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Sunday, April 20, 2008 Living In Both Worlds??"I come in here and I sit in silence and hear the echoes of who we used to be. And so I wish for patience, and grace, and strength to just let him be happy. Mostly I pray for the strength to not make his life worse because of what I want. That's the toughest part, letting go, you know? That's the part of grace that really sucks." There are so many times I feel in this way. Its not about the giving up or letting go, but its about how much I can endure in this journey. There are so many things that I have to give up but I sit and wonder if its all worth it. I know it is but somehow you make me feel like I am doing a wrong thing altogether. I really need the strength to keep going on and do the things that please you. I really need the patience to make this relationship work. I miss those times where everything was just new, everything was about fun and going through life as it is. But now, I do not even know what is fun. "Make a wish and place it in your heart. Anything you want, everything you want. Do you have it? Good. Now believe it can come true. You never know where the next miracle is gonna come from, the next smile, the next wish come true. But if you believe that it's right around the corner, and you open your heart and mind to possibility of it, to the certainty of it. You just might get the thing you're wishing for. The world is full of magic. You just have to believe in it. So make your wish. Do you have it? Good. Now believe in it, with all your heart..." "You got a dream go get it. Do not let anyone get to you on that. If you know you can achieve it, go get it. Period." |
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