~beautifulangel~ People who are meant to be together, ALWAYS find their way in the end!!

i wish i did not start anything.
i wish i was all alone from the start.
i wish i din make any friends,
so that i wun hurt any.
i wish i din have emotions,
so that i wun feel sad or any others.
i wish i wasnt even born,
cause then i wun be going through all this.

at times in my life,
it gets so hard that i wish i could be alone,
in some part of the world where no one will find me.
but somehow or another i cant.
cause no matter where i go i cant survive.
cause i am so dependent on ppl.
i cant live alone.
i cant stand loneliness.

sometimes i close my eyes,
wishing that when i open it everything will be better.
BUT thats not how life works.
you just have to face every single thing that comes.
i feel so weak at times just to go through the hardship,
but somehow i will find the strength.
for certain problems i just break down,
and no matter how much i try i cant seem to get up.

if i can i will try to make everything better.
i will try to make everything and everyone ard me happy.
BUT i have to make ppl sad.
i always do it some way or another.
it just hurts me so bad when i do it to ppl who i love and care for so much.
but i cant do anything to make it better.
cause thats the way it is.
i wish life was much more simple.
than i dun have to worry abt all these.

so many things in my head.
its hurting so badly.
i wish it will go away.
i wish it will stop.
my ear is hurting.
i only hear myself and the buzzing sound in my ear.
i wish it will go away.
i wish.

might consult a polyclinic doctor,

he might wanna send me to a specialist.

at least i dun have to pay much.

and its cheaper.

hope they give me a better ans.

sighs.

pray for me that nothing happens.

my twisted mind.