~beautifulangel~ People who are meant to be together, ALWAYS find their way in the end!!

today my day was actually tiring as we went from one place to another.
but i liked it since i was wid baby the whole while.
the last destination before home, was baby's hse.
there i was talking to mummy.
she was telling me how she converted and what she went through.
my feelings were very stired up.
my faith is strong but i am confused and scared.
i dun know what my future will be like.
i am scared to even think about it.
i hate to have topics like that.
i hate to think.
these topics causes me to think which in the ends,
leads to my chest pain and depression.

~sigh~

i am being put through many tests about my faith.
i know i have moved away from church,
BUT never away from God.
i always turned to him.
to me all God's are one.
but i was brought up in a catholic environment.
Jesus was my hope.
i always turned to him.
He never failed to show me the right way.
He never failed to protect and guard me from danger.
He never turned his back against me.
BUT now,
He is testing me with my faith.
i dun know what to do.
i just continue to pray.

~sigh~

now i am going to think and cause myself to be depressed.
at this current moment i am so damn tired.
i think its the time of the month.
my whole back is killing me.
my bum is also so pain as i sat on baby's bike for so long.
ouch!!
i wish i was born as a guy.
BUT there is something i love about being a lady.
which is....
Woman are the only ones who can produce new life.
with the help of the male, of course.
but this is like a miracle.
i just love the birth cycle.

anw i was reading xp's blog and i agree totaly with her.
young kids these days are getting out of hand.
i would like to add, not only abt the relationship part but also the bad habits.
so young and they start it all.
thinking its so cool n all.
i thought there is a law for all these?
are they not doing anything about it?
my neighbourhood contains of YOUNGSTERS or even KIDS,
who smoke and sniff glue.
BUT nothing is happening.
arghh..
its sad to think of all these.
anw its their future their are ruining.

i shall pray for all of them.
and of course all my loved ones and friends.
for now a special prayer for geneive who is not feeling well.
oh ya and for jacq too.
i heard you got injured during dance or something.
get well soon my both sweets.
muacks!!

whats ya faith??