your words, they hurt so much!! it cuts so deep and leaves a permanant wound!!

I was just excited and all happy about it. But i guess you do not see it in that way. if you are able to use this once, what makes me so sure that you will never use it again? i have never lied or what so ever on you, and you say such things? all i wanted was to tell you the truth. I never wanna lie or hide things from you. but the words that you use really can kill a person!!

i am thinking of loads of things now. i dont know if this will work. i am just really very upset and i just cant think straight! i guess u see things in a whole diff way. i really have nothing to say already. its your decision!!

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Wednesday, August 05, 2009

Feeling so exhausted these days..

I am feeling exhausted these days. I guess its all the work and the hectic life I am living now. I just have so much work and responsibility. Sometimes I just feel so tired but I know that I still have to go on.

I am just feeling very restless and tired and wish all of this can go away!! I am in need of a serious break NOW!!!

lilBeautifulangel8:33 PM

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Tuesday, August 04, 2009

Stressed!!

Sometimes the most important thing in a whole day is the rest we take between two deep breaths, or the turning inwards in prayer for five short minutes.

~~Etty Hillesum~~

I've been really stressed out lately. Have been over loaded with work and personal stuff. Heahache has come back again and at times i really do not know what to do. Sometimes I just need a break alone, but during that time, I am still thinking about all the work that I have to do.

I just need a really good break, in order for me to continue with what I have to do. Maybe I demand so much from my own self as well. Its really tiring and my body really needs energy boost.

I just want everything to go smoothly. At times I really do not know what is expected from me. I feel like I have to give so much but nothing is coming back to me. I know you should not expect things in return, but I cant help it when it comes to certain people. Why cant it be a mutual understanding? Why cant people give and take?

I give so much and try so hard, but nothing is ever noticed!! Nothing is appreciated, actually it is for a little only. But no words of thank you, or its nice!!

Sigh!! Ok I think I've let out enough!! When I feel more of it I will rant again!!

lilBeautifulangel11:05 AM

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