~beautifulangel~ People who are meant to be together, ALWAYS find their way in the end!!

If it fair? Is anything fair in this world?? I do not know if I am doing it out of love or just for the sake of avoiding things from happening. But I guess there is always a limit to everything. Am I always at fault? Am I just a person you can show your anger and tantrums on? I feel exhausted!! Seriously. Try being on my end and you will know how I feel.

Sometimes anger and frustrations is constantly shown on me, that I bring myself so down and do not know where I stand anymore. Somehow or another I try very hard to be up again, but time and time again I fall down?? Are you there to pick me up, or are you the reason to make me fall once again?

I do not know! I seriously think that I am to blame for loads of things. I do not know if you are truely happy or just putting on a front to make everyone else happy. This is suppose to be the best day, but it turned out to something else! I am quite upset. But I cant show it cause it will be very wrong and I will be blamed for it too. So I just sit here and write it out!! And even shed tears along.

I can never really express how I really feel and it sucks so much. I am a person who constantly needs to share my emotions, but I am a totally different person who keeps everything inside. I am seriously lost in my own world, where I think of so many things that I do not normally think about.

Please do not let me fall too deep! Please do not push me off the cliff! If I really do fall so hard, I would not know what to do and I may be turned the other way round. I am really upset now and loads of things bothering me. I do not share with you how I feel cause I think that does not matter to you. So I keep mum and cry silently. Please help me before I am gone forever.

I really do love you and I do not know how to make sure you have enough. I seriously do not know what is enough at all. I am really lost. Lost in my own world!!!

Why do I feel like that??