~beautifulangel~ People who are meant to be together, ALWAYS find their way in the end!!

I was just looking at all my past pictures and videos and I could not help but smile broadly, and at times without even knowing I am doing it. I had totally forgotten about certain videos and memories but all of it brought it back for me. I am really glad as I needed to take my mind of certain things that I have been bothered about lately. I just miss my poly friends and the times we had. I saw the video of last year's chalet during CNY with th tossing of the food and all. Its just great memories.

There are certain things that I am quite fearful and cautious about my behaviour and actions. I am quite upset and bothered about certain things and I feel that things will never be the same s before. I have started to see things in a whole new pespective and it restrains me from really being myself to people. Maybe its also good, cause I know I talk too much and at times it gets me in quite a bit of trouble.

Now I have learnt not to be bothered about other people's business and just to mind my own. I feel that all of these things are part of the reason I am quite disturbed and affected. I think that now my life will be a tad bit better.

I realised that when I work with kids, they can just change you mood totally. From bad to worse, or even bad to good!! The other day when I was walking in to work, saw this boy from the Cerebral Palsy School in the school bus looking at me and smiling. And I smiled back too. Then he waved at me and it really lifted my heart. I felt as if my whole world changed. I do not know how but I feel that kids can sense when you are angry or upset and they just can change it. I have certain kids who make my day a whole lot better too. And I always look forward to those sessions with the kids. I am glad that I have this job where it makes me a whole lot better!

Anyway, speaking of my job I have some great news to share. The boss that I have been complaining about just tendered her resignation and will be leaving by the end of this month. I guess GOD really heard all our prayers. Now my senior teacher will be the acting HOD for 6 months before my ED decides if she fit the job. Anyway, this paricular teacher is going to give birth anyday soon, and I am so excited. Ok enough said about my job.

I have recently started to read agian and I feel that it is a good way to divert my attention and also keep me from talking too much. And I am glad that I did it back again. I am not back to my own house. And I miss my family so darn much. I think of them always when I stay over at baby's house. For the next couple of days I will be staying over here and head back to baby's for the weekend. I am glad I am home. I miss and love my family so much, no matter what mistakes we have made or what problems we face!!!

When the past makes you smile =)