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Sunday, April 30, 2006
Long Long Day!
i slept for about 3 hours then got up.
got ready to meet baby,
as we needed to go to his aunty's hse.
Damien just got confirmed so we were invited for lunch.
so i met baby at the block viod deck.
there were quite alot of people at Damien's hse.
we then ate our lunch.
i had fun there.
playing and joking ard with nesse, bella and all.
really nice.
i was very very tired.
and i also felt a little sad also.
annah was in the same room as me yet i could not talk to him also.
aiyah wat kind of life is this??
just so sad la.
but sometimes its just causing me to feel so irritated!!
arghh..
nvm just forget about it.
baby was slping in Damien's hse as he was very very tired.
i was just occupying my time with the rest of them and all.
the gals were dancing to songs and all.
its was so funny la.
anw after baby woke up,
we got ready and went to meet my parents and my aunty.
we had to go to my another cousin's 21st b'day.
i was wid baby in his bike cause there was not enuff space in the car.
i am not really close to this aunty and her family.
there were so many indian ppl at the chalet.
arghh..
some were so snobbish!!
they were showing attitude and all.
aiyah just wasting my time only.
at least i had baby to talk to.
love him so much.
we din stay at the chalet/b'day party for long.
it was B-O-R-I-N-G!!
my parents went to my aunty's hse in Tampines while i went back home with baby.
baby sent me home and stayed with me a while.
i like to be with him.
i was a little sick as i vimitted and all.
baby was taking care of me like a little baby.
my baby loves me so much.
muacks sweetie.
thanks for everything.
i never wanna trade you for everyone else la.
you are my life.
got ready to meet baby,
as we needed to go to his aunty's hse.
Damien just got confirmed so we were invited for lunch.
so i met baby at the block viod deck.
there were quite alot of people at Damien's hse.
we then ate our lunch.
i had fun there.
playing and joking ard with nesse, bella and all.
really nice.
i was very very tired.
and i also felt a little sad also.
annah was in the same room as me yet i could not talk to him also.
aiyah wat kind of life is this??
just so sad la.
but sometimes its just causing me to feel so irritated!!
arghh..
nvm just forget about it.
baby was slping in Damien's hse as he was very very tired.
i was just occupying my time with the rest of them and all.
the gals were dancing to songs and all.
its was so funny la.
anw after baby woke up,
we got ready and went to meet my parents and my aunty.
we had to go to my another cousin's 21st b'day.
i was wid baby in his bike cause there was not enuff space in the car.
i am not really close to this aunty and her family.
there were so many indian ppl at the chalet.
arghh..
some were so snobbish!!
they were showing attitude and all.
aiyah just wasting my time only.
at least i had baby to talk to.
love him so much.
we din stay at the chalet/b'day party for long.
it was B-O-R-I-N-G!!
my parents went to my aunty's hse in Tampines while i went back home with baby.
baby sent me home and stayed with me a while.
i like to be with him.
i was a little sick as i vimitted and all.
baby was taking care of me like a little baby.
my baby loves me so much.
muacks sweetie.
thanks for everything.
i never wanna trade you for everyone else la.
you are my life.
Jerome's 21st B'day!!
Today is the 29th April 2006.
it has been one year since my uncle willie passed away.
he is my mothers' elder brother.
i still cant accept the fact that he is not with us anymore.
it seems like a dream.
~sigh~
like many say,
anyone can leave us anytime.
so treasure it all.
anw today is also one year since i had a minor accident.
all thanks to my wonderful friend/bro Sunther.
let me recap the story for u ok.
last year on this same very date,
Siva, Sunther and i went to watch movie.
i still remember the movie!
'XXX2'
i dun like to ride wid Siva,
cause his bike looks bigger and i am scared.
so i will sit in Sunther's bike.
on that very day,
i had this feeling that i was going to fall from the bike,
cause of the way he was swifting and turning the bike.
and I DID!!!
just turning to my house car park,
i fell from the bike!
cause my wonderful friend was turning to the pavement,
and i moved my body!!
then when he turned back,
i fell from the bike.
i was so frightened cause there was a car heading towards my way!!
i quickily plucked up my courage and got up.
then i walked to the pavement.
by the time i got up,
both of them stopped the bike.
BUT when Sunther asked me a question,
i started to scold him!!
he asked me,
'Why you fell from the bike?'
he din even ask me how i fell but why i fell.
arghh..
k but nothing serious happened to me.
my whole right side of my body was aching and had some bruises.
but overall i am ok.
but from that day onwards,
i had phobia when turning.
and when i came home after the accident,
i found out that my uncle had passed away.
ok enough of the back tracking.
come back to today.
there was a mass offered for my uncle as its his 1 year death anni.
it was held at holy spirit.
mummy and i took a bus all the way there.
then we saw daddy.
the mass was all ok.
then after mass,
we had a small chit chat session and then headed to changi aloha chalet.
my cousin Jerome is celebrating his 21st b'day.
his actualy b'day was on 27th april but it was a weekday so he celebrated today.
mummy, daddy, Kannigah akka and i took a cab there.
there were not many ppl at the chalet when we arrived.
just family members.
i was waiting for baby and vinod so that we can eat together.
after some time they arrived.
then we ate and sat and talked.
its been one week since i saw vinod.
bum always has time to only meet me in the weekend.
once a week only!!
~sigh~
busy man what!!
k after that we just took pics and all.
made fun of vinod so much.
nice nice.
then jerome cut his cake and we had grp photos taken.
i took many many pictures.
with my baby, vinod, my cousins: irenaeus, joel, jerome, andrew, kannigah and my own brother.
so many that i will publish later ok.
then after some time,
people started to go back.
then the gambling started.
i felt so lucky while playing.
baby came and joined in the gambling when he came back from the shop.
it was really fun.
vinod, my bro steve and baby were playing with the balloons.
they were doing stupid stuff with the balloons.
it was really so funny.
took pictures of them doing those stuff.
then vinod left cause his father was not in s'pore so he headed home.
so baby and i continued to drink and gamble.
it was all good.
i am very happy that my baby was enjoying himself so much.
its like a happiness i cannot explain.
i felt bad cause i felt that i neglected vinod here and there.
sorry dearest.
very very sorry k.
after all the many rounds of drinking and gambling,
i was damn tired.
baby was also tired as he has not slept since he came home from camp,
so we decided to turn in first.
baby and i had a room to ourselves.
but i asked my bro to sleep with us cause i know he was tired and we had an extra bed also.
i love slping in my baby's arms.
its just very comfy.
i love it.
after a short while of slping we woke up and got ready to leave.
i went with my bro on his bike.
baby also came telok blangah but then headed back home afterwards.
and here i am now,
blogging about all that has happened.
i am very very happy for everything that has happened.
being with baby just brings me happiness.
i had a wonderful time and i am very happy.
thanks dada for everything.
it has been one year since my uncle willie passed away.
he is my mothers' elder brother.
i still cant accept the fact that he is not with us anymore.
it seems like a dream.
~sigh~
like many say,
anyone can leave us anytime.
so treasure it all.
anw today is also one year since i had a minor accident.
all thanks to my wonderful friend/bro Sunther.
let me recap the story for u ok.
last year on this same very date,
Siva, Sunther and i went to watch movie.
i still remember the movie!
'XXX2'
i dun like to ride wid Siva,
cause his bike looks bigger and i am scared.
so i will sit in Sunther's bike.
on that very day,
i had this feeling that i was going to fall from the bike,
cause of the way he was swifting and turning the bike.
and I DID!!!
just turning to my house car park,
i fell from the bike!
cause my wonderful friend was turning to the pavement,
and i moved my body!!
then when he turned back,
i fell from the bike.
i was so frightened cause there was a car heading towards my way!!
i quickily plucked up my courage and got up.
then i walked to the pavement.
by the time i got up,
both of them stopped the bike.
BUT when Sunther asked me a question,
i started to scold him!!
he asked me,
'Why you fell from the bike?'
he din even ask me how i fell but why i fell.
arghh..
k but nothing serious happened to me.
my whole right side of my body was aching and had some bruises.
but overall i am ok.
but from that day onwards,
i had phobia when turning.
and when i came home after the accident,
i found out that my uncle had passed away.
ok enough of the back tracking.
come back to today.
there was a mass offered for my uncle as its his 1 year death anni.
it was held at holy spirit.
mummy and i took a bus all the way there.
then we saw daddy.
the mass was all ok.
then after mass,
we had a small chit chat session and then headed to changi aloha chalet.
my cousin Jerome is celebrating his 21st b'day.
his actualy b'day was on 27th april but it was a weekday so he celebrated today.
mummy, daddy, Kannigah akka and i took a cab there.
there were not many ppl at the chalet when we arrived.
just family members.
i was waiting for baby and vinod so that we can eat together.
after some time they arrived.
then we ate and sat and talked.
its been one week since i saw vinod.
bum always has time to only meet me in the weekend.
once a week only!!
~sigh~
busy man what!!
k after that we just took pics and all.
made fun of vinod so much.
nice nice.
then jerome cut his cake and we had grp photos taken.
i took many many pictures.
with my baby, vinod, my cousins: irenaeus, joel, jerome, andrew, kannigah and my own brother.
so many that i will publish later ok.
then after some time,
people started to go back.
then the gambling started.
i felt so lucky while playing.
baby came and joined in the gambling when he came back from the shop.
it was really fun.
vinod, my bro steve and baby were playing with the balloons.
they were doing stupid stuff with the balloons.
it was really so funny.
took pictures of them doing those stuff.
then vinod left cause his father was not in s'pore so he headed home.
so baby and i continued to drink and gamble.
it was all good.
i am very happy that my baby was enjoying himself so much.
its like a happiness i cannot explain.
i felt bad cause i felt that i neglected vinod here and there.
sorry dearest.
very very sorry k.
after all the many rounds of drinking and gambling,
i was damn tired.
baby was also tired as he has not slept since he came home from camp,
so we decided to turn in first.
baby and i had a room to ourselves.
but i asked my bro to sleep with us cause i know he was tired and we had an extra bed also.
i love slping in my baby's arms.
its just very comfy.
i love it.
after a short while of slping we woke up and got ready to leave.
i went with my bro on his bike.
baby also came telok blangah but then headed back home afterwards.
and here i am now,
blogging about all that has happened.
i am very very happy for everything that has happened.
being with baby just brings me happiness.
i had a wonderful time and i am very happy.
thanks dada for everything.
Friday, April 28, 2006
beautiful sky.
you know when i looked out of my window,
i saw the sky was bright orange.
it was so beautiful.
i mean it was about 7 plus and its still not dark.
it was a wonderful feeling.
i just had to take pics of it.
genieve sent me this quote the other day.
"The light shines in the darkness,
but the darkness has not understood it"
John 1:5
now i understand totally what it means.
i felt so comforted.
God just showed me light in my darkest hours.
i was troubled with my past and felt sad,
but HE has shown light.
HE is showing me that i must move on.
put the darkness behind me and follow the light.
see i know he will show me a way no matter what happens.
every morning since i got that msg from genieve,
i will think what does it mean.
and i wun get an answer.
BUT today i got it!!
if you have seen the sky,
you will know what i mean by calling it beautiful.
and for those who din see,
i will post a pic for you.
another set of pics.
i know these pics are kinda overdue but i just uploaded it.
baby and me at his house.
we just slacking.
i felt that this pic make me really look like my mum.
now i know why ppl say i am a photocopy of my mum!
i am proud.
baby posing for the pic at starbucks.
it turned out nice.
baby's art work.
he says this is vinod's face.
he used mayo, chilli and curry sauce to make this.
looks cute!!
just like vinod!
after an exhausting day,
i have to ride my baby home.
my butterfly buckle.
*bling*bling*
misha and me.
during our tutorial.
sharon and me.
this is wat we do when we are bored!!
baby and me at his house.
we just slacking.
i felt that this pic make me really look like my mum.
now i know why ppl say i am a photocopy of my mum!
i am proud.
baby posing for the pic at starbucks.
it turned out nice.
baby's art work.
he says this is vinod's face.
he used mayo, chilli and curry sauce to make this.
looks cute!!
just like vinod!
after an exhausting day,
i have to ride my baby home.
my butterfly buckle.
*bling*bling*
misha and me.
during our tutorial.
sharon and me.
this is wat we do when we are bored!!
Are You Air, Earth, Water or Fire?
Are You Air, Earth, Water or Fire?
You scored 27, on a scale of 0 to 110. Here's how to interpret your score:
0 - 20
Earth: You're the stable, practical kind people love for your nurturing spirit. Rooted in family or other commitments, you can be stubborn and resistant to change at times. Be open to new ideas and ways of doing things. Read more about your element.
21 - 50
Water: You're sensitive and fluid, responding to feelings more than anything else. Dreams, visions, love, and the mysterious attract you. You may be prone to depression, so try to balance your emotions with rationality. Read more about your element.
51 - 70
Air: You're smart, witty, and process-oriented--but may be a little abstract and spacy at times. You're drawn to ideas and love to learn. Just make sure to leave room for feelings and sensations. Read more about your element.
71 - 100
Fire: You're willful, passionate, and intense, following your instincts in work, relationships, and more. People admire your courage and, well, your fire. Just don't let your impulsiveness lead you astray. Read more about your element.
How Forgiving Are You?
How Forgiving Are You?
You scored 35, on a scale of 0 to 60. Here's how to interpret your score:
0 - 20
Out for revenge. Though a thirst for justice can be admirable, your insistence on an 'eye for an eye' may be poisoning your relationships with others. Next time you have a chance to retaliate, let it pass. Discuss forgiveness with others like you.
21 - 40
Balanced forgiver. You're a basically kind person with a sense of balance and boundaries. However, you're no Mother Theresa. Discuss forgiveness with others like you.
41 - 60
Very merciful. Some people would call you a sucker, and some religions would call you a 'Holy Fool.' You're so merciful you may surprise others. Discuss forgiveness with others like you.
You scored 35, on a scale of 0 to 60. Here's how to interpret your score:
0 - 20
Out for revenge. Though a thirst for justice can be admirable, your insistence on an 'eye for an eye' may be poisoning your relationships with others. Next time you have a chance to retaliate, let it pass. Discuss forgiveness with others like you.
21 - 40
Balanced forgiver. You're a basically kind person with a sense of balance and boundaries. However, you're no Mother Theresa. Discuss forgiveness with others like you.
41 - 60
Very merciful. Some people would call you a sucker, and some religions would call you a 'Holy Fool.' You're so merciful you may surprise others. Discuss forgiveness with others like you.
In Gratitude for Family and Friends
In Gratitude for Family and Friends
Blessed are You, loving Father,
For all your gifts to us.
Blessed are You for giving us family and friends
To be with us in times of joy and sorrow,
To help us in days of need,
And to rejoice with us in moments of celebration...
Father,
We praise You for Your Son Jesus,
Who knew the happiness of family and friends,
And in the love of Your Holy Spirit.
Blessed are you for ever and ever.
Blessed are You, loving Father,
For all your gifts to us.
Blessed are You for giving us family and friends
To be with us in times of joy and sorrow,
To help us in days of need,
And to rejoice with us in moments of celebration...
Father,
We praise You for Your Son Jesus,
Who knew the happiness of family and friends,
And in the love of Your Holy Spirit.
Blessed are you for ever and ever.
my haunting past.
i was in the bus and something i saw made me think.
all the past came back to my mind.
it was painful just to think about it.
i wish i was smarter than that.
i wish i could turn back time,
but i know that will never happen.
i just wanted to erase that one incident.
which is still haunting me till now.
i doubt it will ever go away.
cause of my stupidity,
i hurt the one i love the most.
most of all i disappointed myself.
i know that i will never be like that,
but i dun know what made me do it.
i am so infuriated.
i am hating myself for my stupid actions.
it will always be a past that haunts me forever.
if only i was in my own mind,
i would have not done what i did.
i would have been smart and avoided that situation.
damn all of it.
i complained about ppl being like that,
but now i am like one of them.
i did almost what they did.
i am no one to talk abt others.
but i am thankful for the one i love believes me.
he understood and placed the past behind him.
i know he is still scared,
but he trusts me.
he loves me like no one has ever loved me.
i am thankful.
thanks alot.
you give me strength.
without your support i think i would have been dead by now.
i would have just killed myself cause of my stupidity.
but u are my life saver.
thanks.
all the past came back to my mind.
it was painful just to think about it.
i wish i was smarter than that.
i wish i could turn back time,
but i know that will never happen.
i just wanted to erase that one incident.
which is still haunting me till now.
i doubt it will ever go away.
cause of my stupidity,
i hurt the one i love the most.
most of all i disappointed myself.
i know that i will never be like that,
but i dun know what made me do it.
i am so infuriated.
i am hating myself for my stupid actions.
it will always be a past that haunts me forever.
if only i was in my own mind,
i would have not done what i did.
i would have been smart and avoided that situation.
damn all of it.
i complained about ppl being like that,
but now i am like one of them.
i did almost what they did.
i am no one to talk abt others.
but i am thankful for the one i love believes me.
he understood and placed the past behind him.
i know he is still scared,
but he trusts me.
he loves me like no one has ever loved me.
i am thankful.
thanks alot.
you give me strength.
without your support i think i would have been dead by now.
i would have just killed myself cause of my stupidity.
but u are my life saver.
thanks.
Thursday, April 27, 2006
Interesting facts
If you yelled for 8 years, 7 months and 6 days you would have produced enough sound energy to heat one cup of coffee. (Hardly seems worth it.)
If you passed gas consistently for 6 years and 9 months, enough gas is produced to create the energy of an atomic bomb. (Now that's more like it!)
The human heart creates enough pressure when it pumps out to the body to squirt blood 30 feet. (O.M.G.!)
A pig's orgasm lasts 30 minutes. (In my next life, I want to be a pig.)
A cockroach will live nine days without its head before it starves to death. (Creepy.) (I'm still not over the pig.)
Banging your head against a wall uses 150 calories an hour.(Do not try this at home...... maybe at work.)
The male praying mantis cannot copulate while its head is attached to its body. The female initiates sex by ripping the male's head! Off. ("Honey, I'm home. What the....?!")
The flea can jump 350 times its body length. It's like a human jumping the length of a football field. (30 minutes... lucky pig... can you imagine??)
The catfish has over 27,000 taste buds. (What could be so tasty on the bottom of a pond?) Some lions mate over 50 times a day. (I still want to be a pig in my next life...quality over quantity)
Butterflies taste with their feet. (Something I always wanted to know.)
The strongest muscle in the body is the tongue. (Hmmmmmm........)(Hmmmmmm....)
Right-handed people live, on average, nine years longer than left-handed people. (If you're ambidextrous, do you split the difference?)
Elephants are the only animals that cannot jump. (OK, so that would be a good thing....)
A cat’s urine glows under a black light. (I wonder who was paid to figure that out?)
An ostrich's eye is bigger than its brain. (I know some people like that.)
Starfish have no brains. (I know some people like that too.)
Polar bears are left-handed. (If they switch, they’ll live a lot longer.)
Humans and dolphins are the only species that have sex for pleasure. (What about that pig??)
If you passed gas consistently for 6 years and 9 months, enough gas is produced to create the energy of an atomic bomb. (Now that's more like it!)
The human heart creates enough pressure when it pumps out to the body to squirt blood 30 feet. (O.M.G.!)
A pig's orgasm lasts 30 minutes. (In my next life, I want to be a pig.)
A cockroach will live nine days without its head before it starves to death. (Creepy.) (I'm still not over the pig.)
Banging your head against a wall uses 150 calories an hour.(Do not try this at home...... maybe at work.)
The male praying mantis cannot copulate while its head is attached to its body. The female initiates sex by ripping the male's head! Off. ("Honey, I'm home. What the....?!")
The flea can jump 350 times its body length. It's like a human jumping the length of a football field. (30 minutes... lucky pig... can you imagine??)
The catfish has over 27,000 taste buds. (What could be so tasty on the bottom of a pond?) Some lions mate over 50 times a day. (I still want to be a pig in my next life...quality over quantity)
Butterflies taste with their feet. (Something I always wanted to know.)
The strongest muscle in the body is the tongue. (Hmmmmmm........)(Hmmmmmm....)
Right-handed people live, on average, nine years longer than left-handed people. (If you're ambidextrous, do you split the difference?)
Elephants are the only animals that cannot jump. (OK, so that would be a good thing....)
A cat’s urine glows under a black light. (I wonder who was paid to figure that out?)
An ostrich's eye is bigger than its brain. (I know some people like that.)
Starfish have no brains. (I know some people like that too.)
Polar bears are left-handed. (If they switch, they’ll live a lot longer.)
Humans and dolphins are the only species that have sex for pleasure. (What about that pig??)
meaningful life.
having close friends are very impt.
and i am glad i have a few of them who are always there for me.
they are people close to my heart.
i am very touched by their care and concern.
they have always been there to listen to my complains and all.
always there to help me out,
when i need help.
i am really grateful.
sharon, misha, vinod and stephen.
without them,
i will never enjoyed many things in life.
genieve has also been a great joy in my life.
although its such a short time,
i always smile when i receive ya msges.
i am really grateful to have very good friends like them.
my girls are always there to listen to my problems.
and they help me bring myself up.
we can just talk about anything under the sun.
they are also my photo taking clique.
i just love them to bits.
its been 2 years since i got to know them.
its so fast now.
we just entered our 3rd year.
that will also go damn fast.
i am so happy to have known vinod.
knew him ard this time of the year.
and from then it has been wonderful.
he has always been there for me and baby.
always given good advice to me.
i love to disturb him and he also do that to me.
its always been fun when he is ard.
he is a wonderful friend who i never wanna loose.
today he said something that really touched me.
thanks alot bum.
i just love fighting with you.
u will always be a bum no matter what.
i love all of you.
thanks so much for everything.
without you ppl as my friends,
i dun think it will be as easy as now.
muacks to all of you.
baby just came and meet me.
he passed the test which is so impt.
now he is being posted to tuas naval base.
i am so happy for him.
at least its nearer for him.
i am very proud of my baby.
i just spent abt 20 mins or so with him only,
but he has made me so happy.
i love him so much.
thanks alot for everything mama.
you are my one and only.
and i am glad i have a few of them who are always there for me.
they are people close to my heart.
i am very touched by their care and concern.
they have always been there to listen to my complains and all.
always there to help me out,
when i need help.
i am really grateful.
sharon, misha, vinod and stephen.
without them,
i will never enjoyed many things in life.
genieve has also been a great joy in my life.
although its such a short time,
i always smile when i receive ya msges.
i am really grateful to have very good friends like them.
my girls are always there to listen to my problems.
and they help me bring myself up.
we can just talk about anything under the sun.
they are also my photo taking clique.
i just love them to bits.
its been 2 years since i got to know them.
its so fast now.
we just entered our 3rd year.
that will also go damn fast.
i am so happy to have known vinod.
knew him ard this time of the year.
and from then it has been wonderful.
he has always been there for me and baby.
always given good advice to me.
i love to disturb him and he also do that to me.
its always been fun when he is ard.
he is a wonderful friend who i never wanna loose.
today he said something that really touched me.
thanks alot bum.
i just love fighting with you.
u will always be a bum no matter what.
i love all of you.
thanks so much for everything.
without you ppl as my friends,
i dun think it will be as easy as now.
muacks to all of you.
baby just came and meet me.
he passed the test which is so impt.
now he is being posted to tuas naval base.
i am so happy for him.
at least its nearer for him.
i am very proud of my baby.
i just spent abt 20 mins or so with him only,
but he has made me so happy.
i love him so much.
thanks alot for everything mama.
you are my one and only.
my twisted mind.
i wish i did not start anything.
i wish i was all alone from the start.
i wish i din make any friends,
so that i wun hurt any.
i wish i din have emotions,
so that i wun feel sad or any others.
i wish i wasnt even born,
cause then i wun be going through all this.
at times in my life,
it gets so hard that i wish i could be alone,
in some part of the world where no one will find me.
but somehow or another i cant.
cause no matter where i go i cant survive.
cause i am so dependent on ppl.
i cant live alone.
i cant stand loneliness.
sometimes i close my eyes,
wishing that when i open it everything will be better.
BUT thats not how life works.
you just have to face every single thing that comes.
i feel so weak at times just to go through the hardship,
but somehow i will find the strength.
for certain problems i just break down,
and no matter how much i try i cant seem to get up.
if i can i will try to make everything better.
i will try to make everything and everyone ard me happy.
BUT i have to make ppl sad.
i always do it some way or another.
it just hurts me so bad when i do it to ppl who i love and care for so much.
but i cant do anything to make it better.
cause thats the way it is.
i wish life was much more simple.
than i dun have to worry abt all these.
so many things in my head.
its hurting so badly.
i wish it will go away.
i wish it will stop.
my ear is hurting.
i only hear myself and the buzzing sound in my ear.
i wish it will go away.
i wish.
i wish i was all alone from the start.
i wish i din make any friends,
so that i wun hurt any.
i wish i din have emotions,
so that i wun feel sad or any others.
i wish i wasnt even born,
cause then i wun be going through all this.
at times in my life,
it gets so hard that i wish i could be alone,
in some part of the world where no one will find me.
but somehow or another i cant.
cause no matter where i go i cant survive.
cause i am so dependent on ppl.
i cant live alone.
i cant stand loneliness.
sometimes i close my eyes,
wishing that when i open it everything will be better.
BUT thats not how life works.
you just have to face every single thing that comes.
i feel so weak at times just to go through the hardship,
but somehow i will find the strength.
for certain problems i just break down,
and no matter how much i try i cant seem to get up.
if i can i will try to make everything better.
i will try to make everything and everyone ard me happy.
BUT i have to make ppl sad.
i always do it some way or another.
it just hurts me so bad when i do it to ppl who i love and care for so much.
but i cant do anything to make it better.
cause thats the way it is.
i wish life was much more simple.
than i dun have to worry abt all these.
so many things in my head.
its hurting so badly.
i wish it will go away.
i wish it will stop.
my ear is hurting.
i only hear myself and the buzzing sound in my ear.
i wish it will go away.
i wish.
might consult a polyclinic doctor,
he might wanna send me to a specialist.
at least i dun have to pay much.
and its cheaper.
hope they give me a better ans.
sighs.
pray for me that nothing happens.
Wednesday, April 26, 2006
self-esteem.
today i woke up later cause of the med i took last night
and also cause my class only starts at 1pm.
during my lesson,
my teacher was teaching about how children learn.
we shld not discourage them when they fail,
but pick them up and allow them to try again.
cause when we discourage them and scold them,
they will not want to try again,
fearing that we might scold them again.
they loose their self-esteem and in future it is hard for them to bring out their capabilities.
they themselves will tend to look down on themselves.
sometimes i feel like that.
since young alot of people look down on me.
and i am afriad to try new things.
i am afriad of failing.
i am afraid of loosing out.
i have unwanted and not needed fear in me.
for the smallest things i will have fear.
its scary at times though.
my self-esteem is kinda low at times.
but i am willing to try most of the times.
sigh.
i pray that all this fear will leave me.
its like genetic or grown.
i also do not know.
anw i had a very nice day.
esp when baby surprised me by coming to my hse widout telling me.
he had nights off.
so loving my babyboy.
thanks ma,
just that small thing made me smile so much.
muacks my lover boy.
i love u so much da.
ok i am disappointed in someone.
aiyah never knew he was like that la.
got gf now then no time for me and my baby alr.
wah now like that alr sia.
nvm nvm!!
when wanna say something only call me.
other than that so busy!!
~sigh~
i am so sad.
i dun wanna say any name la.
as long as the person knows good enuff.
p.s i am just happy that you are happy.
its good enuff la.
take care.
bleahs!!
arghh my right ear is getting worse.
i cant hear properly.
it hurts.
damn man.
i tryed doing many things but its still the same.
dang!!
arghh..
i cant take it anymore.
somethings shld better be unsaid.
cause it will cause even more probs in life.
i always regret saying things to ppl.
sometimes i even regret getting close to certain ppl.
no one knows wat i feel.
know what knows whats going in my mind.
its twisting and turning.
hard to even think straight.
my head hurts so badly.
i wish for it all to go away.
i dun wanna think.
i just wanna dream.
and also cause my class only starts at 1pm.
during my lesson,
my teacher was teaching about how children learn.
we shld not discourage them when they fail,
but pick them up and allow them to try again.
cause when we discourage them and scold them,
they will not want to try again,
fearing that we might scold them again.
they loose their self-esteem and in future it is hard for them to bring out their capabilities.
they themselves will tend to look down on themselves.
sometimes i feel like that.
since young alot of people look down on me.
and i am afriad to try new things.
i am afriad of failing.
i am afraid of loosing out.
i have unwanted and not needed fear in me.
for the smallest things i will have fear.
its scary at times though.
my self-esteem is kinda low at times.
but i am willing to try most of the times.
sigh.
i pray that all this fear will leave me.
its like genetic or grown.
i also do not know.
anw i had a very nice day.
esp when baby surprised me by coming to my hse widout telling me.
he had nights off.
so loving my babyboy.
thanks ma,
just that small thing made me smile so much.
muacks my lover boy.
i love u so much da.
ok i am disappointed in someone.
aiyah never knew he was like that la.
got gf now then no time for me and my baby alr.
wah now like that alr sia.
nvm nvm!!
when wanna say something only call me.
other than that so busy!!
~sigh~
i am so sad.
i dun wanna say any name la.
as long as the person knows good enuff.
p.s i am just happy that you are happy.
its good enuff la.
take care.
bleahs!!
arghh my right ear is getting worse.
i cant hear properly.
it hurts.
damn man.
i tryed doing many things but its still the same.
dang!!
arghh..
i cant take it anymore.
somethings shld better be unsaid.
cause it will cause even more probs in life.
i always regret saying things to ppl.
sometimes i even regret getting close to certain ppl.
no one knows wat i feel.
know what knows whats going in my mind.
its twisting and turning.
hard to even think straight.
my head hurts so badly.
i wish for it all to go away.
i dun wanna think.
i just wanna dream.
Prayer for Divine Guidance
Open my lips,
O Lord, and my mouth shall proclaim your praise.
Create in me a clean heart,
O God, and renew a right spirit within me.
Cast me not away from your presence
and take not your holy Spirit from me.
Give me the joy of your saving help again
and sustain me with your bountiful Spirit.
Glory to the Father, and to the Son,
and to the Holy Spirit: as it was in the beginning,
is now, and will be for ever. Amen.
Lord God, almighty and everlasting Father,
you have broughtus in safety to this new day:
Preserve us with your mightypower,
that we may not fall into sin,
nor be overcome by
adversity; and in all we do, direct us to the fulfilling
of your purpose;
through Jesus Christ our Lord.
Amen.
- Psalms 51
O Lord, and my mouth shall proclaim your praise.
Create in me a clean heart,
O God, and renew a right spirit within me.
Cast me not away from your presence
and take not your holy Spirit from me.
Give me the joy of your saving help again
and sustain me with your bountiful Spirit.
Glory to the Father, and to the Son,
and to the Holy Spirit: as it was in the beginning,
is now, and will be for ever. Amen.
Lord God, almighty and everlasting Father,
you have broughtus in safety to this new day:
Preserve us with your mightypower,
that we may not fall into sin,
nor be overcome by
adversity; and in all we do, direct us to the fulfilling
of your purpose;
through Jesus Christ our Lord.
Amen.
- Psalms 51
Tuesday, April 25, 2006
visited the doc.
second day of school went fine.
i had class from 12 to 3pm.
after that i stayed in school and had late lunch.
i waited to genieve to come.
yay!
saw her for the second time.
after a few minutes of seeing her,
i had to leave as baby came to pick me up.
then we went back to baby's hse as i have to teach his sister.
it was all nice.
in the evening baby sent me back home.
we went to see the doc near my place first cause my ear was hurting so much.
i can partially hear on my right side.
the doc said it was normal but i think otherwise.
~sigh~
i took medicine and going to sleep now.
i had class from 12 to 3pm.
after that i stayed in school and had late lunch.
i waited to genieve to come.
yay!
saw her for the second time.
after a few minutes of seeing her,
i had to leave as baby came to pick me up.
then we went back to baby's hse as i have to teach his sister.
it was all nice.
in the evening baby sent me back home.
we went to see the doc near my place first cause my ear was hurting so much.
i can partially hear on my right side.
the doc said it was normal but i think otherwise.
~sigh~
i took medicine and going to sleep now.
Monday, April 24, 2006
first day of school.
its has been a wonderful day.
first day of sch after a long long break.
i woke up at 9.30am cause needed to get ready and all.
took my shower and went to collect my jeans near my place.
came back got changed and left for school.
i was so excited.
i missed my gals so much.
i just miss having something to do.
i feel life is meaningful now.
when i saw sharon and misha,
they gave me a hug each.
it felt so nice.
then we headed to class.
new block, new room and new environment.
the room we were in kinda stink.
but luckily i had block nose,
so cant really smell it.
during lesson,
my rubber band i used to lie my hair snapped.
and sj (with her itchy hands) had to take it out.
arghh..
thank god michelle had another one.
class was quite ok.
interesting but kinda draggy.
actually long lessons,
which leads to me being very restless.
we did some exercises where we understand how chn learn.
it was fun.
after that we had a short break cause lesson ended early.
we walked all the way to canteen 2,
had a dew snacks and was talking.
i was asking misha and sharon some riddles,
which i heard from the guys when we were out last time.
i was asking the prostitute riddle,
and joanna who was just beside the ans.
it was damn funny.
~giggles~
after that it was lecture for 3 hours which ended earlier also.
during the lecture i was msging vinod and talking to my gals.
it was so fun.
i mean i was actually doing something!!
anw after all the lessons,
misha, sharon and i headed to bukit timah to eat dinner.
laksa stall was open, yay!
while we were eating we were sharing what has been happening in our lives.
it was really nice.
sharon was telling how she really felt when she went cambodia.
she even had a crush there.
sweet sweet.
misha was sharing about her work and some other matters.
i as usual was talking the most.
was telling of all the unwanted probs i had during the hols,
and sharing other stuff.
something funny happened actually.
when misha was buying drinks,
she thought that the aunty did not put the straw in the cup so she wanted to shake the drink, (cause she bought soya bean; wanting to mix the sugar syrup and the soya bean)
when the drink spilled.
it was really funny.
maybe the explaination is not right.
but at that moment it was darn funny that i burst out laughing.
anw misha brought up about the recent rape case.
about the father raping the daughter and all.
oh my,
i am so darn disgusted!!!
yucks!!
how can you ever do that??
i mean even the mother assisted the father in doing it.
arghh..
such disgust.
ok i am damn sick alr just thinking about it.
watever it is we had out photograph session.
after so long the three of us taking pics.
anw the weather was really hot early in the day,
but later in the evening it rained.
it was really very beautiful.
we got caught up in the hawker center cause of the rain.
and vinod being a dumb ass did something stupid!!!
he was suppose to msg me a msg,
BUT he msged sindhu that!!
thats why i call him dumbass!!
~giggles~
its ok.
i am very happy for you ass.
now i will see and talk to u lesser,
cause someone is SO darn busy.
~sighs~
push me away sia!
nvm nvm i will remember this for my life dun worry dumb ass.
bleahs dun friend you anymore.
24th April 2006.
1 year 7 months.
its been wonderful.
thanks my babyboy.
you have always been there for me.
knowing you was the best thing that ever happened to me.
i love u so much ma.
all these months was blissful.
no one can ever make me this happy.
thanks my love.
happy anniversary baby.
muacks!!
(",)
misha and me in lecture hall.
i like my blouse.
all butterfly!!
the 3 of us at the hawker center.
dark cause it was raining and in the evening.
sharon and me.
yum yum!!
first day of sch after a long long break.
i woke up at 9.30am cause needed to get ready and all.
took my shower and went to collect my jeans near my place.
came back got changed and left for school.
i was so excited.
i missed my gals so much.
i just miss having something to do.
i feel life is meaningful now.
when i saw sharon and misha,
they gave me a hug each.
it felt so nice.
then we headed to class.
new block, new room and new environment.
the room we were in kinda stink.
but luckily i had block nose,
so cant really smell it.
during lesson,
my rubber band i used to lie my hair snapped.
and sj (with her itchy hands) had to take it out.
arghh..
thank god michelle had another one.
class was quite ok.
interesting but kinda draggy.
actually long lessons,
which leads to me being very restless.
we did some exercises where we understand how chn learn.
it was fun.
after that we had a short break cause lesson ended early.
we walked all the way to canteen 2,
had a dew snacks and was talking.
i was asking misha and sharon some riddles,
which i heard from the guys when we were out last time.
i was asking the prostitute riddle,
and joanna who was just beside the ans.
it was damn funny.
~giggles~
after that it was lecture for 3 hours which ended earlier also.
during the lecture i was msging vinod and talking to my gals.
it was so fun.
i mean i was actually doing something!!
anw after all the lessons,
misha, sharon and i headed to bukit timah to eat dinner.
laksa stall was open, yay!
while we were eating we were sharing what has been happening in our lives.
it was really nice.
sharon was telling how she really felt when she went cambodia.
she even had a crush there.
sweet sweet.
misha was sharing about her work and some other matters.
i as usual was talking the most.
was telling of all the unwanted probs i had during the hols,
and sharing other stuff.
something funny happened actually.
when misha was buying drinks,
she thought that the aunty did not put the straw in the cup so she wanted to shake the drink, (cause she bought soya bean; wanting to mix the sugar syrup and the soya bean)
when the drink spilled.
it was really funny.
maybe the explaination is not right.
but at that moment it was darn funny that i burst out laughing.
anw misha brought up about the recent rape case.
about the father raping the daughter and all.
oh my,
i am so darn disgusted!!!
yucks!!
how can you ever do that??
i mean even the mother assisted the father in doing it.
arghh..
such disgust.
ok i am damn sick alr just thinking about it.
watever it is we had out photograph session.
after so long the three of us taking pics.
anw the weather was really hot early in the day,
but later in the evening it rained.
it was really very beautiful.
we got caught up in the hawker center cause of the rain.
and vinod being a dumb ass did something stupid!!!
he was suppose to msg me a msg,
BUT he msged sindhu that!!
thats why i call him dumbass!!
~giggles~
its ok.
i am very happy for you ass.
now i will see and talk to u lesser,
cause someone is SO darn busy.
~sighs~
push me away sia!
nvm nvm i will remember this for my life dun worry dumb ass.
bleahs dun friend you anymore.
24th April 2006.
1 year 7 months.
its been wonderful.
thanks my babyboy.
you have always been there for me.
knowing you was the best thing that ever happened to me.
i love u so much ma.
all these months was blissful.
no one can ever make me this happy.
thanks my love.
happy anniversary baby.
muacks!!
(",)
misha and me in lecture hall.
i like my blouse.
all butterfly!!
the 3 of us at the hawker center.
dark cause it was raining and in the evening.
sharon and me.
yum yum!!
wish people will realise life is precious.
enjoy each and every moment.
cherish those ard them.
Sunday, April 23, 2006
so excited.
i am so excited about tml.
first day of year 3 sem 1.
i know it will not turn out the way i think it will,
but i still am excited.
everything is new.
a brand new day,
brand new sem.
at least from now on i have something to do.
today i went to baby's hse after i woke up from my sleep.
baby fetch me there.
when we were coming back from his house,
i noticed a star in the sky.
it was shining very brightly.
it seemed like it was guiding us back home.
it was very nice.
when i was looking at the star,
i thought of something.
i thought of how i was going to cope during this sem,
esp when i have no money.
then it came to my mind that i should find a job.
maybe at kumon.
i tired it before and din get.
but now i am going to try again.
at least i will have some money to spend and save.
cant be depending on my parents all the time.
anw this whole holiday seem so long cause i was being a bum at home.
it was so boring.
i just eat, sleep, watch tv and play com.
at times go out.
thats all i did.
so now u know the reason why i want sch to start so badly.
haha.
ok i am going to get my things ready and will blog abt my first day of sch tml.
first day of year 3 sem 1.
i know it will not turn out the way i think it will,
but i still am excited.
everything is new.
a brand new day,
brand new sem.
at least from now on i have something to do.
today i went to baby's hse after i woke up from my sleep.
baby fetch me there.
when we were coming back from his house,
i noticed a star in the sky.
it was shining very brightly.
it seemed like it was guiding us back home.
it was very nice.
when i was looking at the star,
i thought of something.
i thought of how i was going to cope during this sem,
esp when i have no money.
then it came to my mind that i should find a job.
maybe at kumon.
i tired it before and din get.
but now i am going to try again.
at least i will have some money to spend and save.
cant be depending on my parents all the time.
anw this whole holiday seem so long cause i was being a bum at home.
it was so boring.
i just eat, sleep, watch tv and play com.
at times go out.
thats all i did.
so now u know the reason why i want sch to start so badly.
haha.
ok i am going to get my things ready and will blog abt my first day of sch tml.
many signs are being shown to me but i dun know what it means.
i am confused with everything that is happening.
so many things in my head to be sorted out.
why the fast pace??
the other day when i was at orchard i noticed something.
everyone was walking so fast.
to catch a bus, to the nearest toilet, to just get something.
the point is that everyone was at a very fast pace.
i wonder why though.
i agree with what the miss s'pore universe said,
'everyone is so fast in s'pore, they shld stop or slow down to admire the surroundings'
i mean there are so many wonderful things ard us.
just stop a while or at least slow down to appreciate it.
whats the hurry?
i understand tat you will miss ya bus or wat so ever but just calm down.
why be so uptight for?
i just realised it when i was just standing and looking ard me.
everyone was passing me so fast that i could not even look at them properly.
sighs.
i just hope life could go a little slower.
to appreciate every little small thing.
i did yesterday and the day before.
every minute i spent with my loved ones was remarkable.
i could not explain the feeling.
i am over joyed but that is not even the word to describe it all.
its just a wonderful feeling.
i also got to learn a few things from the people i was with.
so slow down, take a look ard.
i know you will find something in it.
everyone was walking so fast.
to catch a bus, to the nearest toilet, to just get something.
the point is that everyone was at a very fast pace.
i wonder why though.
i agree with what the miss s'pore universe said,
'everyone is so fast in s'pore, they shld stop or slow down to admire the surroundings'
i mean there are so many wonderful things ard us.
just stop a while or at least slow down to appreciate it.
whats the hurry?
i understand tat you will miss ya bus or wat so ever but just calm down.
why be so uptight for?
i just realised it when i was just standing and looking ard me.
everyone was passing me so fast that i could not even look at them properly.
sighs.
i just hope life could go a little slower.
to appreciate every little small thing.
i did yesterday and the day before.
every minute i spent with my loved ones was remarkable.
i could not explain the feeling.
i am over joyed but that is not even the word to describe it all.
its just a wonderful feeling.
i also got to learn a few things from the people i was with.
so slow down, take a look ard.
i know you will find something in it.
life is going too fast,
i wish it would go a little slower,
so that i can appreciate more things in life.
Saturday, April 22, 2006
in total bliss.
i could not sleep well.
my head was killing me.
i decided to just wake up.
i was just thinking what to do for the rest of the day,
when i came up with something!
i thought of meeting genieve.
i asked baby and he said it was alright so i made plans with her.
we agreed on meeting at 3pm at orchard mrt station.
i got ready, actually took my own sweet lovely time.
i know i will be early so i took my time.
but i was still early although i left later than i am supposed to.
so i was waiting for her at the control station,
and she was abt 45 mins late!!
its ok!
cause as soon as i saw her,
i smiled!!
thanks for that gal.
anw we were heading aimlessly at first but then decided to go heeren.
we took neoprint there.
our first ever one together.
i doubt i ever took a normal pic with her when i was young though.
so after abt 8 years this is our first.
had loads of fun posing and all.
then we headed to cine.
wanted to meet vinod but he was busy with his date watching movie.
dumb ass!
so genieve and i talked and talked non-stop.
was so nice meeting her after that very long period.
had loads of things to talk about.
then saw nod and sinthu for a while.
after that they headed to god knows where.
genieve and i continued our conversation while sitting at rocky masters.
the topics were just flowing without a fullstop.
and i liked it.
baby met us after a while.
we then met vinod at starbucks and sat there.
i am happy everyone could click well.
after some time sinthu left to meet her sis and cousin.
but the rest stayed back.
at about 7,
genieve left for home.
vinod, baby and i headed to heeren to buy jerome bro a b'day present.
we bought him a tee at 77th street.
then we headed to macs to eat.
vinod and i took the bus whereas baby rode there.
we had a very good and long conversation in the bus.
it was nice dear.
i am very happy for you ok.
whatever happens i am there for you,
together with your gay partner shawn of course.
while we were eating,
baby and i kept disturbing vinod.
you deserve it dearest.
cause you always disturb me right,
so now its my turn.
hehe.
bum bum!!
after eating we headed back home.
baby sent me home and then went to camp cause he had confinement.
grj:
thanks for everything.
i am very glad we met after so long.
your msges just makes me smile.
although you are younger than me,
you taught me many things.
thanks gal.
and i am so sorry if i have neglected you at any point of time today.
vinod:
i am very happy for you.
no matter what remember that we are always here for you.
everything happens for a reason.
and like you always say,
'go with the flow'
i just wanna thank you for everything.
baby:
thanks for taking care of me and loving me so much.
despite the very little time i spent with you today,
i had a great time and you made me happy.
i love u so much ma.
muacks.
missing you so much alr.
i am in total bliss.
i am very content with what i have in my life.
especially the people who are so close to my heart.
you know at one point or another you will know who are the real friends in your life.
and i know who they are.
i am very happy that i have a wonderful family, great friends who care so much about me and most of all my babyboy who i cant live without.
what more can i ask for?
neoprints taken with genieve.
my baby and me.in total happiness.
my head was killing me.
i decided to just wake up.
i was just thinking what to do for the rest of the day,
when i came up with something!
i thought of meeting genieve.
i asked baby and he said it was alright so i made plans with her.
we agreed on meeting at 3pm at orchard mrt station.
i got ready, actually took my own sweet lovely time.
i know i will be early so i took my time.
but i was still early although i left later than i am supposed to.
so i was waiting for her at the control station,
and she was abt 45 mins late!!
its ok!
cause as soon as i saw her,
i smiled!!
thanks for that gal.
anw we were heading aimlessly at first but then decided to go heeren.
we took neoprint there.
our first ever one together.
i doubt i ever took a normal pic with her when i was young though.
so after abt 8 years this is our first.
had loads of fun posing and all.
then we headed to cine.
wanted to meet vinod but he was busy with his date watching movie.
dumb ass!
so genieve and i talked and talked non-stop.
was so nice meeting her after that very long period.
had loads of things to talk about.
then saw nod and sinthu for a while.
after that they headed to god knows where.
genieve and i continued our conversation while sitting at rocky masters.
the topics were just flowing without a fullstop.
and i liked it.
baby met us after a while.
we then met vinod at starbucks and sat there.
i am happy everyone could click well.
after some time sinthu left to meet her sis and cousin.
but the rest stayed back.
at about 7,
genieve left for home.
vinod, baby and i headed to heeren to buy jerome bro a b'day present.
we bought him a tee at 77th street.
then we headed to macs to eat.
vinod and i took the bus whereas baby rode there.
we had a very good and long conversation in the bus.
it was nice dear.
i am very happy for you ok.
whatever happens i am there for you,
together with your gay partner shawn of course.
while we were eating,
baby and i kept disturbing vinod.
you deserve it dearest.
cause you always disturb me right,
so now its my turn.
hehe.
bum bum!!
after eating we headed back home.
baby sent me home and then went to camp cause he had confinement.
grj:
thanks for everything.
i am very glad we met after so long.
your msges just makes me smile.
although you are younger than me,
you taught me many things.
thanks gal.
and i am so sorry if i have neglected you at any point of time today.
vinod:
i am very happy for you.
no matter what remember that we are always here for you.
everything happens for a reason.
and like you always say,
'go with the flow'
i just wanna thank you for everything.
baby:
thanks for taking care of me and loving me so much.
despite the very little time i spent with you today,
i had a great time and you made me happy.
i love u so much ma.
muacks.
missing you so much alr.
i am in total bliss.
i am very content with what i have in my life.
especially the people who are so close to my heart.
you know at one point or another you will know who are the real friends in your life.
and i know who they are.
i am very happy that i have a wonderful family, great friends who care so much about me and most of all my babyboy who i cant live without.
what more can i ask for?
neoprints taken with genieve.
my baby and me.in total happiness.
shopping spree.
i woke up at about 9 am.
set alarm for today.
got ready and guess where am i going??
haha i am going shopping with my mummy.
yay!
ok i headed to tekka first to do my eyebrow.
then met mummy at town.
we went to far east first.
did my butterfly buckle at cheeks and also got a matching belt for it.
went ard far east to buy clothes.
i bought abt 5 blouse and 1 jeans.
then we took a bus and went to heeren.
we took our first neoprint there.
so nice.
i like.
then we walked to the shopping center opp of specialist.
we bought 2 bags ( a handbag and a bag for sch) and shades.
i bought a few snacks and headed home.
i was so darn tired.
i came home ate the snacks i bought and slept a while cause of the med i took the day before.
mum edited this pics.you can see the other ones in friendster.
after the short nap which i barely slept,
baby called me and said that he was done with the interview and asked me to get ready.
so i got ready and met up with him.
we went to eat first at marina.
have not eaten there in a very long time so decided to go there.
after that we went to ps cause we wanted to watch movie.
and guess who we saw there??
MY ELDEST BROTHER!! and his so called date.
what a surprise!!
the gal my bro was with din wanna see me at all,
but this was an unexpected meeting so she was so shy.
hehe.
she is the same age as me but look a little shorter.
i am not disturbing her or wat so ever.
cause i know how that will feel.
anw we both wanted to watch the same movie,
'take the lead'
BUT only the first row was available so we din get it.
but baby n i decided to watch the 12.20am show.
so we got the tickets and headed back to telok blangah first.
baby went ammama hse while i rested a while at home.
then met kavinesh and baby at the 24 hr coffee shop and talked.
kavinesh is so darn funny.
he just imitates songs with all his stupid gestures and voices.
arghh..
after a while we headed to ps.
my first ever time watching a mid-night movie and its with baby.
its such a great experience.
just the two of us.
as usual vinod said stupid stuff like,
'make sure dun make so much noise ok, wait will disturb others'
dumbass!!
anw the movie is GD!!
to me its good la.
cuase i like this kinda movies.
i mean achiving stuff and all.
and also had romance.
they way the people dance was awsome!!
ok after the movie,
baby sent me home and then he went back.
it was a very long and tiring day which just ended while i am writing all of this.
despite the long and tiring part,
i enjoyed my day.
tts the main point of the whole day.
spent the day with the 2 most impt people in my life.
love you both loads.
muacks!!
us at marina after our dinner.yum yum!!
after the movie at ps, heading back home.
set alarm for today.
got ready and guess where am i going??
haha i am going shopping with my mummy.
yay!
ok i headed to tekka first to do my eyebrow.
then met mummy at town.
we went to far east first.
did my butterfly buckle at cheeks and also got a matching belt for it.
went ard far east to buy clothes.
i bought abt 5 blouse and 1 jeans.
then we took a bus and went to heeren.
we took our first neoprint there.
so nice.
i like.
then we walked to the shopping center opp of specialist.
we bought 2 bags ( a handbag and a bag for sch) and shades.
i bought a few snacks and headed home.
i was so darn tired.
i came home ate the snacks i bought and slept a while cause of the med i took the day before.
mum edited this pics.you can see the other ones in friendster.
after the short nap which i barely slept,
baby called me and said that he was done with the interview and asked me to get ready.
so i got ready and met up with him.
we went to eat first at marina.
have not eaten there in a very long time so decided to go there.
after that we went to ps cause we wanted to watch movie.
and guess who we saw there??
MY ELDEST BROTHER!! and his so called date.
what a surprise!!
the gal my bro was with din wanna see me at all,
but this was an unexpected meeting so she was so shy.
hehe.
she is the same age as me but look a little shorter.
i am not disturbing her or wat so ever.
cause i know how that will feel.
anw we both wanted to watch the same movie,
'take the lead'
BUT only the first row was available so we din get it.
but baby n i decided to watch the 12.20am show.
so we got the tickets and headed back to telok blangah first.
baby went ammama hse while i rested a while at home.
then met kavinesh and baby at the 24 hr coffee shop and talked.
kavinesh is so darn funny.
he just imitates songs with all his stupid gestures and voices.
arghh..
after a while we headed to ps.
my first ever time watching a mid-night movie and its with baby.
its such a great experience.
just the two of us.
as usual vinod said stupid stuff like,
'make sure dun make so much noise ok, wait will disturb others'
dumbass!!
anw the movie is GD!!
to me its good la.
cuase i like this kinda movies.
i mean achiving stuff and all.
and also had romance.
they way the people dance was awsome!!
ok after the movie,
baby sent me home and then he went back.
it was a very long and tiring day which just ended while i am writing all of this.
despite the long and tiring part,
i enjoyed my day.
tts the main point of the whole day.
spent the day with the 2 most impt people in my life.
love you both loads.
muacks!!
us at marina after our dinner.yum yum!!
after the movie at ps, heading back home.
Friday, April 21, 2006
21 steps.
ONE. Give people more than they expect and do it cheerfully.
TWO. Marry a man/woman you love to talk to. As you get older, their conversational skills will be as important as any other.
THREE. Don't believe all you hear, spend all you have or sleep all you want.
FOUR. When you say, "I love you," mean it.
FIVE. When you say, "I'm sorry," look the person in the eye.
SIX. Be engaged at least six months before you get married.
SEVEN. Believe in love at first sight.
EIGHT. Never laugh at anyone's dream. People who don't have dreams don't have much.
NINE. Love deeply and passionately. You might get hurt but it's the only way to live life completely.
TEN. In disagreements, fight fairly. No name calling.
ELEVEN. Don't judge people by their relatives.
TWELVE. Talk slowly but think quickly.
THIRTEEN. When someone asks you a question you don't want to answer, smile and ask, "Why do you want to know?"
FOURTEEN. Remember that great love and great achievements involve great risk.
FIFTEEN. Say "bless you" when you hear someone sneeze.
SIXTEEN. When you lose, don't lose the lesson .S
EVENTEEN. Remember the three R's: Respect for self; Respect for others; and responsibility for all your actions.
EIGHTEEN. Don't let a little dispute injure a great friendship.
NINETEEN. When you realize you've made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.
TWENTY. Smile when picking up the phone. The caller will hear it in your voice.
TWENTY-ONE. Spend some time alone.
TWO. Marry a man/woman you love to talk to. As you get older, their conversational skills will be as important as any other.
THREE. Don't believe all you hear, spend all you have or sleep all you want.
FOUR. When you say, "I love you," mean it.
FIVE. When you say, "I'm sorry," look the person in the eye.
SIX. Be engaged at least six months before you get married.
SEVEN. Believe in love at first sight.
EIGHT. Never laugh at anyone's dream. People who don't have dreams don't have much.
NINE. Love deeply and passionately. You might get hurt but it's the only way to live life completely.
TEN. In disagreements, fight fairly. No name calling.
ELEVEN. Don't judge people by their relatives.
TWELVE. Talk slowly but think quickly.
THIRTEEN. When someone asks you a question you don't want to answer, smile and ask, "Why do you want to know?"
FOURTEEN. Remember that great love and great achievements involve great risk.
FIFTEEN. Say "bless you" when you hear someone sneeze.
SIXTEEN. When you lose, don't lose the lesson .S
EVENTEEN. Remember the three R's: Respect for self; Respect for others; and responsibility for all your actions.
EIGHTEEN. Don't let a little dispute injure a great friendship.
NINETEEN. When you realize you've made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.
TWENTY. Smile when picking up the phone. The caller will hear it in your voice.
TWENTY-ONE. Spend some time alone.
Thursday, April 20, 2006
What a guy should do.
Smell her hair....
Talk to her in movie theatres....
Hold her hand while u talk....
Tell her shes beautiful....
Look her in the eye when u talk to her....
Tell her stupid jokes....
Let her mess with ur hair....
Just walk around wit her....
Look at her like shes the only girl you see...
Tickle her Even if she says stop....
When she starts swearing at u,tell her ulove her....
Let her fall asleep in ur arms....
Get her mad,then kiss her....
Tease her...
Let her tease u back....
kiss her enough, but dont over kiss her....
Stay up wit her all night when shes sick....
Watch her favorite movie....
Kiss her forehead....
Write her letters....
If she asks u 2 go 2 a show with her,go....
Let her wear ur clothes.....
When shes sad,hang out with her....
Buy her ice cream....
Let her take all the photos of u she wants....
Kiss her in the rain....
And when u fall in love with her tell her
my baby does most of these things.
he is the sweetest person i know.
he loves me so much.
thanks dada for everything.
muacks!
Talk to her in movie theatres....
Hold her hand while u talk....
Tell her shes beautiful....
Look her in the eye when u talk to her....
Tell her stupid jokes....
Let her mess with ur hair....
Just walk around wit her....
Look at her like shes the only girl you see...
Tickle her Even if she says stop....
When she starts swearing at u,tell her ulove her....
Let her fall asleep in ur arms....
Get her mad,then kiss her....
Tease her...
Let her tease u back....
kiss her enough, but dont over kiss her....
Stay up wit her all night when shes sick....
Watch her favorite movie....
Kiss her forehead....
Write her letters....
If she asks u 2 go 2 a show with her,go....
Let her wear ur clothes.....
When shes sad,hang out with her....
Buy her ice cream....
Let her take all the photos of u she wants....
Kiss her in the rain....
And when u fall in love with her tell her
my baby does most of these things.
he is the sweetest person i know.
he loves me so much.
thanks dada for everything.
muacks!
Wednesday, April 19, 2006
people are so free.
i just realised that some people are so damn free.
they can hack in to other ppl's account and change the password.
and delete other people from the account and all.
damn man.
whats wrong with people these days?
i mean hello i am with him so what else can you do??
by doing all this,
it does not mean that i am going to leave him.
you can try whatever u want but its not going to work!
get this in ya stupid head la!!
anw i cant be bothered about that.
today had a chat wid sinthu and vinod.
damn funny la.
as usual vinod and i were fighting.
hehe.
thanks vinod for everything.
you never fail to make me smile.
cant wait to see u.
like so long never see u sia.
make time for me quick ok.
la la la.
better be good ok.
i placed my life on the line ok.
dun do anything stupid.
anw i know u wun do anything like that.
missing my baby so much.
he is in camp.
and i am here at home.
being so bored.
aiyah what a wonderful life i lead.
anw school is going to start on the 24th which is next week.
our anniversary also.
yay!!
i cant wait.
bleahs!!
they can hack in to other ppl's account and change the password.
and delete other people from the account and all.
damn man.
whats wrong with people these days?
i mean hello i am with him so what else can you do??
by doing all this,
it does not mean that i am going to leave him.
you can try whatever u want but its not going to work!
get this in ya stupid head la!!
anw i cant be bothered about that.
today had a chat wid sinthu and vinod.
damn funny la.
as usual vinod and i were fighting.
hehe.
thanks vinod for everything.
you never fail to make me smile.
cant wait to see u.
like so long never see u sia.
make time for me quick ok.
la la la.
better be good ok.
i placed my life on the line ok.
dun do anything stupid.
anw i know u wun do anything like that.
missing my baby so much.
he is in camp.
and i am here at home.
being so bored.
aiyah what a wonderful life i lead.
anw school is going to start on the 24th which is next week.
our anniversary also.
yay!!
i cant wait.
bleahs!!
Prayer of the day.
Put Courage Into My Heart
Lord,
put courage into my heart,
and take away all that may hinder me serving you.
Free my tongue to proclaim your goodness,
that all may understand me.
Give me friends to advise and help me,
that by working together our efforts may bear abundant fruit.
And, above all,
let me constantly remember that all my actions are in vain unless they are guided by your hand.
Lord,
put courage into my heart,
and take away all that may hinder me serving you.
Free my tongue to proclaim your goodness,
that all may understand me.
Give me friends to advise and help me,
that by working together our efforts may bear abundant fruit.
And, above all,
let me constantly remember that all my actions are in vain unless they are guided by your hand.
Tuesday, April 18, 2006
my wonderful love life.
i watched 2 tamil movies.
and both the tamil movies have taught me more about my love life.
i am very glad for it.
the first movie,
kalabaa kadhalan,
made me realise how much my baby cares and loves me.
and the second movie taught me how love is based on trust and faith.
i have grown stronger and having more faith towards the future.
baby really takes care of me like his lil baby.
it really feels so wonderful.
i am glad that God brought me and him together.
that day has been the most happiest day till now.
thanks alot baby.
although u are in camp most of the time,
you never fail to care and love me.
and of course make time for me.
you always make time for me,
even if its just 5 mins or so.
you ride all the way here just to be wid me.
many things about you that amazes me.
and you are very special to me.
i love you very much dada.
muacks!!
my life is stable now cause of you.
i am so loved cause of you.
i am so happy cause of you and only you.
you have taught me how to live life as it is.
to be stronger in any situation.
you have taught me so much.
you never gave up on me no matter what.
when everyone was far away,
you were close to me guiding and loving.
thanks my love.
i wanna be wid you forever.
(",)
and both the tamil movies have taught me more about my love life.
i am very glad for it.
the first movie,
kalabaa kadhalan,
made me realise how much my baby cares and loves me.
and the second movie taught me how love is based on trust and faith.
i have grown stronger and having more faith towards the future.
baby really takes care of me like his lil baby.
it really feels so wonderful.
i am glad that God brought me and him together.
that day has been the most happiest day till now.
thanks alot baby.
although u are in camp most of the time,
you never fail to care and love me.
and of course make time for me.
you always make time for me,
even if its just 5 mins or so.
you ride all the way here just to be wid me.
many things about you that amazes me.
and you are very special to me.
i love you very much dada.
muacks!!
my life is stable now cause of you.
i am so loved cause of you.
i am so happy cause of you and only you.
you have taught me how to live life as it is.
to be stronger in any situation.
you have taught me so much.
you never gave up on me no matter what.
when everyone was far away,
you were close to me guiding and loving.
thanks my love.
i wanna be wid you forever.
(",)
Monday, April 17, 2006
Questions
Name 20 ppl you can think of right now at the top of yr head.Dont read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 20 ppl. ok tag at least 5 ppl..
Ready?
Start!
1.Shawn
2.Vinod
3.Stephen
4.Geneive
5.Patrick
6.Mishalani
7.Sharon
8.Xp
9.Damien
10.Kavinesh
11.Steve
12.Jacq
13.Tim
14.Vanessa
15.Andrew
16.Marla
17.Joel
18.Reena
19.Sunther
20.Gurpreet
now for the questions ::
1.how did u meet 14?
Through my baby, she is his sister.
2.what would you do if u've never met 1?
i would be single now with no one to turn to and love me.in other words i would not be the same person who is so happy and loved now.
3.what would u do if 20 and 9 dated?
haha age gap; big diff!! and no match at all.
4.did u ever like 19?
yeah, as my wonderful brother who is there for me.
5.would 6 and 17 make a good couple?
i dun think so. i mean they have seen each other but i doubt it.
6. Describe 3?
he is a childlike person who lives so carefree.cute and can tackle any gal.i still love him.
7.Do u tink 8 is attractive?
yes.pretty and sophisticated.
8.Tell me sth about 7.
soft-spoken.sensitive but always there for ppl she love and care.never regretted knowing her.love u gal!
9.Do you know any of 12's family?
yup!!i know her whole family since young.never regretted it either!!
10.What's 8's favourite?
hmph not so sure..must ask norman!!
11.what would u do if 18 just confessed he/she likes you?
then we can have a secret relationship widout our bf knowing abt it.slurps.
12.what language does 15 speak?
english, tamil, malayalam and i guess a little of norwegian.
13.Who is 9 going out with?
he ah?? aiyo *slaps forehead* so young think he romeo!!
14.how old is 16 now?
23 if i am not wrong.
15.When's the last time u talked to 13?
i think vinod's b'day celebration.17th march.
16.what is 2's favourite band/singer?
i dun know.hmph he talks to me abt gals but never abt a band.haha.
17.would u ever date 4?
yum yum.i dun mind.haven seen her so long so a date would be romantic.*slurps*
18.would u ever date 7?
yeah, dated her before alr la..
19.Is 15 single?
not so sure. im still confused.
20.What is 10's last name?
i dun know.must ask him.
21.Would u ever be in a serious relationship with 11?
i have a serious relationship with him now. as my BROTHER!! great brother.
22.What school does 3 go to?
school of flirts. haha he doing private O's.
23.Where does 6 live?
i know i know.upper serangoon, lor lew lian.
24.What's yr fav thing about 5?
his care and concern.my brothers are the best.
25.Have u seen number 1 naked?
yes yes.. yum yum.
now tag five people ::
1] Reena
2] Jacq
3] Joel
4]laxhmi
5]sumita
Ready?
Start!
1.Shawn
2.Vinod
3.Stephen
4.Geneive
5.Patrick
6.Mishalani
7.Sharon
8.Xp
9.Damien
10.Kavinesh
11.Steve
12.Jacq
13.Tim
14.Vanessa
15.Andrew
16.Marla
17.Joel
18.Reena
19.Sunther
20.Gurpreet
now for the questions ::
1.how did u meet 14?
Through my baby, she is his sister.
2.what would you do if u've never met 1?
i would be single now with no one to turn to and love me.in other words i would not be the same person who is so happy and loved now.
3.what would u do if 20 and 9 dated?
haha age gap; big diff!! and no match at all.
4.did u ever like 19?
yeah, as my wonderful brother who is there for me.
5.would 6 and 17 make a good couple?
i dun think so. i mean they have seen each other but i doubt it.
6. Describe 3?
he is a childlike person who lives so carefree.cute and can tackle any gal.i still love him.
7.Do u tink 8 is attractive?
yes.pretty and sophisticated.
8.Tell me sth about 7.
soft-spoken.sensitive but always there for ppl she love and care.never regretted knowing her.love u gal!
9.Do you know any of 12's family?
yup!!i know her whole family since young.never regretted it either!!
10.What's 8's favourite?
hmph not so sure..must ask norman!!
11.what would u do if 18 just confessed he/she likes you?
then we can have a secret relationship widout our bf knowing abt it.slurps.
12.what language does 15 speak?
english, tamil, malayalam and i guess a little of norwegian.
13.Who is 9 going out with?
he ah?? aiyo *slaps forehead* so young think he romeo!!
14.how old is 16 now?
23 if i am not wrong.
15.When's the last time u talked to 13?
i think vinod's b'day celebration.17th march.
16.what is 2's favourite band/singer?
i dun know.hmph he talks to me abt gals but never abt a band.haha.
17.would u ever date 4?
yum yum.i dun mind.haven seen her so long so a date would be romantic.*slurps*
18.would u ever date 7?
yeah, dated her before alr la..
19.Is 15 single?
not so sure. im still confused.
20.What is 10's last name?
i dun know.must ask him.
21.Would u ever be in a serious relationship with 11?
i have a serious relationship with him now. as my BROTHER!! great brother.
22.What school does 3 go to?
school of flirts. haha he doing private O's.
23.Where does 6 live?
i know i know.upper serangoon, lor lew lian.
24.What's yr fav thing about 5?
his care and concern.my brothers are the best.
25.Have u seen number 1 naked?
yes yes.. yum yum.
now tag five people ::
1] Reena
2] Jacq
3] Joel
4]laxhmi
5]sumita
Sunday, April 16, 2006
easter sunday.
day when jesus rose from the dead.
yay!
went church wid mummy and daddy.
after that i was taking pics wid myself and my bro outside church.
we then took a cab and headed to the airport.
family reunion.
its been long since i really saw my cousins and have a gd talk with them.
i had a great time with them all.
we took pics and had long talk.
its been long like i said.
i mean we are busy with our own lives.
with school and army and all.
but these are the ocassions where i get to see them.
after that we headed to yishun Orchid Country Club.
my brother got a complimentary 2 day 1 night stay there.
the room was so nice.
the whole place was so nice.
it was more like a hotel.
baby came and fetch me from the place.
then we headed to the hospital as baby was still sick.
after that we had dinner at harbour front.
i din have much of an appetite though.
baby sent me home.
we spent time under my block first.
he was talking to me and holding me in his arms.
he made me feel so much better.
his words are always comforting.
i love u baby.
thanks so much.
my baby said,
'if i dun take care of my baby who will, i only rite?'
so sweet.
i am so touched.
thanks dada for everything.
muacks a million!!
yay!
went church wid mummy and daddy.
after that i was taking pics wid myself and my bro outside church.
we then took a cab and headed to the airport.
family reunion.
its been long since i really saw my cousins and have a gd talk with them.
i had a great time with them all.
we took pics and had long talk.
its been long like i said.
i mean we are busy with our own lives.
with school and army and all.
but these are the ocassions where i get to see them.
after that we headed to yishun Orchid Country Club.
my brother got a complimentary 2 day 1 night stay there.
the room was so nice.
the whole place was so nice.
it was more like a hotel.
baby came and fetch me from the place.
then we headed to the hospital as baby was still sick.
after that we had dinner at harbour front.
i din have much of an appetite though.
baby sent me home.
we spent time under my block first.
he was talking to me and holding me in his arms.
he made me feel so much better.
his words are always comforting.
i love u baby.
thanks so much.
my baby said,
'if i dun take care of my baby who will, i only rite?'
so sweet.
i am so touched.
thanks dada for everything.
muacks a million!!
Wednesday, April 12, 2006
We Belong Together
I didn't mean it
When I said I didn't love you so
I should have held on tight
I never should've let you goI didn't know nothing
I was stupidI was foolish
I was lying to myself
I couldn't have fathomed that I would ever
Be without your love
Never imagined I'd be
Sitting here beside myself
'Cause I didn't know you
'Cause I didn't know me
But I thought I knew everything
I never felt
The feeling that I'm feeling
Now that I don'tHear your voice
Or have your touch and kiss your lips
Cause I don't have a choice
Oh, what I wouldn't give
To have you lying by my side
Right here, 'cause baby
[Chorus:]
When you leftI lost a part of me
It's still so hard to believe
Come back baby please,
'cause We belong together
Who else am I gonna lean on
When times get rough
Who's gonna talk to me on the phone
Till the sun comes up
Who's gonna take your place
There ain't nobody better
Oh baby, baby
We belong together
I can't sleep at night
When you are on my mind
Bobby Womack's on the radio
Singing to me
'If you think you're lonely now
'Wait a minute
This is too deep, too deep
I gotta change the station
So I turn the dial
Trying to catch a break
And then I hear Babyface
I only think of you
And it's breaking my heart
I'm trying to keep it together
But I'm falling apart
I'm feeling all out of my element
I'm throwing things
CryingTrying to figure out
Where the hell I went wrong
The pain reflected in this song
Ain't even half of what
I'm feeling insideI need you
Need you back in my life baby
[Chorus]
[Repeat chorus]
When you left
I lost a part of me
It's still so hard to believe
Come back baby please, 'cause
We belong together
Who am I gonna lean on
When times get rough
Who's gonna talk to me
Till the sun comes up
Who's gonna take your place
There ain't nobody better
Oh baby, baby
We belong together
When I said I didn't love you so
I should have held on tight
I never should've let you goI didn't know nothing
I was stupidI was foolish
I was lying to myself
I couldn't have fathomed that I would ever
Be without your love
Never imagined I'd be
Sitting here beside myself
'Cause I didn't know you
'Cause I didn't know me
But I thought I knew everything
I never felt
The feeling that I'm feeling
Now that I don'tHear your voice
Or have your touch and kiss your lips
Cause I don't have a choice
Oh, what I wouldn't give
To have you lying by my side
Right here, 'cause baby
[Chorus:]
When you leftI lost a part of me
It's still so hard to believe
Come back baby please,
'cause We belong together
Who else am I gonna lean on
When times get rough
Who's gonna talk to me on the phone
Till the sun comes up
Who's gonna take your place
There ain't nobody better
Oh baby, baby
We belong together
I can't sleep at night
When you are on my mind
Bobby Womack's on the radio
Singing to me
'If you think you're lonely now
'Wait a minute
This is too deep, too deep
I gotta change the station
So I turn the dial
Trying to catch a break
And then I hear Babyface
I only think of you
And it's breaking my heart
I'm trying to keep it together
But I'm falling apart
I'm feeling all out of my element
I'm throwing things
CryingTrying to figure out
Where the hell I went wrong
The pain reflected in this song
Ain't even half of what
I'm feeling insideI need you
Need you back in my life baby
[Chorus]
[Repeat chorus]
When you left
I lost a part of me
It's still so hard to believe
Come back baby please, 'cause
We belong together
Who am I gonna lean on
When times get rough
Who's gonna talk to me
Till the sun comes up
Who's gonna take your place
There ain't nobody better
Oh baby, baby
We belong together
both of us sick.
yesterday was a tiring day.
after slping i woke up and got ready to go baby's hse.
baby came and fetch me.
he surprised me and then came and fetch me.
naughty boy.
so sweet my baby.
then we went to baby's hse.
baby went to wash up and slept as he had not slept the whole day.
i din object to it or watso ever cause i know he was sick and also very tired.
he slept like a lil baby while i taught his sister.
after that vanessa and i had loads of fun.
i played songs from my phone and we were dancing to it.
we were imitating the dance steps and also doing our own nonsense.
it was so fun.
i am happy that i can click with her.
she is like my younger sister.
anw baby was so stubborn yesterday.
i told him a could go home myself and he rest at home.
BUT he kept wanting to send me home.
aiyah but at last he won the battle.
so naughty la he.
then there was this guy who wanted to steal baby's bike.
we were watching from his house and the guy just inserted his keys in baby's bike.
then baby shouted and the guy moved away.
sad sad.
but luckily nothing happened.
i am so worried for baby.
both of us are sick.
~smiles~
so today i woke up at abt 10 plus.
helped my mum do some work and then i downloaded many things to my phone.
my eldest bro bought a 1Gb memory card for me.
its like so big.
i can put many many things in it.
after that i watched csi.
took medicine and headed to bed.
woke up ate and watch tv.
i am so bored.
i cant wait for sch to re-open.
at least i will be having something to do.
now i feel so useless and unwanted.
arghh..
hate that feeling.
missing baby so much.
we might be having a bbq on friday.
actually baby's family la.
so might be heading there.
if baby's going that is.
i love you mama.
thanks for everything.
and pls take care of yaself.
so naughty u know u black backside.
(",)
after slping i woke up and got ready to go baby's hse.
baby came and fetch me.
he surprised me and then came and fetch me.
naughty boy.
so sweet my baby.
then we went to baby's hse.
baby went to wash up and slept as he had not slept the whole day.
i din object to it or watso ever cause i know he was sick and also very tired.
he slept like a lil baby while i taught his sister.
after that vanessa and i had loads of fun.
i played songs from my phone and we were dancing to it.
we were imitating the dance steps and also doing our own nonsense.
it was so fun.
i am happy that i can click with her.
she is like my younger sister.
anw baby was so stubborn yesterday.
i told him a could go home myself and he rest at home.
BUT he kept wanting to send me home.
aiyah but at last he won the battle.
so naughty la he.
then there was this guy who wanted to steal baby's bike.
we were watching from his house and the guy just inserted his keys in baby's bike.
then baby shouted and the guy moved away.
sad sad.
but luckily nothing happened.
i am so worried for baby.
both of us are sick.
~smiles~
so today i woke up at abt 10 plus.
helped my mum do some work and then i downloaded many things to my phone.
my eldest bro bought a 1Gb memory card for me.
its like so big.
i can put many many things in it.
after that i watched csi.
took medicine and headed to bed.
woke up ate and watch tv.
i am so bored.
i cant wait for sch to re-open.
at least i will be having something to do.
now i feel so useless and unwanted.
arghh..
hate that feeling.
missing baby so much.
we might be having a bbq on friday.
actually baby's family la.
so might be heading there.
if baby's going that is.
i love you mama.
thanks for everything.
and pls take care of yaself.
so naughty u know u black backside.
(",)
Tuesday, April 11, 2006
unexpected weather at sentosa.
i just got back from sentosa.
just me and my baby.
its been long since we went there.
so decided to go as he is on leave.
ok lets start.
baby rode the bike to harbour front and parked it there.
while we were walking i kept telling baby that it was going to rain but he said,
'Don't worry baby, there are stars so wun rain.'
so we took a cab and went to palawan beach.
then we bought mashed potato and ate.
we found a nice spot and pitched our tent.
even then i told baby that its going to rain but he still said the same thing.
therefore i just kept quiet and din wanna spoil the moment.
when we were just starting to get comfortable in the tent,
IT STARTED TO RAIN!!
i told you baby!!
but its ok.
we decided to stay in the tent still as it is waterproof.
BUT THE TENT WAS LEAKING (had a small tiny hole)
so we got out of the tent and pulled it under the shelter.
after some time we got back in.
we lay down and was talking.
then we noticed that the rain had stopped.
baby wanted to bring the tent out again.
he does not listen to me.
so we brought it out.
like what happened before,
we were just starting to get comfortable when it started to rain.
we pulled it under the shelter again.
i was sick of it and i told baby that we should just pack up and sit under the big tent just beside 7-eleven.
at least they have chairs to sit.
so we packed up everything and sat there.
bought food and ate too.
was hungry.
baby was so tired that he slept.
but he kept waking up cause the stupid mosquitos keep biting my poor baby.
baby was biten on his neck, hands, legs, even his fingers.
we just slacked at the big tent for quite some time.
after some time we decided to walk.
we wanted to take a cab to the place where we parked the bike.
but there was not even one cab.
arghh so we walked all the way from palawan beach to the bus stop.
i kept hearing wierd noises but prayed so hard that i dun see anything out of the blue.
cause i will just freak out!
but at last after waiting for more than half an hour,
we got the first bus to harbour front interchange.
then baby sent me home.
i am dead tired.
din slp the whole time.
was looking after baby and shoo'ing away all the stupid msquitos sucking my baby's blood.
and i could not slp as the wind was so cold and my chest started to be so pain.
ok now im on my bed and my time to turn in.
anw i enjoyed my time with my baby although this was the first time it rained when we were there.
its a gd experience also.
i love u baby.
muacks.
next time i beat the naughty flies away ok.
ride home safely..
missing you already.
just me and my baby.
its been long since we went there.
so decided to go as he is on leave.
ok lets start.
baby rode the bike to harbour front and parked it there.
while we were walking i kept telling baby that it was going to rain but he said,
'Don't worry baby, there are stars so wun rain.'
so we took a cab and went to palawan beach.
then we bought mashed potato and ate.
we found a nice spot and pitched our tent.
even then i told baby that its going to rain but he still said the same thing.
therefore i just kept quiet and din wanna spoil the moment.
when we were just starting to get comfortable in the tent,
IT STARTED TO RAIN!!
i told you baby!!
but its ok.
we decided to stay in the tent still as it is waterproof.
BUT THE TENT WAS LEAKING (had a small tiny hole)
so we got out of the tent and pulled it under the shelter.
after some time we got back in.
we lay down and was talking.
then we noticed that the rain had stopped.
baby wanted to bring the tent out again.
he does not listen to me.
so we brought it out.
like what happened before,
we were just starting to get comfortable when it started to rain.
we pulled it under the shelter again.
i was sick of it and i told baby that we should just pack up and sit under the big tent just beside 7-eleven.
at least they have chairs to sit.
so we packed up everything and sat there.
bought food and ate too.
was hungry.
baby was so tired that he slept.
but he kept waking up cause the stupid mosquitos keep biting my poor baby.
baby was biten on his neck, hands, legs, even his fingers.
we just slacked at the big tent for quite some time.
after some time we decided to walk.
we wanted to take a cab to the place where we parked the bike.
but there was not even one cab.
arghh so we walked all the way from palawan beach to the bus stop.
i kept hearing wierd noises but prayed so hard that i dun see anything out of the blue.
cause i will just freak out!
but at last after waiting for more than half an hour,
we got the first bus to harbour front interchange.
then baby sent me home.
i am dead tired.
din slp the whole time.
was looking after baby and shoo'ing away all the stupid msquitos sucking my baby's blood.
and i could not slp as the wind was so cold and my chest started to be so pain.
ok now im on my bed and my time to turn in.
anw i enjoyed my time with my baby although this was the first time it rained when we were there.
its a gd experience also.
i love u baby.
muacks.
next time i beat the naughty flies away ok.
ride home safely..
missing you already.
Monday, April 10, 2006
Prayer of the day
Hide Thy face from my sins, and blot out all mine iniquities. Create me a clean heart, O God; and renew a stedfast spirit within me. Cast me not away from Thy presence; and take not Thy holy spirit from me. Restore unto me the joy of Thy salvation; and let a willing spirit uphold me.
- Psalms 51: 11-14
- Psalms 51: 11-14
parents being taught by children.
Hey people these are stories i read in one of the sites.
i just wanted to share with all of you.
click on the links.
each links is a different story.
enjoy reading.
Why God Made Moms? Second-graders answer questions about the women in their lives.
True Generosity What would you give to people you never met?
The 'I Love You More' Game A little girl teaches her mom a thing or two about love.
Everything I Really Need to Know, I Learned From My Children
By Jim Bedard
i just wanted to share with all of you.
click on the links.
each links is a different story.
enjoy reading.
Why God Made Moms? Second-graders answer questions about the women in their lives.
True Generosity What would you give to people you never met?
The 'I Love You More' Game A little girl teaches her mom a thing or two about love.
Everything I Really Need to Know, I Learned From My Children
By Jim Bedard
Sunday, April 09, 2006
whats ya faith??
today my day was actually tiring as we went from one place to another.
but i liked it since i was wid baby the whole while.
the last destination before home, was baby's hse.
there i was talking to mummy.
she was telling me how she converted and what she went through.
my feelings were very stired up.
my faith is strong but i am confused and scared.
i dun know what my future will be like.
i am scared to even think about it.
i hate to have topics like that.
i hate to think.
these topics causes me to think which in the ends,
leads to my chest pain and depression.
~sigh~
i am being put through many tests about my faith.
i know i have moved away from church,
BUT never away from God.
i always turned to him.
to me all God's are one.
but i was brought up in a catholic environment.
Jesus was my hope.
i always turned to him.
He never failed to show me the right way.
He never failed to protect and guard me from danger.
He never turned his back against me.
BUT now,
He is testing me with my faith.
i dun know what to do.
i just continue to pray.
~sigh~
now i am going to think and cause myself to be depressed.
at this current moment i am so damn tired.
i think its the time of the month.
my whole back is killing me.
my bum is also so pain as i sat on baby's bike for so long.
ouch!!
i wish i was born as a guy.
BUT there is something i love about being a lady.
which is....
Woman are the only ones who can produce new life.
with the help of the male, of course.
but this is like a miracle.
i just love the birth cycle.
anw i was reading xp's blog and i agree totaly with her.
young kids these days are getting out of hand.
i would like to add, not only abt the relationship part but also the bad habits.
so young and they start it all.
thinking its so cool n all.
i thought there is a law for all these?
are they not doing anything about it?
my neighbourhood contains of YOUNGSTERS or even KIDS,
who smoke and sniff glue.
BUT nothing is happening.
arghh..
its sad to think of all these.
anw its their future their are ruining.
i shall pray for all of them.
and of course all my loved ones and friends.
for now a special prayer for geneive who is not feeling well.
oh ya and for jacq too.
i heard you got injured during dance or something.
get well soon my both sweets.
muacks!!
but i liked it since i was wid baby the whole while.
the last destination before home, was baby's hse.
there i was talking to mummy.
she was telling me how she converted and what she went through.
my feelings were very stired up.
my faith is strong but i am confused and scared.
i dun know what my future will be like.
i am scared to even think about it.
i hate to have topics like that.
i hate to think.
these topics causes me to think which in the ends,
leads to my chest pain and depression.
~sigh~
i am being put through many tests about my faith.
i know i have moved away from church,
BUT never away from God.
i always turned to him.
to me all God's are one.
but i was brought up in a catholic environment.
Jesus was my hope.
i always turned to him.
He never failed to show me the right way.
He never failed to protect and guard me from danger.
He never turned his back against me.
BUT now,
He is testing me with my faith.
i dun know what to do.
i just continue to pray.
~sigh~
now i am going to think and cause myself to be depressed.
at this current moment i am so damn tired.
i think its the time of the month.
my whole back is killing me.
my bum is also so pain as i sat on baby's bike for so long.
ouch!!
i wish i was born as a guy.
BUT there is something i love about being a lady.
which is....
Woman are the only ones who can produce new life.
with the help of the male, of course.
but this is like a miracle.
i just love the birth cycle.
anw i was reading xp's blog and i agree totaly with her.
young kids these days are getting out of hand.
i would like to add, not only abt the relationship part but also the bad habits.
so young and they start it all.
thinking its so cool n all.
i thought there is a law for all these?
are they not doing anything about it?
my neighbourhood contains of YOUNGSTERS or even KIDS,
who smoke and sniff glue.
BUT nothing is happening.
arghh..
its sad to think of all these.
anw its their future their are ruining.
i shall pray for all of them.
and of course all my loved ones and friends.
for now a special prayer for geneive who is not feeling well.
oh ya and for jacq too.
i heard you got injured during dance or something.
get well soon my both sweets.
muacks!!