I doubt that i have updated about my scan and the results. Anyway, things are not really good. The CT scan that i went showed like a dot far away from what supposed to be normal. And the dot is not normal at all. But since a CT scan is jst a brief scan, the doc wants me to for a MIR scan. So the scan will be next year in feb. Until then i just have to suffer with the pain. But not its not much of a pain cause i am on medication. And when i do not take my medication, it hurts like mad!!! So now i am a drug addict! *LOL*

The past two weeks, the children had holidays but i still had to go work. I am not really complaining as i got to surf the net and do some blogging. From next week onwards, my kids are back so i will not be using the com that much, but at least i have something more fruitful to do. I am actually bored staring at my com u know.

Christmas is just 10 days away and i feel i am not ready for it at all. *sigh* But its still coming!! I just got my pay and i need to go get presents for the family. Didnt get them anything last year, so this year something small. On the other hand, i am looking forward to this Christmas as i will be celebrating Mr. Sean Wales for the first time. And New Years too!! Yippie!!

Ok i need to go watch movie now with the bf. If you guys didnt know i am at PS macs using the internet and blog. *LOL* ok see ya. Will be meeting his friend and gf too. A double date i guess!!

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Wednesday, December 12, 2007

I Don't Wanna Be

I don't need to be anything other than a prison guard's son

I don't need to be anything other than a specialist's son

I don't have to be anyone other than a birth of two souls in one

Part of where I'm going is knowing where I'm coming from

I don't want to be anything other than what I've been trying to be lately

All I have to do is think of me and I have peace of mind

I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wondering what I gotta do

Or who I'm supposed to beI don't want to be anything other than me

I'm surrounded by liars everywhere I turn

I'm surrounded by imposters everywhere I turn

I'm surrounded by a deadly crisis everywhere I turn

Am I the only one to notice?I can't be the only one who's learned

I don't want to be anything other than what I've been trying to be lately

All I have to do is think about me and I have peace of mind

I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wondering what I gotta doOr who I'm supposed to be

I don't want to be anything other than me

Can I have everyone's attention pleaseSee, not like this and that

You're gonna have to leave

I came from the mountain, the crust of creation

My whole situation made from clay, dust, stone

And now I'm telling everybody

I don't want to be anything other than what I've been trying to be lately

All I have to do is think of me and I have peace of mind

I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wondering what I'm trying to doOr who I'm supposed to be

I don't want to be anything other than me

I don't want to beI don't want to be

I don't want to be

I don't want to be

lilBeautifulangel10:59 AM

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Quotes

Happiness grows at our own firesides, and is not to be picked in strangers' gardens.

Douglas Jerrould

'Do not look back and grieve over the past, for it is gone; and do not be troubled about the future, for it has not yet come. Live in the present, and make it so beautiful that it will be worth remembering.'

Have you ever wondered what if you could change something in the past, or what will happen in the future? But have you wondered what is going to happen now in the present? There are so many things that clog up our thoughts, and affecting us from the happiness and joy. Its hard to forget everything and think of the future. Live in the present and live as happy as you can.

'Missing someone gets easier every day because even though it's one day further from the last time you saw each other, it's one day closer to the next time you will.'

Have you missed someone so much that you feel its so empty without the other person? I feel quite lost without the person initially. As time goes by, i learnt to accept it and live with it. I am still missing the person as much as before but i can bare with it. I am learning to be independent and living life as such.

'Have you ever wondered what marks our time here? If one life can really make an impact on the world? Or if the choices we make matter? I believe they do. And I believe that one man can change many lives... for better or worse!'

lilBeautifulangel9:10 AM

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Tuesday, December 11, 2007

Updated Pictures

Baby's Trip To Thailand
Wild Wild Wet
Aunty Maude

Labels: Pictures

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Monday, December 10, 2007

Quotes

Missing someone gets easier every day because even though it's one day further from the last time you saw each other, it's one day closer to the next time you will.
--Hilarie Burton as Peyton Sawyer

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Friday, December 07, 2007

God's getting better at it!!

A little girl was sitting on her grandfather's lap as he read her a bedtime story. From time to time, she would take her eyes off the book and reach up to touch his wrinkled cheek. She was alternately stroking her own cheek, then his again. Finally she spoke up, "Grandpa, did God make you?" "Yes, sweetheart," he answered, "God made me a long time ago." "Oh," she paused, "Grandpa, did God make me too?" "Yes, indeed, honey," he said, "God made you just a little while ago." Feeling their respective faces again, she observed,

"God's getting better at it, isn't he?"

lilBeautifulangel1:04 PM

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The things that clutter my thoughts these days...

Thankfully i go home and i can be sane cause i have wonderful people around me who keeps me sane. When i am at work, its a complete chaotic situation. Handling kids, dealing with their anger and frustrations. Its a whole great deal to deal with. Then the most annoying part comes, where i have to face two most irritating people and i cant stand them for nuts. But i dont have a choice do i??

The holiday that i said i wanted to go with my boyfriend is called off. We do not really have the time as we need to doso many other things around the house and shopping. We are also sort of cash if we go on this trip, so presents will be cut down cause of that. In the end, we plan not to go at all. I was actually looking forward to it but i know it was part of my fault also, so i am not complaining. But i would love a vacation cause i desperately need one.

I havent really helped my mummy clean the house for christmas this year. But i so wanna be there when she puts up the christmas tree, cause my darling boyfriend already put it up without me. So i will go home and help my mummy with it.Every year i will at least help with it, then i will feel a part of it. Otherwise, its just a tree to me. And this year, i think i need this destressing cause i have been through a lot of stressful situation and i feel very uneasy.

My head is another problem for me. I have to wait till Monday for the results of my scan. I think there might be something wrong with me. I am having massive headaches and it really hurts so badly. I cant even explain the pain to my boyfriend. Yesterday, after i got back from work i experienced another attack. I really do not know whats the matter. Please pray for me.

Tomorrow i will be heading to Wild Wild Wet as i have free tickets. It will be a good 'get-away' for my boyfriend and myself. Hopefully the weather is good and not raining. It has been raining for the past few days. The day before yesterday, it was flooding at the void deck of my parents house. It was so cold and pouring cats and dogs. Anyway, its the rainy season. We get rain instead of snow!!

I am not really having the spirit of Christmas at all. Maybe i am just to caught up with all the other stuff that i am not feeling the mood. I only feel a little of it when i go to shopping centers and hear the christmas songs. Otherwise, i feel like its all dead!!

I miss Sharon and Misha so freaking much!! I feel like giving them a huge and long hug!! I havent gotten it since Sharon's b'day party. I miss u girls so much. I miss all the things that we did. I miss having so much fun with you both. I miss the laughters and the fun. Most of all, i miss you!! Let's meet real soon please!!!!!

lilBeautifulangel9:43 AM

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Wednesday, December 05, 2007

Things are just so annoying these days.

You know once ou get into the working life, you face many obstacles and you somehow have to just endure all of it. But the question is for how long? Everyone will reach a point where you will not be able to endure all of it anymore. Even if you are the most calm and patient person, you will one day reach that limit.

I am somehow having that feeling now. I have not felt so much of rage and anger at my workplace before. I am really trying my best to keep my calm. Whenever i think of all the problems that i am facing, i think i am having high blood pressure. Things just keep happening one after another. What is the point of pointing fingers when it is your fault? Anyway you are the superior and you should be a good role model, but instead you are just the opposite.

I have learnt nothing from you and i have no idea how i am surviving in this job. I will sure say its cause of my fellow peers and the kids that i take. That's the only reason i look forward to come to work. You can talk so much and write so much, but it all just means nothing. Its just empty promises that you offer and talk to convince people that you are doing a good job. You are very good with you words and somehow get out of trouble.

Not for long i will say. I believe that people get what they do to others. Its not fair at all that other people are doing 90% of your job and you still get your monthly salary and credits for what 'YOU' have done!!

I think i better stop here before i get so angry and having high blood pressure!!

lilBeautifulangel4:03 PM

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