~beautifulangel~ People who are meant to be together, ALWAYS find their way in the end!!

There are so many things that I have to do these days. I am so tired and the head is so strained. The pain is constantly there and there are no words to describe it at all. I cannot even try to explain it to my BF. I am just trying to divert my mind by doing so many other things.

I do not know if I have mentioned it before in my previous post, but I will say it now. I have started to read back again and t has been quite good actually. Refrains me from talking so much and getting myself in much trouble. And I love taking up that hobby back again. At least I have something else I look forward to.

Work has been quite alright and I have grown an atachment to my kids and its hard to even think of leaving. But I do not even know if I should go for better offers or just stay here and be happy about it. I mean I get a whole lot of satisfacition here, but thinking of a future of the pay is another thing altogether. Moreover, this is a VWO organizatin so I cannot expect much.

I have no idea what to do. As the days draw closer, I am so terrified that I cannot explain it all. I guess no one sees the pain that I am going through and how scared to death I am. I gues I am not really showing it or talking about it, as I do not want to scare anyone or make them worried about me.

Just please keep me in your prayers please.

I am so tired and strained.