~beautifulangel~ People who are meant to be together, ALWAYS find their way in the end!!

If you spend your whole life waiting for the storm, you'll never enjoy the sunshine.
Morris West

even though bad things happen in ya life,
you cannot just wait for it to happen and be sad all the way.
you still need to be happy and enjoy everyday as it comes.
and when the bad times come,
you just face it with strength and carry on with life.
you cannot just sit around and wait for the bad times to come around.

i had a lot of things to think about today.
after long thoughts about it,
i decided that i will not go for my cambodia trip.
for some reasons.
one of it is that shortage of cash and another is that i know my dad will make noise when i come back.
saying that i wasted his money and all.
and the last reason is that my mum is still very sick and i know if i go my heart will not be at peace.
and i would not really fulfill the purpose of my trip.
i am very sad that i have to make this decision,
but after much though this is the best decision.
and i decided to join back cherie hearts for the time being for extra cash.
i feel like a beggar.
hate this feeling.
cant keep letting him pay and also i got no cash for my own stuff too.
so better to work and earn my own money than to live off my parents.

so this will i will be working full day in cherie hearts while next week i think it will be half day.
at least i still get cash while i get to do my own stuff.
i am just pushing myself cause i know i need the cash to settle my stuff and buy stuff.
so just hanging in there.
i am just thinking a lot about my life.
how is it going to be and all.
but i am glad that i am happy now.
doing what i wanna do and being cheerful which i love to be and its my nature.
cant wait for the arrival of my nephew.
thinking of how is he going to look like and all.

babe told me certain stuff and all.
i am amused but kinda figured that out already.
sigh.
but its alright,
im not loving the person any lesser.
i cant wait for the weekend again.
weekends are always exciting.
if we are going to meet kiran again i just will not stop laughing cause he just cracks me up.

i better head to bed now to prepare for work tomorrow.
good night.
will update tomorrow.

Thinking Of What I Should Do With My Life!!