~beautifulangel~ People who are meant to be together, ALWAYS find their way in the end!!

today i woke up later cause of the med i took last night
and also cause my class only starts at 1pm.
during my lesson,
my teacher was teaching about how children learn.
we shld not discourage them when they fail,
but pick them up and allow them to try again.
cause when we discourage them and scold them,
they will not want to try again,
fearing that we might scold them again.
they loose their self-esteem and in future it is hard for them to bring out their capabilities.
they themselves will tend to look down on themselves.

sometimes i feel like that.
since young alot of people look down on me.
and i am afriad to try new things.
i am afriad of failing.
i am afraid of loosing out.
i have unwanted and not needed fear in me.
for the smallest things i will have fear.
its scary at times though.
my self-esteem is kinda low at times.
but i am willing to try most of the times.
sigh.
i pray that all this fear will leave me.
its like genetic or grown.
i also do not know.

anw i had a very nice day.
esp when baby surprised me by coming to my hse widout telling me.
he had nights off.
so loving my babyboy.
thanks ma,
just that small thing made me smile so much.
muacks my lover boy.
i love u so much da.

ok i am disappointed in someone.
aiyah never knew he was like that la.
got gf now then no time for me and my baby alr.
wah now like that alr sia.
nvm nvm!!
when wanna say something only call me.
other than that so busy!!
~sigh~
i am so sad.
i dun wanna say any name la.
as long as the person knows good enuff.

p.s i am just happy that you are happy.
its good enuff la.
take care.
bleahs!!

arghh my right ear is getting worse.
i cant hear properly.
it hurts.
damn man.
i tryed doing many things but its still the same.
dang!!
arghh..
i cant take it anymore.

somethings shld better be unsaid.
cause it will cause even more probs in life.
i always regret saying things to ppl.
sometimes i even regret getting close to certain ppl.
no one knows wat i feel.
know what knows whats going in my mind.
its twisting and turning.
hard to even think straight.
my head hurts so badly.
i wish for it all to go away.
i dun wanna think.
i just wanna dream.

self-esteem.