~beautifulangel~ People who are meant to be together, ALWAYS find their way in the end!!

i was in the bus and something i saw made me think.
all the past came back to my mind.
it was painful just to think about it.
i wish i was smarter than that.
i wish i could turn back time,
but i know that will never happen.
i just wanted to erase that one incident.
which is still haunting me till now.
i doubt it will ever go away.
cause of my stupidity,
i hurt the one i love the most.
most of all i disappointed myself.
i know that i will never be like that,
but i dun know what made me do it.
i am so infuriated.
i am hating myself for my stupid actions.
it will always be a past that haunts me forever.
if only i was in my own mind,
i would have not done what i did.
i would have been smart and avoided that situation.
damn all of it.
i complained about ppl being like that,
but now i am like one of them.
i did almost what they did.
i am no one to talk abt others.

but i am thankful for the one i love believes me.
he understood and placed the past behind him.
i know he is still scared,
but he trusts me.
he loves me like no one has ever loved me.
i am thankful.
thanks alot.
you give me strength.
without your support i think i would have been dead by now.
i would have just killed myself cause of my stupidity.
but u are my life saver.
thanks.

my haunting past.