never be ard.
i mean what i say.
i've been a disappointment.
i've always been one.
i know God will never forsake my loved ones.
he will guide and protect them no matter what.
i will leave everything in his hands now.
let me rest in peace.
just to let everyone know,
never ever take anything for granted.
bcoz u may never know when its going to leave.
no matter what the situation is,
just treasure it.
it will never be able to come back.
u cant turn back time.
but i know tats just coming from ya mouth.
i know u want me so much.
i hope tts all true.
i dun wanna have false hope.
i dun wanna live on something which is not there at all.
i have lost so much in life.
if only u knew everything.
i am so sorry i had been hard on u.
i know its all my fault.
things have gone this way bcoz of me.
i shld have just listened,
but i spoke too much.
i know saying sorry is not going to help.
hope u just realised how i feel.
i know u will.
u have always been the one there for me.
now i have no one at all.
im just sitting in this dark room,
wondering how i am going to carry on wid life.
i cant move on,
the fact is that no one can ever replace u.
n i do not love anyone as much as i love u.
i have said this so many times,
you are my life n my everything.
when ya life has left ya body,
what's left?
just the body of course.
and thats no use at all.
widout life the body cant work.
im feeling so weak and devastated.
i know u feel the same way too.
i wish i can tell u now.
i wish u can hold me in ya arms and tell me,
its alright i am here for u.
STOP THINKING!!
its never going to happen ever again!!
just move on.
this is just what my mind is telling me,
but my heart acts otherwise.
just tell me once again u love me,
so that i can carry on for the rest of my life.
its hurts so much.
to take a breath of air seems to be so hard.
i wonder how its going to be to carry on.
its amazing im still holding on.
there is no one else to blame except me.
im wrong n have always been.
its not right to give me another chance.
u will be happy like this.
i know u can achieve more.
if u think i am happy think again.
maybe u will just think i am going in the bad way like how i did before.
but its ok.
although im nothing to you,
you will always be my everything.
i said tat if my everything left me,
i will never be ard.
i mean what i say.
i've been a disappointment.
i've always been one.
i know God will never forsake my loved ones.
he will guide and protect them no matter what.
i will leave everything in his hands now.
let me rest in peace.
just to let everyone know,
never ever take anything for granted.
bcoz u may never know when its going to leave.
no matter what the situation is,
just treasure it.
it will never be able to come back.
u cant turn back time.
Saturday, March 11, 2006
Bitch
and this is for you BITCH!!
you are spoiling ya own image.
too bad maybe u dun have alr.
all the best in what u are trying to do now!!
fuck off fugly slut!!
and practice what you bitch, BITCH!
you are spoiling ya own image.
too bad maybe u dun have alr.
all the best in what u are trying to do now!!
fuck off fugly slut!!
and practice what you bitch, BITCH!
Friday, March 10, 2006
http://sb.sp.edu.sg/sb/counsel/Trendy/intro.asp
my results.
You live life through communication and expression, both in actions and spoken words. Being perceptive, you are adept at understanding people’s motivations and fears. This allows you to bring out the best in an individual and facilitate the development of his/her potential. You rate integrity and sincerity highly in your relationships. Being imaginative and inventive, you are unafraid to discover possibilities and undergo new experiences. But these must be consistent with your beliefs to contribute to the betterment of mankind. You hold firm beliefs and are courageous in expressing yourself with a personal touch. You are talented in communicating your views and are skilled in persuading and influencing even those who hold different views. You desire to be appreciated and also freely express your appreciation of others. Having good capabilities, organizational skills and the ability to make long-term plans, you make motivational leaders and trustworthy followers.
Potential Strengths
Can get things organised
Ability to develop human resources
Skilled at building consensus
People skills
Energy & enthusiasm
Popular Occupations
Sales trainer
Travel agent
Sales manager
Human resource development trainer
Dietician/ nutritionistMinister/ priests
Teachers (heath/art/drama/English)
Actors and entertainers
Writers and artists
Consultants
Newscaster
my results.
You live life through communication and expression, both in actions and spoken words. Being perceptive, you are adept at understanding people’s motivations and fears. This allows you to bring out the best in an individual and facilitate the development of his/her potential. You rate integrity and sincerity highly in your relationships. Being imaginative and inventive, you are unafraid to discover possibilities and undergo new experiences. But these must be consistent with your beliefs to contribute to the betterment of mankind. You hold firm beliefs and are courageous in expressing yourself with a personal touch. You are talented in communicating your views and are skilled in persuading and influencing even those who hold different views. You desire to be appreciated and also freely express your appreciation of others. Having good capabilities, organizational skills and the ability to make long-term plans, you make motivational leaders and trustworthy followers.
Potential Strengths
Can get things organised
Ability to develop human resources
Skilled at building consensus
People skills
Energy & enthusiasm
Popular Occupations
Sales trainer
Travel agent
Sales manager
Human resource development trainer
Dietician/ nutritionistMinister/ priests
Teachers (heath/art/drama/English)
Actors and entertainers
Writers and artists
Consultants
Newscaster
Thursday, March 09, 2006
the mind is very complex..
do u believe that there is the perfect man or woman for you?
hmph today i watched the movie,
The Perfect Man!
it was really nice.
i know its a movie but some things are really true.
i just realised that my baby is the perfect one for me.
although he does not spend much time with me,
i know he wishes he can spend more time with me.
i love him so much.
he means the world to me.
its just that he is in camp.
and its against his will.
anw today my cousin got discharged.
this cousin is like a sister i never had.
she has been there for me when i was down and also happy.
esp when i was going through the worse time in my life,
she was there for me.
thanks alot sis.
and now she is going to get married.
her darling looks like a teddy bear so cute!!
(",)
hehe..anw i am so happy for u sis.
its really great to see u being happy and all.
and u know what??
i am her bridesmaid!!
yay!!
i have never been one.
i am so excited.
whatever it is sis,
i will always pray for u.
dun worry the results will be fine.
muacks.
babe my days are going so slowly.
i cant find a job.
actually i keep calling so many places,
but they see skin colour.
sighs.
i dun know what to do anymore.
its so boring staying at home.
i cant go out and all bcoz my friends are working and moreover i dun have money!!
if i dun have a job where can i find money??
i dun know baby.
u are in camp also..
i cant meet u.
its ok.
i always look forward to the weekend.
muacks da.
thanks for being there n listening to me.
hmph today i watched the movie,
The Perfect Man!
it was really nice.
i know its a movie but some things are really true.
i just realised that my baby is the perfect one for me.
although he does not spend much time with me,
i know he wishes he can spend more time with me.
i love him so much.
he means the world to me.
its just that he is in camp.
and its against his will.
anw today my cousin got discharged.
this cousin is like a sister i never had.
she has been there for me when i was down and also happy.
esp when i was going through the worse time in my life,
she was there for me.
thanks alot sis.
and now she is going to get married.
her darling looks like a teddy bear so cute!!
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hehe..anw i am so happy for u sis.
its really great to see u being happy and all.
and u know what??
i am her bridesmaid!!
yay!!
i have never been one.
i am so excited.
whatever it is sis,
i will always pray for u.
dun worry the results will be fine.
muacks.
babe my days are going so slowly.
i cant find a job.
actually i keep calling so many places,
but they see skin colour.
sighs.
i dun know what to do anymore.
its so boring staying at home.
i cant go out and all bcoz my friends are working and moreover i dun have money!!
if i dun have a job where can i find money??
i dun know baby.
u are in camp also..
i cant meet u.
its ok.
i always look forward to the weekend.
muacks da.
thanks for being there n listening to me.
Singled Out
Rules: Copy and paste the questions to your site and answer them, then pick five people whom you wish to be Singled Out. Don’t forget to tell them they’ve been Singled Out.—
You get one wish of anything, what would you ask for?
For world peace; where people are not racist or religionist and everyone to be happy!
What animal would you be?
Butterfly.Its not an animal but i wanna be that.its a beautiful creature.
Something you want to do in your life:
Make as many people happy as possible, esp my loved ones.
One song you could listen to over and over again:
Pussycat dolls-Stick with you.
Coke or Pepsi?
Coke no doubt about it.
Something you currently desire:
To spend more time with my baby.Cause he is in camp and hard to spend time with him.
One good deed you’ve done lately:
Told the truth?? But some people think that its very wrong. Anw my conscience is clear!!!
A funny moment in your life:
Too many to think of but i liked the time when my gals n i were on the bus talking about all the funny things that happened.When i think about it, i still laugh out loud.
I will single this out to Joel, Jacq, Ian, Vinod and Ziwen.
Wednesday, March 08, 2006
children and their lives.
i was just watching First Touch II.
i realised that when babies are in the womb or just after birth,
they are most likely to have lots of complications.
there are children who dun also.
but when u see babies with loads of complications,
you empathize with them and their parents.
its really so hard to face all that problems.
i know how i would feel if my child will be affected with all those problems too.
but i will definately be strong for my child so that he will lead a normal life.
whatever that is going to happen,
its all planned by God.
its just happening by his plans.
there is a reason for everything.
although u may not accept that at that moment,
you will some time later.
but its hard.
i know.
when u are conceived,
you will feel joy and happiness.
but when u know u are going to loose ya baby or have many complications,
you will definately be down and devastated.
watching the drama made me realise how precious life is.
my friend just told me that he had been admitted to IMH.
and was discharged recently.
i was and still am very shocked.
he tried to take his own life and was going through depression.
he is very close to me..almost like my own brother.
i am aghast by what he had done.
i am sad that he did not turn to me.
maybe he din think i would have been there.
he said that everyone had their own life and why would people have time for him.
i am sad he thinks this way.
i really pray that he will be fine.
i assured him that i will always be here for him and he knows that well too.
i am sure God is watching all this and will guide those in need.
he will never forsake anyone.
no matter who you are or what you have done,
God will always help.
tts how he is.
he is loving and forgiving.
tts him!!
i realised that when babies are in the womb or just after birth,
they are most likely to have lots of complications.
there are children who dun also.
but when u see babies with loads of complications,
you empathize with them and their parents.
its really so hard to face all that problems.
i know how i would feel if my child will be affected with all those problems too.
but i will definately be strong for my child so that he will lead a normal life.
whatever that is going to happen,
its all planned by God.
its just happening by his plans.
there is a reason for everything.
although u may not accept that at that moment,
you will some time later.
but its hard.
i know.
when u are conceived,
you will feel joy and happiness.
but when u know u are going to loose ya baby or have many complications,
you will definately be down and devastated.
watching the drama made me realise how precious life is.
my friend just told me that he had been admitted to IMH.
and was discharged recently.
i was and still am very shocked.
he tried to take his own life and was going through depression.
he is very close to me..almost like my own brother.
i am aghast by what he had done.
i am sad that he did not turn to me.
maybe he din think i would have been there.
he said that everyone had their own life and why would people have time for him.
i am sad he thinks this way.
i really pray that he will be fine.
i assured him that i will always be here for him and he knows that well too.
i am sure God is watching all this and will guide those in need.
he will never forsake anyone.
no matter who you are or what you have done,
God will always help.
tts how he is.
he is loving and forgiving.
tts him!!
Monday, March 06, 2006
Wolf Creek Sucks!!
today at last i saw my baby.
really missed him so much.
he had confinement so he cld not book out on friday.
its all my fault.
~sighs~
anw we decided to meet vinod also.
he just came back from thailand.
so long never see him.
bloody bum.
so my baby came n fetch me from my house.
then we headed to orchard to meet vinod.
we decided to go watch movie.
we went to cine and vinod chose to watch Wolf Creek.
which is a damn stupid movie.
so disgusting.
i felt very awful while i was watching the movie.
not the feeling of throwing up but my chest was so pain.
anw vinod bought me a small pouch which had my name engraved on it.
so sweet.
thanks a million bum.
and he bought for my baby a thai boxer.
they say its kinda special as u cant get it anywhere else.
after the movie,
baby n i decided to come back to my place here to eat dinner.
so we headed back here and had dinner.
we talked so much and all.
it was so nice.
then we were suppose to meet stephen but he din come down so,
we sat at the shelter near my place and was just talking.
after so long i was in his arms.
it felt so good.
its like im back in heavens again.
he is my everything.
i missed my baby so much.
my chest has been very very painful i dun know why.
its affecting my breathing alot.
i am not thinking anything but things just come to my head.
there is this fear in me,
that everything is going to end soon.
i mean i will never be able to take it.
but baby assured me that nothing will happen.
baby takes very good care of me.
no one will ever be able to do that.
although he is not rich or well to do,
he tries his own means to make me happy.
that is enough to make me smile and be glad.
i am so glad that i got to see him at least today.
baby i love u so much da.
i really pray that God will guide and bless us and our families.
i know he wil bcoz he answered my prayers the other day.
for that i am so grateful.
when ever i ask something for myself,
he might push it more,
but when i ask for my family and you or people in need,
he will answer my prayers.
i am very happy.
things dun happen for me its ok.
at least everyone ard me is happy,
tts good enuff for me.
i love u my smelly boy.
you are mine n mine only!!
really missed him so much.
he had confinement so he cld not book out on friday.
its all my fault.
~sighs~
anw we decided to meet vinod also.
he just came back from thailand.
so long never see him.
bloody bum.
so my baby came n fetch me from my house.
then we headed to orchard to meet vinod.
we decided to go watch movie.
we went to cine and vinod chose to watch Wolf Creek.
which is a damn stupid movie.
so disgusting.
i felt very awful while i was watching the movie.
not the feeling of throwing up but my chest was so pain.
anw vinod bought me a small pouch which had my name engraved on it.
so sweet.
thanks a million bum.
and he bought for my baby a thai boxer.
they say its kinda special as u cant get it anywhere else.
after the movie,
baby n i decided to come back to my place here to eat dinner.
so we headed back here and had dinner.
we talked so much and all.
it was so nice.
then we were suppose to meet stephen but he din come down so,
we sat at the shelter near my place and was just talking.
after so long i was in his arms.
it felt so good.
its like im back in heavens again.
he is my everything.
i missed my baby so much.
my chest has been very very painful i dun know why.
its affecting my breathing alot.
i am not thinking anything but things just come to my head.
there is this fear in me,
that everything is going to end soon.
i mean i will never be able to take it.
but baby assured me that nothing will happen.
baby takes very good care of me.
no one will ever be able to do that.
although he is not rich or well to do,
he tries his own means to make me happy.
that is enough to make me smile and be glad.
i am so glad that i got to see him at least today.
baby i love u so much da.
i really pray that God will guide and bless us and our families.
i know he wil bcoz he answered my prayers the other day.
for that i am so grateful.
when ever i ask something for myself,
he might push it more,
but when i ask for my family and you or people in need,
he will answer my prayers.
i am very happy.
things dun happen for me its ok.
at least everyone ard me is happy,
tts good enuff for me.
i love u my smelly boy.
you are mine n mine only!!
Saturday, March 04, 2006
sad that people like that lives.
i just watched the serial Nagal in central.
i am very sad that some guys can be so bad n mean.
i mean i am not sexist,
i agree that gals are also in the wrong.
but the guys also take advantage of the gals.
its really sad.
and to see that the gal was also quite willing..
i mean din she have her own mind to think?
this shows that the guy is not only in the wrong.
bcoz the gal was willing..
if she had her own mind she wld have said no.
but she din.
just for love she had sex with other man.
this is bcoz the guy said that he wil be killed if she dun help him.
i am so astonished by what happened in the drama.
and today my mum told me that it is a real story and they are just re-enacting it.
on the other hand,
i also saw i show which was very moving.
this is also a show in central.
its about this disabled man who is now a MD of a company.
he is in wheelchair and can even drive a car.
he can do everything on his own.
he also said that S'poreans are not very acceptable to people like him.
i agree totally with what he said.
there might some who understand and accept,
there are others who just dun understand and talk bad about those people.
they even give awful stares.
i mean they never think how the other person wld feel.
its sad that people like that are ard.
cant they just understand that everyone is human and have feelings just like them?
its ok i'll leave these matters in God's hands.
he will know what to do.
i trust that he will do something to make people realise.
i am very sad that some guys can be so bad n mean.
i mean i am not sexist,
i agree that gals are also in the wrong.
but the guys also take advantage of the gals.
its really sad.
and to see that the gal was also quite willing..
i mean din she have her own mind to think?
this shows that the guy is not only in the wrong.
bcoz the gal was willing..
if she had her own mind she wld have said no.
but she din.
just for love she had sex with other man.
this is bcoz the guy said that he wil be killed if she dun help him.
i am so astonished by what happened in the drama.
and today my mum told me that it is a real story and they are just re-enacting it.
on the other hand,
i also saw i show which was very moving.
this is also a show in central.
its about this disabled man who is now a MD of a company.
he is in wheelchair and can even drive a car.
he can do everything on his own.
he also said that S'poreans are not very acceptable to people like him.
i agree totally with what he said.
there might some who understand and accept,
there are others who just dun understand and talk bad about those people.
they even give awful stares.
i mean they never think how the other person wld feel.
its sad that people like that are ard.
cant they just understand that everyone is human and have feelings just like them?
its ok i'll leave these matters in God's hands.
he will know what to do.
i trust that he will do something to make people realise.
my life my babyboy.
you are my one n only.
i yearn to be in your arms no matter what.
you have given me so much joy.
although i make u upset,
you never fail to love and care for me.
i am so grateful to have a bf like you.
you have always been there for me.
you have always wanted the best for me.
you are my babyboy.
things might seem rocky at one time,
but we will sail through it together.
you are my strength to carry on with life.
you are my adviser.
you are my happiness.
all in all you are my everything.
i never wanna trade the relationship i have wid you.
you mean the whole world to me.
i never wanna give up.
i know we can go through anything that comes in our way.
we have faced so many already.
so i have the faith that we can carry on with all this.
i love u so much da boy.
muacks.
i will always be wid you no matter what.
Thursday, March 02, 2006
life without you...
during the week days,
i feel like i am being in a room where it is pitch black.
but when the weekend comes,
its like having rainbow all ard me.
its because of you.
cause u make me so happy that it lights up my life.
you are the reason why i look forward to my weekends.
although i see u for a very little time,
im so happy during that little time.
you are my biggest joy da.
u never fail to put a smile on my face.
i just wanna do everything with you da.
everything i do with you just makes me so happy.
its like its meant to be.
i have to thank you for all these months that we have been together.
bcoz u were always there to take care of me.
listen to all my problems and make me feel so comforted.
thanks da boy.
i love u so much.
you are my life.
muacks.
(",)
i feel like i am being in a room where it is pitch black.
but when the weekend comes,
its like having rainbow all ard me.
its because of you.
cause u make me so happy that it lights up my life.
you are the reason why i look forward to my weekends.
although i see u for a very little time,
im so happy during that little time.
you are my biggest joy da.
u never fail to put a smile on my face.
i just wanna do everything with you da.
everything i do with you just makes me so happy.
its like its meant to be.
i have to thank you for all these months that we have been together.
bcoz u were always there to take care of me.
listen to all my problems and make me feel so comforted.
thanks da boy.
i love u so much.
you are my life.
muacks.
(",)
Baby Twinkle's B'day
baby twinkle is one years old.
and today is Ash Wednesday.
tts why i felt that it is a good day to start my new blog.
the other one had unwanted attention and caused alot of probs.
which i felt was very childish.
sigh.
its ok shall not go into that now.
anw its has been one year since my baby gave me twinkle.
although he is just a bear to people,
he is our first baby.
ist sad that baby cant be out celebrating with us,
but i know tat he is missing me n babies alot.
i miss him so much too.
im feeling so much pressure and just wanna be in his arms.
there is so many things happening.
very very sad n affected by all of it.
ok nevermind abt all that.
lets talk about Ash Wednesday.
it is the start of the period of lent.
its for fasting.
its not fasting like how the muslims do.
we can fast in ways of giving up something we like.
its just a different fasting from the muslims.
but its still religious like them.
anw i pray that God will guide everyone despite of being good or bad.
bless n protect them no matter what.
today is also the first day of holiday and its BORING!!
i rather go to school n mingle with my friends.
sigh.
its ok.
next week i will be working with sharon n misha at British India.
where i was working the last time.
yay!!
which means more photo taking sessions.
baby come out soon k.
i just need ya comforting touch.
my chest is all so pain da.
too many things in my head.
i cant talk to u much as u are in camp.
but no matter what i love u so much.
muacks my fatso.
i'll put the pics that we took the other day.
and also pics that me n my gals took on the last day of sch.
Wednesday, March 01, 2006
pictures
baby's idea to do this.actually turned out nice.esp with the star.
his love is all i need.sweeps me off my feet.
forever will be in my hearts.always there for me.
sharon had to put her hand in her pocket which makes her have a big tummy.
the wind effect.nice.but kinda strong.
my angels n me.always been there for me.
the friendship we have cannot be explained in words.