- Thursday, March 29, 2007 `x

Prayer is not asking for what you think you want, but asking to be changed in ways you can't imagine.
Kathleen Norris

i do pray.
i pray for things to be better.
i pray that my family and loved ones will be safe and lead a better life.
i pray that i can change my ways and be a better person.
i pray for the strength to carry on each day fruitfully and dutifully.
i do not pray for what i really want or what i think i should get.
cause i know if i get something its for a reason and i will be happy with it.

work today was alright.
not really tired these days working there.
i am getting used to it.
the china teacher always tells me that she is very happy to see me and all.
but i know whats the real reason.
stupid ass.

anyway after work i headed to little india to do my eyebrows.
it took quite fast and i headed home after that.
was tired at the end of the day.
i watched tv and all and headed to bed some what early i would say.
so that was quite a short day short day for me.

good night everyone.



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- Wednesday, March 28, 2007 `x



One cannot help being old, but one can resist being aged.
Lord Samuel

another day at work and i am just sick of the chinese teacher.
she just pisses me off.
i mean she is just such a hypocrite.
so annoying.
but i just carry on with my own work and do not give a damn about her.
nothing much happened today.
watched my csi in the night.
its getting more exciting every week.
and i am waiting for my heroes to resume.
sigh.
today's entry is a very short one.
nothing much to blog about.
so good night and i will be back soon.

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- Tuesday, March 27, 2007 `x



The only difference between stumbling blocks and steppingstones is the way in which we use them.
Unknown (submitted by Bambi 870)

work today was good.
cause my wonderful lil akaash who disrupts my class was not in my class.
he was taken cared of by another teacher.
haha.
i sound so evil.
but it really helps actually.
i took the whole class by myself,
except bath time.
i really learnt a few more things today.
my lil love came today which my day better.
he was with me the whole day.
gave me kisses before he sleep and after he woke up and all.
and i just love him so much.

i am not really tired although i took the whole class and all.
anw there was this incident when i brought the children to the toilet.
one of the boys was peeing when another was playing with that particular boys pee.
arghh when i saw that i just screamed my head off.
oh my.
it was so disgusting.
luckily i saw if not what will happen if he just puts his hands in his mouth??
mad people.
i was glad to have gone home.
hope tomorrow will be good too.

i am sad for what has been happening at home.
my brother cannot accept the truth.
arghh so annoying when this happens over and over again.
i am so sick of it all.
sigh.

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- Monday, March 26, 2007 `x



If you spend your whole life waiting for the storm, you'll never enjoy the sunshine.
Morris West

even though bad things happen in ya life,
you cannot just wait for it to happen and be sad all the way.
you still need to be happy and enjoy everyday as it comes.
and when the bad times come,
you just face it with strength and carry on with life.
you cannot just sit around and wait for the bad times to come around.

i had a lot of things to think about today.
after long thoughts about it,
i decided that i will not go for my cambodia trip.
for some reasons.
one of it is that shortage of cash and another is that i know my dad will make noise when i come back.
saying that i wasted his money and all.
and the last reason is that my mum is still very sick and i know if i go my heart will not be at peace.
and i would not really fulfill the purpose of my trip.
i am very sad that i have to make this decision,
but after much though this is the best decision.
and i decided to join back cherie hearts for the time being for extra cash.
i feel like a beggar.
hate this feeling.
cant keep letting him pay and also i got no cash for my own stuff too.
so better to work and earn my own money than to live off my parents.

so this will i will be working full day in cherie hearts while next week i think it will be half day.
at least i still get cash while i get to do my own stuff.
i am just pushing myself cause i know i need the cash to settle my stuff and buy stuff.
so just hanging in there.
i am just thinking a lot about my life.
how is it going to be and all.
but i am glad that i am happy now.
doing what i wanna do and being cheerful which i love to be and its my nature.
cant wait for the arrival of my nephew.
thinking of how is he going to look like and all.

babe told me certain stuff and all.
i am amused but kinda figured that out already.
sigh.
but its alright,
im not loving the person any lesser.
i cant wait for the weekend again.
weekends are always exciting.
if we are going to meet kiran again i just will not stop laughing cause he just cracks me up.

i better head to bed now to prepare for work tomorrow.
good night.
will update tomorrow.

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Always be nice to people on the way up; because you'll meet the same people on the way down.
Wilson Mizner

whatever you do to people it will come back to you.
if you are nice to people on ya way up the ladder,
when you are retired and just sitting around nice people will be around you to help.
and vice versa.
so just try to be nice.
or just think what you want when you are just sitting around.

i slept like a log cause i was super tired after the super long night i had before.
after that i got ready and went over to babe's house.
i had a short nap over at his place while he watch rocky.
woke up and got ready for kiran's engagement.
old man looked good.
oooo.
like some sch boy.
but nice.

we went to the temple first for the short ceremony and then over to liquid kitchen.
it was nice over there.
played pool and all.
had a good time over there,
cause we kept fooling people about us.
especially kiran.
he was super confused.
kiran's dad was very nice and he kept saying i have very beautiful eyes and all.
haha.
cute.
we were disturbing kiran's cousin and friends too.
they are a very nice bunch of people.
and i am glad that they are very happy for us.
kiran was very happy and he just glad that he cleared his doubt at last.

after that we headed to MOS.
it was alright but i was super tired.
very very tired.
mike went missing.
mad fellow.
so baby and i headed back home.
i stayed over at his place cause it was so late already and y stuff was at his place.
took a shower and just knocked out on the bed.

Learn as if you were going to live forever. Live as if you were going to die tomorrow.
Mahatma Gandhi

i am definitely very happy now.
i am living one day at a time and enjoying everything that is coming my way.
i am glad.
very glad indeed.
and i am learning a lot about the people around me and also about life.

slept practically the whole day over at his place.
both super tired.
we woke up and ate his dad's chicken rice.
ooo that was so yummy.
i ate 2 rounds of rice.
then we did what we do best.
SLEEP!!!
after waking up we ate again.
real pigs we are.
then got ready to go to the new house again.

headed there wid dad and babe.
and met sister,mike and mum there.
they took measurements and decided what they wanna do for the house and all.
i can really imagine how the house is going to look like and its going to be good.
very nice i can see.
waiting for it to be complete.
after that went to have dinner.
headed back to babe's house and then he sent me back home.
mum asked when i was going to come back to their house.
haha.
so cute.

babe thanks for a very wonderful weekend.
everything looks like a dream but i am glad i am with you.
its all very fun and good.
disturbing people and all.
so nice.
i enjoy every moment.
thanks babe.
looking forward for more to come.
thanks once again.
=)

anw i have uploaded the pics to my yahoo pictures so check them out.
i will post some of the pics up so u can have a glimse.
but go to my yahoo pictures in my links and check out kiran's engagement.


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- Saturday, March 24, 2007 `x



Fight for your opinions, but do not believe that they contain the whole truth, or the only truth.
Charles A. Dana

yes i do have a say in things.
not all though but still i do have.
every human being is entitled to their own opinions and views.
it can be right or wrong but its just an opinion or a view.
anyway if you are listening to someone else's view or opinion,
it does not mean that you have to take it.
it does not mean its right too.
cause everyone sees things differently.

i just slacked at home the whole day.
i watched my csi which i missed yesterday.
but i did not watch it properly too though.
i was rushing to bring my mum to the doctor.
my mum is still not feeling well.
i am so worried for her.
sigh.
wanted to bring her to the hospital but she was reluctant to go.
so settled for the private clinic instead.

later in the night i headed to husky's house.
stayed over there cause tomorrow i will be following to go check out the new house.
but when i reached there,
we headed to serangoon gardens.
we went over to liquid kitchen where we ate and played pool and cards.
with wong, mike, sister, husky n myself.
i had a wonderful time over at his place.
very tiring though cause i did not sleep well.
but it was all good.
happy happy.

Some people think it's holding on that makes one strong; sometimes it's letting go.
Sylvia Robinson

both ways it makes a person strong.
it depends on the situation for myself.
yes i do think of the past and remember everything that has happened.
but i can never compare it to my present cause it different and very unfair for all parties.
and at times i have to hold on to what i have cause it makes me a stronger person.
so in both ways i am stronger.

woke up in the morning at about 9 plus and got ready to go to the new house.
my old man made bombay toast for me.
yummy.
it was delicious.
then we made our way over to the house.
it is nice but to me its small.
but i know it will look really good once its done up.
after that we headed to town.
i had to go check my piercing.
but the guy was not there so we decided to go eat instead.
saw his sis-in-law.
no comments about that.
after that we did window shopping and i saw many things that i wanna buy.
but sadly i have no $$$.

after that we sat at lido's MCcafe.
drank the hot chocolate there and its nice.
yummy.
then i saw my wonderful friend shalini.
so happy that i saw her,
cause i havent seen her in a very long time.
after that we went to have some quiet time before we met mike and sister.
we went to meet wong at peace center and then headed to have dinner.
i am such a pig la.

after that we went to sim lim and then to mustafa.
aiyo headache la.
anw at mustafa old man bought a camera.
yay!!
then we went over to wong's place and played mahjong( i think u spell it like such)
i lost babe's money.
sigh felt so bad.
i didnt know they were playing money till like tt.
oh man if i knew i would not even play.
but i had a wonderful time on the whole.
so its good.

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- Thursday, March 22, 2007 `x



A true friend never gets in your way unless you happen to be going down.
Arnold Glasgow

i know that my true friends are happy for me now.
although they are still wondering what actually happened but they will know one day.
but i know that when they feel that something is wrong and not going right,
they will definitely tell me.
so now i am happy and doing well.
and i know my friends will not get in my way (in a bad way of course)

i stayed at home and took care of my mum.
she is having very high fever and very bad health.
sponged her with cold water and did my own stuff without asking her.
then i even helped to clean the house and all.
was super dirty and i could not stand it anymore.
the old man came over to my place.
after that we headed for dinner at the cheese prata shop,
but sadly the shop closed down.
so we just settled for what they offered now.
sigh.

i am happy that this is my first time driving all on my own.
and i am very very happy.
now i have the confidence to drive alone but its just that i do not know my way around.
its really irritating though.
i mean cause of the constant constructions and all.
the place never seem to look the same.
so it annoys me when i drive when i cannot see or recognize the place.

i feel that you are doing stuff just to make me jealous or what so ever.
i seriously do not know.
i still do care for you.
i want you to achieve what ever you wanted to.
i want you to go far in life.
and i know you will cause i have that confidence in you.
but you do not seem to want that.
i know you are just adding girls to ya friendster and all just for show or maybe otherwise.
but think whatever you want first before you do it ok.
i am not saying you cannot go into a relationship,
but think thats all i am saying.
i still do care for you and you know i am here if u wanna talk.
please do take care.

malini just shared with me this quote and i feel that it really is a message that i wanna send to someone.
or u can just go check out tis website and read other quotes. LOVE QUOTES
"You may thnk you love someone when you feel that you need them to bring happiness to you for the rest of your life. But you never truly love someone unless you feel you'll do whatever you have to to give them eternal happiness - even if it means letting. them go."
Submitted by Christin Zalewski

anyway to that one person,
if you really did care for me and loved me so much,
you would really want me to be happy.
i know its hard and all but this is life.
and you need to let go.
i never hated you and i still do not.
i care for you and always will.
please do take care.
god bless you always my dear.
i know it hurts deep down.
i hope you understand and move on.


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- Tuesday, March 20, 2007 `x



Don't ask yourself what the world needs; ask yourself what makes you come alive. And then go and do that. Because what the world needs is people who have come alive.
Howard Thurman

like i said i cant keep doing things people want to make others happy.
i have to think what makes me happy and lift my spirits up.
now i am happy that i am doing what i want.
being very happy and carefree.
so hopefully you will too.

had a very good sleep today.
woke up a little later in the day.
updated my blog and then watched tv.
after that chatted with the feidak for a very long time.
then got ready and went to meet mike,sister and the old man.
we went to watch stomp the yard.
nice movie.
i like the moves and all.
and the guy has super body.
yummy.
sister and mike headed home while old man and i went for dinner.
we walked and walked and then settled for kenny rogers.
we finished the food and was full.
we just kept disturbing the people around us and having a very good time.
my husky loves disturbing the people around and making me laugh like mad.
thanks for the dinner babe.

after that we just sat near the fountain of fortune and watched the water,
but soon it started to drizzle so we headed somewhere else.
i spoke to johnny a while.
long time since i chatted with him.
nice chat.

there may be a lot of things i never said to you,
but i know and i have the confidence that this will all work out.
that things will turn out right.
i know somehow or another it will.
it is very different with you.
being happy, making fun and going out.
its all good.
and i am glad.
i know both of us are really happy and we will somehow find ways to deal with everything that comes our way.
i am just glad you are here.
i am glad it is you.
thanks my old husky.
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- Monday, March 19, 2007 `x



A candle loses nothing by lighting another candle.
Erin Majors

you never loose anything by making someone happy,
but u loose a lot when u make someone sad.
yes i have made people sad but somehow or another i will get it back.
i do make people happy too.
i make people happy more than i make myself happy.
but in the end seeing people happy makes me happy and satisfied.

i slacked at home.
catching up on my sleep which i missed during the weekend.
after that i woke up and headed to the gym with my brother.
i had a proper work out today.
more efficient than last week.
headed home and ate my fish soup.
was so hungry.
yummy.
after that i just watched tv and slacked more.

today is a day where i think and think and think.
i am very happy.
getting to know you even more and i am glad.
you just make me smile and laugh and i am happy.
thanks.

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"Just living isn't enough," said the butterfly, "one must also have freedom, sunshine, and a little flower."
Hans Christian Anderson (submitted by vvivv)

i was just living for the sake of living.
i was just going through each day as it comes for the sake of it.
yes i was happy but it was not blissful.
there was a huge portion missing in my life,
and it was hard for me to explain what it was.
i could not tell u directly as i know it will hurt u so much.
i just wanted to lead my life that was it.
i know you are hurting now but i cannot keep giving in to you just cause you were happy.
i am feeling sad here and there thinking of what i have done.
BUT i am very happy now.
and i really pray that you move on.
its sad to see u in such a state.
i do care if you did not know.
just please take care.

i woke up and found out that my mum was not feeling well.
i took a shower and then sponged her.
she had fever and her body was quite hot.
after that i headed to my love's house.
its meet the parents session.
we were supposed to go catch the movie stomp the yard,
but we knwo that we will be stuck in the house so decided to go another day.
it was all good.
i enjoyed my time over there.
i was quite and all at first but after that i was comfy there.
his mum and mama was asking when we were going to get married.
haha.
but i know they will definitely miss him so much.

after all that we headed to yishun.
spent time with him then i headed home.
i was super tired.
was trying my very best not to fall asleep in the cab.
sigh.
i am very happy for today.
i am looking forward to many more visits to his house and family.
ok now i shall just crash on my bed.
good night.

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- Sunday, March 18, 2007 `x



I try to avoid looking forward or backward, and try to keep looking upward.
Charlotte Bronte

i feel like i am being disturbed by something.
i just feel lonely and sad in the inside.
i do not know whats happening,
but since i took out my chain this is all happening.
and i am praying and all.
i have no idea why people are so free to do bad stuff to others.
and since i met u i have had a lot of people doing bad stuff to me or trying to break us up and all.
i was so sick of it all too.
i feel so lonely inside all of a sudden.
you would not know what i am going through,
you will never know though i tell u many times before.

Happy Birthday My Dear Brother!
You Are A Year Older & I Pray That Everything Goes Well For U.
All The Best In Everything You Do.
God Bless You Always.

i woke up feeling all so lost and lonely.
i just wanted to go novena as soon as i could.
so i woke up and got ready to go for 4pm novena.
after that went to eat wid mr husky opp novena.
i felt much better after attending novena.
god never fails to lift my spirits up.
then we headed to take a bus down to maxwell street for aldon's b'day celebration.

it was a nice and comfy place.
the food was good.
i had a nice time with my parents and the old man.
then we headed to O'bar to meet my brother and his friends.
it was good over there.
laughing and playing game and all.
i enjoyed my time.
except that i was totally super tired.
after that i spent some time with the big old man.

i am glad that i can talk to him and make decisions with out any conflicts.
so far its good.
everything seems fine and all.
i know that there are bound to have bad days but i have this confidence that it will be alright and things will be ok.
cause its very different with him.
it is also due to the age.
i do look up to him and stuff like that.
personally i do not fight to get my way or what so ever.
so far its smooth and i am praying for it to be good.
thanks so much.


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- Saturday, March 17, 2007 `x



TO THE MARRIED FOLKS, and a preview to the not-married ones!
Have a laugh
Guys.
When a man steals your wife, there is no better revenge than to let
him keep her.
Sacha Guitry

After marriage, husband and wife become two sides of a coin; they
just can't face each other, but still they stay together.
Hemant Joshi

By all means marry. If you get a good wife, you'll be happy. If you
get a bad one, you'll become a philosopher. Socrates

Woman inspires us to great things, and prevents us from achieving
them.
Dumas
The great question... which I have not been able to answer... is,
"What does a woman want?
Sigmund Freud

I had some words with my wife, and she had some paragraphs with me.
Anonymous

"Some people ask the secret of our long marriage. We take time to go
to a restaurant two times a week. A little candlelight, dinner, soft
music and dancing. She goes Tuesdays, I go Fridays."
Henny Youngman

"I don't worry about terrorism. I was married for two years."
Sam Kinison

"There's a way of transferring funds that is even faster than
electronic banking. It's called marriage."
James Holt McGavran

"I've had bad luck with both my wives. The first one left me, and the
second one didn't."
Patrick Murray

Two secrets to keep your marriage brimming
1. Whenever you're wrong, admit it,
2. Whenever you're right, shut up.
Nash

The most effective way to remember your wife's birthday is to forget
it once...
Anonymous

You know what I did before I married? Anything I wanted to.
Henny Youngman

My wife and I were happy for twenty years. Then we met.
Rodney Dangerfield

A good wife always forgives her husband when she's wrong.
Milton Berle

Marriage is the only war where one sleeps with the enemy.
Anonymous

A man inserted an 'ad' in the classifieds: "Wife wanted". Next day he
received a hundred letters. They all said the same thing: "You can
have mine."
Anonymous

First Guy (proudly): "My wife's an angel!"
Second Guy: "You're lucky, mine's still alive."
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A very successful lawyer parked his brand new Lexus in front of the Office, ready to show it off to his colleagues. As he got out, a big truck came along, too close to the curb, and completely tore the driver's door of the Lexus.

The counselor immediately grabbed his cell phone, dialed 911, and it wasn't more than 3 minutes before a policeman pulled up. Before the cop had a chance to ask any questions, the lawyer started screaming hysterically. His Lexus, which he had just picked up the day before, was now completely ruined and would never be the same, no matter how the body shop tried to make it new again.

After the lawyer finally wound down from his rant, the cop shook
His head in disgust and disbelief. "I can't believe how materialistic you lawyers are," he said. "You are so focused on your possessions that you neglect the most important things in life."

"How can you say such a thing?" asked the lawyer. The cop replied, "My God, don't you even realize that your left arm is missing? It got ripped off when the truck hit you!!!"

"My God!" screamed the lawyer.....

"Where's my Rolex!?!
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Adversity is another way to measure the greatness of individuals. I never had a crisis that didn't make me stronger.
Lou Holtz

i am glad that no matter what i face,
i will learn something from it and that makes me a stronger person.
it also helps me to see things from a different perspective and make full use of it.
i am glad the people who hate me or always wanting to bring me down is the cause of the positive effect on me.
so thanks so much.

today is the day that i have been waiting for.
so excited for my attai.
its her wedding day and also i cant wait to wear my ever so nice outfit.
yummilicious.
i had to do mc but then thank god annah was the dj and he so called did it for me.
which was so so much better.
actually i can never compare la.
i had a super duper good time except that i was so tired and legs aching.
but it was all good.
the preparations and all.
went very well.
mr husky old man came and he looked good.
thanks for coming,
although i was so busy to even talk properly with you.
so sorry babe.
after that headed to asoka where i drove and all cause the rest of them wanna drink.
i was cool with it.
i was super hungry cause i did not eat at the place.
then i went down to macs and had food!!!
after asoka we went to some place to have supper but i did not eat.
i was just super tired thats all.

ok i am going to crash on my bed alr cause i am super tired and cant keep my eyes open alr.
love u all.
will post the pics up soon so u can wash ya eyes..

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- Wednesday, March 14, 2007 `x



When spider webs unite, they can tie up a lion.
Ethiopian proverb

i passed my exams.
so i am officially able to graduate.
yippie.
im so happy.

looking at the teacher handling the children in the centre made me so wanna be a teacher immediately.
i just sat and watched how the teacher teaches or helps the children in the different areas they need.
it was really nice.
then i also saw one of my batch student from ech.
it was so nice to see her there.
she has been working for abt 2 weeks alr.
i wish and pray i get the job.
please pray for me too.

after that i headed to tiong bahru and met my parents.
bought some stuff and had dinner.
was not really nice though.
still very hungry.
came back and watched csi.

i am missing u like crazy.
cant wait to wear the outfit and show u.
i cant wait to go out with you again.
yummy.
ok i am going to rest again cause tomorrow i have the second day of volunteer.
so good night sweet dreams.
muacks.

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- Tuesday, March 13, 2007 `x



Wisdom is the quality that keeps you from getting into situations where you need it.
Doug Larson

today was supposed to go to the cerebral palsy center for the volunteer thingy,
but i woke up having bad cramps so i did not go.
i just rested at home.
then later in the afternoon met my attai and uncle at tekka.
at last i can take my outfit.
yummy i am so in love with it.
after that met mummy and went home.

my old man came and meet me a while near my place.
had some time spending with him before he head back to camp.
thanks for the wonderful time.
i am super tired.
just wanna fall asleep.

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The deeper that sorrow carves into your being, the more joy you can contain.
Kahlil Gibran

yes i my life has been carved with sorrow,
not that i was never happy but yes more sorrow.
somehow or another it happens.
so now my joy is so much more.
everything is so genuine.
and i love it all.

i still am very happy from yesterday.
i know it will never fade away.
although we might have problems and all,
we will still be happy cause we spoke about all of it alr.
i am glad this is all happening.
you just make me so happy.
when we talk, we laugh and smile.
we think of stupid things to do when we are out.
and its all fun.
i am never going to run out of things to talk to you,
i am never going to get bored with you no matter what.
thanks for everything my old man.

woke up a little later today.
had more sleep.
when i woke up i decided to go to the gym with my brother.
wanted to go meet my cousin but she wanted to stay at home and rest.
i enjoyed gym.
working out my legs and arms.
i could see the muscles growing alr.
good good.
then can be all sexy.
haha.
came back and ate like a pig.
super duper hungry.
after a long warm shower i went to rest a while.
i always wake up looking forward to another day.
and i am happy the feeling is like such.

we have spoken about a lot of things and i know we will work at it.
i know it will all happen well.
i know of some who are very happy for the both of us.
and we are happy despite anyone who says or will say anything.
thank u my one n only old man.
feidak la you,
but i still like.
muacks.

i sit here alone in the dark,
wondering when will i be in ya arms again.
i am just missing u so much.
when will i feel your fingers running through my hair,
and stroking my face.
i sit here wondering what will we talk about next and how loud we will laugh.
wondering how naughty we will get.
how we come up with stupid stuff to do when we go out.
you just crack me up and i am loving it all.
its all so different now and i am out of words.
i told you i will be there for you even before i knew what was wrong,
i am going to keep my word.
i cannot imagine this is all happening.
i cannot believe i am in ya arms and we are together.
i am glad for everything that has happened, is happening and going to happen.
i never want this to end.
i love you.
and i am happy. =)


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- Monday, March 12, 2007 `x

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- Sunday, March 11, 2007 `x

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A man and his wife were working in their garden one day and the man looks
over at his wife and says:

"Your butt is getting really big.......I mean really big. I bet your butt
is bigger than the barbecue grill ."

With that he proceeded to get a measuring tape and measured the grill and
then went over to where his wife was working and measured his wife's
bottom.

"Yes, I was right.........your butt is two inches wider than our barbecue
grill!"

The woman chose to ignore her husband.

Later that night in bed, the husband is feeling a little frisky. He makes
some advances towards his wife who completely brushes him off.

"What's wrong?" he asks.

She answers: "Do you really think I'm going to fire up this big grill for
one lousy little sausage?"

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The most damaging phrase in the language is: 'It's always been done that way.'
Grace Murray Hopper

yeah its like u are giving up cause u will be saying its always been like that so why change now.
and u will never know how u can work at the prob or even move away from it.
cause u dun wanna try but just take it cause u say its like such.

you know my feelings now,
i cant even explain it a single bit.
its all good and i am super happy.
things are going very well for me and i am excited and happy.
my date went very well.

headed to buy the tickets and then had dinner at fish & co.
i finished my food.
but was not really hungry also.
we talked and talked so much.
had so many things to talk about.
it started on a wonderful note.
and i am so happy.
we kinda waited for this day and yes we are happy.
fish & co was just good.
anw babe i do not need wonderful places to eat to satisfy my hunger.
a coffeeshop will do.
after that we played pool.
ok i lost again but both of us were so distracted.

movie was quite alright.
mr old man said that i will be so into the movie but in the end he also found it ok only.
alright only la.
after that headed to vivo city and sat there.
really so cooling, quiet and romantic.
we sat there talking about a lot of stuff and i felt so good.
then mr old man sent me home.

being in ya arms was unexplainable.
speaking to u was so nice.
things have changed so much between us and its good.
and i know both of us are happy.
i know u dun care what people say about us and so do i.
as long as the people ard us are happy for us.
although they are not we will still be happy.
haha.
but like i said i cant wait to see their expressions.
thanks for everything babe.
muacks.


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- Saturday, March 10, 2007 `x



One of the secrets of life is to make stepping-stones out of stumbling blocks.
Jack Penn

i haven learnt that a lot.
if u want to wait for something so steady and all it will take a million years just to come.
and u will never be able to move up.

i stayed at home most of the day.
but in the morning i went to do my hair.
it looks alright.
will upload pictures i took soon.
anyway i went for the 7pm novena with my cousin.
meeting up with her quite often but i am not complaining cause i am loving it.
i saw some of useless people but i could not be bothered of their presence.
after that headed to far east.
i went to pierce my navel.
yummy.
not really painful.
i feel it is better than the gun shot.
we headed to have dinner at heeren Vila'ge.
quite alright.
i was super full.
past few days not having very good appetite so yeah.
but good improvement.

i am super happy.
a lot things happening and all.
some added hiccups with someone but everything is still good.
i made the decision on my own and no one made me choose what i want.
so do not blame people.
i did it on my own and i am super happy now.
i have to thank the sean wales for it all.
its really so different.
i cannot explain how i am feeling or what so ever,
cause words cannot describe anything.
i am happy for myself.
i know my family is happy to see me like that too.

i am tired.
but very happy inside.
super duper happy.
thanks for everything dear.
i am happy we are happy.
=)

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Someone’s sitting in the shade today because someone planted a tree a long time ago.
Warren Buffet

i am being patient and like the sentence above says,
i will sit under the shade and enjoy it all.
the decision i made and by standing strong by it has brought me this far.
and no matter what anyone says i am not going to regret it at all.
cause i am happy n i know it darn well.
you are no one t judge me,
cause u are not in my life or in my place.
and i have passed that stage where things that people say affects me.
and so i have moved on.
thats that.
accept it if you can.

today is the last day of working in cherie hearts childcare center and i will never work there ever again if i can remember.
cause i have had enough.
but i will sure miss my darlings over there.
the hugs n the kisses i get are not replaceable.
sigh.
but its alright.
i really pray that i get that job at the cerebral palsy center.
please pray for me too.
after work i went to meet my mum at orchard.
then bought some clothes n then went to her work place.
this ang moh teacher flirted with me and all.
so funny la.
i was washing my eyes on the small ang moh boys.
oh man so cute.
grow up confirm become so handsome sia.
anw after that went over to tekka to collect my saree that i have been so impatiently waiting for.
but to my disappointment,
it was not ready yet.
so sad.
but tomorrow it will be ready.
hope so la.

after that came home and just rested.
so many things on my mind.
a lot of the good stuff actually.
cant wait for sunday.
another day out.
i am happy.
blissful i would say.
i hope my loved ones are happy for me now.

you really make me smile and laugh.
we talk about a lot of things.
the relationship i have with you,
i have never had it before.
i have never felt the way i feel now.
it may be odd but i am serious.
you bring me up and u make me happy.
we laugh so loud and we smile at out phones looking at the messages we send each other.
talking about the rubbish that we will do in future when we are in public n all.
it i sso funny to just think about it.
as i am writing now i am laughing n smiling.
even before i see the content of the message i smile cause i know it will be you,
and has to do with something nice.

thanks for everything.
i know both of us are very happy.
i am glad you are in my life.
this whole relationship is very different.
i am glad.
i am happy i can help you to overcome ya fear and the other way round too.
i pray that everything goes well and i know it will.
cant wait for the group's reaction though.
haha.
i have never seen you this happy before.
and i have never seen myself like that.
thanks for bringing the real ME out of me.
i am missing you.

good night i wanna go watch my HEROES.

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- Thursday, March 08, 2007 `x



If you make it plain you like people, it's hard for them to resist liking you back.
Lois McMaster Bujold

it was a mutual thing we shared about.
but i agree with the phrase above,
cause it has happened many times before.
but now i am totally sure it is not what i think it will be.
i am totally happy where i am now.
and the feeling now is not forced or what so ever.
its developing slowly and i know GOD is looking over us.

today i had my interview at the cerebral palsy centre.
so after my work at cherie hearts i came home first to take my lunch.
and then my bro steve send me to my sec sch to collect my o'level cert.
yes yes i just collected it after graduating from there in 2003.
but what the hell i did not have any inspiration to go back there at all.
then he sent me to teh cerebral palsy center.
it was a very different situation altogether.
i am glad i got to experience it.
but to my stupid luck,
the person who was supposed to interview was on mc.
but thank god they allowed me to fill in the form n all.
then one guy so called interviewed me n told me what the job is really about and all.
he says i will be an interventionist instead of a teacher.
i knew all that.
the more he told me about the job the more i wanted it.
then he said that i need to do a 2 day volunteer thingy first before i make my decision.
so it is fair that we make a decision on a confirm mind and not knowing whats installed for us.
so next week tues n weds i am going over there.
i cant wait la.

i am thinking about a lot of stuff.
i am glad i can talk to u.
i am happy that i have waited patiently and made the right decision.
i know i am doing the right thing for myself.
i have never been this happy in my life before.
i know you will be there for me and all.
everyday is a new beginning for me.
i learn more things about you and how to deal with life better.
i learn how i can change myself even without you telling me to do so.
i mean its not a bad thing,
its how i see my life n i wanna change for the better of my happiness.
i know the people who really loves me and around me will be very happy for me.
but if they are not i still do not care as i am SUPER happy with you.
and only i know how much you mean to me.
i know i have much more to learn about you and i am waiting and just carrying on with life.

met my cousin cause we already planned it on monday.
i am glad we met cause i was able to avoid some problem that happened at home.
i visited the budget terminal at changi airport for the first time.
but soon after that headed back home cause sister was having cramps.
i'll pray for u sis.
had so much to talk to her about.
i am glad i have her as my sister to talk about anything i want or need to.
thanks a lot sister.

oh ya and for those so eager to know whats happening in the interview.
i guess i might get the job at the pasir ris center.
i am confident about 80%.
really pray i get it cause the benefits seems good and i really want this job.
cause i really love it and for many other personal reasons la.
anw please continue to pray for me ok.
thanks so much for everything.
muacks.

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- Wednesday, March 07, 2007 `x



When the student is ready, the teacher appears.
Tao saying

likewise when the heart is ready,
love will settle in.
even sometimes you will not know how the love end up coming.
haha.
for now i am not ready for it all,
i just came out of a relationship and i am not going to rush in to another one.
i am taking my time to get to know.
i do not care how u run your mouth cause i do not care.
its my life and my happiness.

its a pleasure that i am getting to know u more.
i am happy and i cant explain how happy i actually am.
i am on cloud nine.
everytime we talk i smile n laugh like a mad person.
despite the place that i am in!!
but i am not complaining cause u keep my spirits up.
you are so different from the first time i knew u.
i never knew we would come this far,
but i am glad.
i hope everything goes well.
and i know both of us understand the way things are.
thanks for being there for me.
miss u babe.

i am supposed to work till next fri but i cannot tahan already.
today was the last resort.
i am sick of the attitude shown by the china teacher.
oh man i tell you ah if u there with them,
you would wanna kill them.
trust me man.
i am sick of it all.
i wanna rebond my hair anyone wanna say anything??

after work i went to meet my aunt to collect my gown.
nice nice.
i wear next week then take pics for u all to see ok?
ate and all then came home.
i had a nice n interesting msging conversation with my dear sean anthony wales.
rubbish la u babe.
but i laughed so loud.
thanks.

i am going to sleep good night.
tomorrow my interview with pasir ris cerebral palsy center.
pray that i can get it.


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- Tuesday, March 06, 2007 `x



It is better to be hated for what you are than loved for what you are not.
Andre Gide

yes i totally agree to this now.
cause the person was loving me for who i was not and that was super unfair to him.
i am moving on n so should he.
anyway like i said,
if you guys/girls wanna judge me by all means go ahead.
i am much happier now.
and i love it this way.

was all ready to go work,
then i felt giddy and on the verge of fainting.
i quickly drank my milo and sat on the sofa.
next thing i know,
i was trying to get up after fainting.
thanks sean for msging me at that time that i gained sight.
so i canceled work since i was super weak,
and stayed at home instead.

thanks for caring for me.
you make me feel alive.
you make me laugh and keep me strong.
whenever you talk or what,
i just laugh and smile.
thanks darling for everything.

i am getting to know you more and more.
i am glad we can talk and annoy each other.
which never fails to make me smile and laugh.
thanks.
thats the most i can say.



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- Monday, March 05, 2007 `x



Two kinds of people on earth can be seen: the people who lift and the people who lean.
Ella Wheeler-Wilcox

yes i know of people who lean and who can lift.
i can be both also but it depends on which situation or people i am dealing with.
i am glad a have friends who i can lean on and some who lift me up.
i am glad.
i am lucky.

i did not go to work today.
not feeling very well.
please leave me alone.
i do not want to hear what you think.
you said u will leave me alone but what the hell are u doing?
aiyah you are just stressing me out even more.
please just leave me alone.
i have made up my mind.
just please go away.
no matter what u do or say i am not going to change my mind.
and also whatever u do will just harm u more.

i just rested at home.
but a lot of headache by just staying at home.
probs just had to come.
when i feel that everything was alright,
it had to turn out badly.
i am not confused or going to change my decision,
but u are spoiling what i have now.
i have to talk to many different people just to clear my head.
and i have to clean the mess that you have made.
just please leave me alone.



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You can only find truth with logic if you have already found truth without it.
G.K. Chesterton

its hard to find truth with logic.
i always want the truth and for it to be logical but somehow or another it does not.
but when u accept the truth,
then it does seem logical somehow or another.
but now i have found logic and i hope it stays good.

the lunch date with 2 angels.
sharon is flying off to china on tues so we decided to have a get together.
we went to marina square to have lunch at seoul garden.
i was so eager to eat there,
but unfortunately my appetite died.
sigh.
we had loads of fun actually laughing and joking.
sharon keep doing nonsense.
after that we headed to bugis to take neoprints.
we were supposed to go to heeren but cause of sharon and her idea of taking 960 there,
which in the first place dun even go there.
anw we had fun taking neoprints.

after that met sean at cineleisure.
we were supposed to watch movie at The Cathay but they were not showing the movie.
at cine the time for the movie was super late so we headed to ps.
we had a nice chat and all.
funny la.
whatever i msged him,
he using against me.
feidak husky.
but i still enjoyed my time with you so much.
we bought the tickets then had a drink at starbucks.
movie was alright.
sean kept admiring eva mendaz( i think tts how u spell).
making noises and all.
cute la he.
after movie we went to play pool at meridian.
ok ok sean won we 7-5.
but its alright we had our fair share of laughs at each other.

thanks for the wonderful afternoon my girls.
love u all so much.
sharon go safely ok and do not influence the children in china ya madness.
will miss you.
sean thanks for a wonderful evening which i enjoyed so much!!
first time going out with you alone and you are so fun to be with.
but that does not mean that i will stop annoying u ok.
bleah.
thanks to the both of u for making my day a wonderful one.
muacks to u all.
love u so much.


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- Saturday, March 03, 2007 `x



go on and read this article in oprah.
you might be shocked or maybe not.

http://www2.oprah.com/tows/slide/200610/20061002/slide_20061002_284_101.jhtml

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If you have made mistakes, even serious mistakes, you may have a fresh start any moment you choose, for this thing we call "failure" is not the falling down, but the staying down.
Mary Pickford

i am sure i have made many mistakes in my life.
and i am definitely not proud of it all.
when i think of it,
i feel like killing myself.
it hurts so much.
i just cant take it.
now i am trying to be a better person.

was out the whole day with my mum and some others.
bought stuff for my attai's wedding.
accessories and all.
then went to buy gold and then bought a gown for the evening.
had a nice time,
but through out the day i was thinking and wondering a lot of things too.
i am just killing myself.
i really do not wanna talk about it at all.
i am so sorry but please understand me.
i really do not care if u judge me,
although u may be so close to me.
you have ya own rights to think what you want.
but i know what i am going through and i am not throughly happy about everything.

dad had a talk with him,
cause i could not get things to him.
i know it is very tough.
like i said its very tough on me too.
i really cannot go with it anymore.
i know you have always did things to make me happy i really appreciate it,
but i am not genuinely loving you for everything.
and i know how unfair it is to u.
maybe its alright for u,
and u just want me to be with u.
but i cant live with that.
i have my own conscience to live with.
now i know you understand.
just do not do anything stupid.

i am alone through the nights,
i think of everything that happened and i am sad.
but i know its for the better.
anw thanks for being there for me always.
really appreciate everything.

i am tired and i do not wanna write anything anymore.
i am too drained after all the waterfall.
i am going to lie down and think more.
haha.
godo night.

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- Friday, March 02, 2007 `x



Man has never made any material as resilient as the human spirit.
Bern Williams (submitted by Turtle76)

i really do not know what to do.
i am really so confused with everything that is on my mind.
religion is really getting to my head.
i mean thinking about marriage and all,
its really killing me.
i just do not know why all this is happening to me.
i am really confused.
thinking so much and my head is so painful.
i just can only think of one solution,
and that is to leave.
it will be the better for both of us.
it might seem like it is not the right one now,
but i do not know.

i am super confused.
i know you are sad.
i am too.
you do not know how difficult it is for me.
i am drowning in my own sorrows.
there is so many things i have to think about for our future.
and i do not think it is all enough for me.
i know i sound like an ass n all.
but it is my future and i have all the rights to want the best for myself.
and i know that i cant lead a proper life,
if i have to face all these problems.
i feel i have came up with an ok decision.
i do not know i will just pray that everything works out well.

school was really chaotic again.
i am really so pissed with the china teachers there.
aiyah they cant even wash the child bum.
oh man they took so long just to clean the child up.
and caused most of the kids a delay in their sleep time.
so annoying.
she cant even do a lot of her job properly.
i really so annoyed by her la anyway i got nothing to say about her already la.

i have thought and thought,
and this is what i came up with.
i have to leave for the better of us.
i have to leave to preserve my future.
i have to leave to spare us more hurt in the future.
i've thought about it all.
please understand.
i know it hurts,
i hurt too.
please remember i am still here.
we can talk.
i'll pray for you.
take care.

and for those who read and do not understand ait,
its alright i am not in any position to explain to anyone.
you may start to point fingers and all but i do not care.
thanks for all your support for those who have supported us.
but this is a choice we sorry i had to make.

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