- Tuesday, October 31, 2006 `x

One cannot collect all the beautiful shells on the beach. One can collect only a few, and they are more beautiful if they are few. Anne Morrow Lindbergh

yes i can only keep a few.
and i have no idea which ones to keep.
i am comtemplating.
i dun know what to do.
BUT now i am standing strong to the grd.
i am not going to move.

Happy Birthday HuiHong!
God Bless u always.
=)

sch was gd.
alot of memories came back to me.
sigh.
hate it when all tt happens.
anw one grp presented and made us all laugh so loudly.
very happy.

i am happy i can talk to u abt anything.
we can try to solve things together.
i am really glad to have u in my life.
cause no one will be this patient wid me.
no one will talk to me like that.
no one will even understand me like that.
i love u and am very happy wid u in my life.
thanks alot my sexy.
MUACKS!!
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- Monday, October 30, 2006 `x



The fragrance always stays in the hand that gives the rose.
Hadia Bejar

i am glad i can manage my time now.
i can do my stuff.
i can listen when someone is saying something.
i am able to do work given to me.
thanks for helping me.
thanks alot.
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- Sunday, October 29, 2006 `x

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Friendship is a promise of future loyalty, loyalty no matter what comes. Promises are the bricks of life and trust is the mortar.
Stephen Carter, "The Emperor of Ocean Park" (submitted by rosaliekg)

i am treasuring my friendship very close to my heart.
i am loving every single one of my friend.
esp those who are so close to me.
even if i have some disagreements wid my peers,
we somehow or another clear it up.
or we just know how to control it.
we do not go through a major bitch fit like alot of ppl do.

i had a wonderful day.
despite certain small parts of the day which din go quite well,
i still had a blast.
baby came to fetch me and we headed to misha's place.
saw some ppl there.
kept taking pics and enjoyed the food there.
after that went back home.
i am truly happy.
thanks for everything.
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- Friday, October 27, 2006 `x



Depend on the rabbit's foot if you will, but remember it didn't work for the rabbit.
R.E. Shay

i just wanna depend on myself!
i really think i need to stand on my own 2 feet alr.
i cant keep leaning on other's shoulders.
currently i have a prob right in front of me and i have no idea how to deal wid it.

alot of things are happening.
i dun know what to think of it or even to do,
that i turned to both my brothers.
but the person involved is denying or even hiding stuff.
i mean if u r not guilty just say.
the way the person answers seem like she is hiding something.
arghh my head is so pain.

went to my uncle's place today.
my cousin took the panadol for fun it seems.
she say she wanna try new adventure!!
crazy gal la she.
after having dinner,
we headed to NUH to send her back.
then my uncle sent us home.
i met baby at the shelter.
steph, damien and baby were making rockets!!
aiyo every year they have this 'so-called' competition!!
but very cute la.

baby came home wid me.
he made me slp.
so swt la he.
anw past few days i keep vomiting after i eat.
feeling so dizzy.
i am feeling scared.
so many things i have to think abt and i think my head is going to split soon.
hmph.
pls pray for me.


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Reach high, for stars lie hidden in your soul. Dream deep, for every dream precedes the goal.
Pamela Vault Starr

i am reaching higher.
planning alot of things.
hmph i really cant be bothered for those who come in between and wanna bring me down.
cause my head is high up and i am standing strong.
i have my loved ones ard me.
i am dreaming big time.
and i know it will come true one day.
cause its all matters of the heart,
somehow or another it will all be ok.

i had a wonderful day.
like i said yesterday,
i liked it all exept the project part.
sharon was so funny today.
normally for classes,
we take off our shoes and place it outside class.
suddenly during class,
she kept looking at the floor.
and she looked at me and started scolding.
i kept asking her why,
then she asked me 'Where is my slipper?'
i just burst out laughing.
she totally forgot that the slipper is outside.
and she even thought that misha was the one who took her slipper as well and mine.
i just cld not stop laughing la.

anw classes are alright.
i am getting interested in most of the classes.
except one major one.
its abt leadership and i cant tahan the lecturer at all!!
she is too STRICT!!
actually unreasonable!!
i mean how are we supposed to learn then??
aiyah so annoyed la.

after sch we had project meeting.
a little while actually.
then i met mok and stayed wid misha.
we ate and waited for baby to come pick me up.
we went to my aunt's place to take something then headed to my palce.
we went to have dinner in the coffee shop.
only baby ate as i had food in sch.
i came home and vomitted.
feeling quite bad.
dun know why.
i am kinda scared.
anw baby put me to sleep and he left for home.

my uncle came to collect some stuff.
and he said that his 12 year old daughter (my cousin) took 12 panadol!!
for i dun know what reason!
then he was shouting and all.
hmph!!!
why ppl go thru madness??

anw gd night!



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- Thursday, October 26, 2006 `x



I'd rather be able to face myself in the bathroom mirror than be rich and famous.
Ani DiFranco

i add something else,
i'd rather be able to face myself in the bathroom mirror than to be as mean and rude as YOU!!
anw i am happy the way i am.
i dun need to be rich or famous to be happy.
if i am rich and famous i dun think i can meet the wonderful ppl in my life now.
i love the way i am and i am growing as a happy child!!

Happy Birthday Mummy!!
I love u so much.
Thanks for being there for me always.
You have guided and guarded me all my life.
You have always been by my side thru thick & thin.
I love u and always will.
=)

i hate school.
ok a certain part of it actually.
i hate the projects and the ppl i have to work wid.
its so stressful.
i know we have to go thru all this,
but at times i dun think i need to go thru bullSHIT!!
i feel i deserve better.
i know u are the leader and all,
BUT u dun need to show me attitude!
maybe its just from my point of view.
but u being the leader does not mean that u need to make all the decisions!!

today my day went ok.
except the part of the project.
anw we had ast tutorial.
and it was so fun.
talking abt what we feel a gd/bad teacher is.
we were re-living the sec/pri sch days.
really nice.
after project work,
i met mok.
he followed me all the way home.
then we went to have desserts at the hawker centre.
talked for some time.
i always never fail to have loads of fun wid him.
then he left to go for his dance prac.

baby came to meet me.
ate dinner wid my parents.
cause it is my mum's b'day.
played game in my hse wid my parents & baby.
i am really loving every moment.
we are growing closer to each other.
yay!!

i love u babe.
muacks.
thanks dada.
u always make me smile, despite irritating me!!
i never wanna replace u or the memories we have built together.
and still building.
i love u my lala boy.
u make my world spin in happiness.
and i am loving tt feeling!
=)

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- Wednesday, October 25, 2006 `x





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You Are More Mild Than Wild

You're confident, and you really aren't concerned with how "hot" you are. Other people's ideas of what's sexy don't concern you. And this is exactly what makes you attractive.

So true!!
hehe.
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AGATHA
A	is for	Athletic
G	is for	Gorgeous
A	is for	Amorous
T	is for	Tender
H	is for	Hip
A	is for	Articulate

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Your Japanese Name Is...

Kagami Konjo

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- Tuesday, October 24, 2006 `x

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God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can; and the wisdom to know the difference.
Reinhold Niebuhr

i have this prayer in my wallet.
and i feel this is so so true.
whats the point in wanting to change things u cant and not even try for the things u can??
i've actually realised this quite some time back alr.
and i stopped crying over the spilt milk and try to think of solutions or even if i can solve it.
this is all thanks to my wonderful friends and my most loved bf.

Happy Anniversary Baby!
2 years & 1 month.
so fast a month has gone past.
and we are growing stronger.
thanks to u.
i am loving u so much my dada.

Selamat Hari Raya to all the ppl celebrating it.
i will be celebrating it wid my second family too.
yay!!
this will be my 3rd year celebrating wid them.

i am feeling quite tired.
but i woke up,
prepared stuff for what i was going to wear and got ready.
mummy helped me to tie saree.
so cool.
hehe.
my second own saree.
and i am loving the colour.
i took a bus to baby's hse.
no one else was their except baby's family and his granny.

i really enjoyed myself at baby's place.
i feel i was part of their family and was inviting and taking care of the guests.
misha & mok came.
my parents and eldest bro also came.
i was so happy.
first time both our parents are meeting.
but baby's parents were really so busy so cant really have a proper conversation wid my parents.
but i know my parents understood.
i just really feel so happy.
baby also spoke to my eldest bro for the first time on his own.
and the main thing i was happy abt also is abt annah.
we kind of spoke and answered each other's questions but indirectly.
i dun know how he felt but i was feeling so good.
he was more calm than the day at vinod's place.
i feel so good.
i know GOD is hearing my prayers.
even if annah is not ok wid me,
i just want him and his whole family to have a positive relationship.
tts all.
its ok wid me if he never ever talks to me also.
cause at least i will be glad that they are ok.

and i'll post the pics so u can look.
but not many pics though.
anw enjoy ok.
hope u ppl enojoyed this festive season.
and for me its back to sch work.

baby thanks for everything da.
i feel things are going smoothly.
and GOD is really showing us the right path.
i love u n more than that.
muacks.
miss u alr.
even though we did not spend much time together i still enjoyed myself.
cause it was wid ya family n i really felt like one of ur family.
THANKS so much!!!

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- Monday, October 23, 2006 `x



There is no psychiatrist in the world like a puppy licking your face.
Ben Williams

i dun really get the meaning of the quote,
BUT all i know is that some ppl are just being a pest in my life.
how much i avoid and ignore also,
that particular person never fails to bring darkness in my life.
BUT she dun understand that she is not winning!!

school was alright.
quite stupid la.
cause we have not decided out topic and then needed to discuss and all.
crap la.
after sch we went to eat lunch,
cause we needed to wait for my lecturer to confirm our topic.
mok met me a while.
i fed him meshed potato and he said it was not nice and tasted like potato.
that boy din even know it was potato in the first place.
pandi!!
after meeting my lecturer,
we headed to the library to search for the project stuff.
it was going alright.
hmph.
after that headed to baby's hse.
feeling so wierd after what happened yesterday in nod's place.
arghhh.
but i spoke to mum abt this alr.
i cried in their hse.
some unwanted scenes.
i am really so sad.
i feel i am the one who is causing probs for their family.
and mum said that SHE is doing all this things cause she cant go to their hse for hari raya & dun want me to go too!!
stupid childish games!!
get a life and grow up pls.
i saw ya face the other day,
and it sucked big time!!
i can really be such a bad person BUT i choose not to.
so dun make me show that side!!
get out of my life u BITCH!!!

i am happy baby is there for me.
thanks alot ma.
muacks.
never wanna trade u for anything or anyone else in this life.
=)

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- Sunday, October 22, 2006 `x

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21st Oct 2006
Every stitch in a prayer quilt is imbued with healing energy, which gets transmitted to the person who receives it.
By Kimberly Winston

"God speaks in the silence of the heart. Listening is the beginning of prayer."
Mother Teresa

deepavali was gd.
i enjoyed myself so much.
went to my father's friend's place, my attai place, mok's hse, baby's relatives place.
so fun.
and first year that i am going visiting together wid him.
so cool.
had so much of fun in mok's place.

Opportunities are usually disguised as hard work, so most people don't recognize them.
Ann Landers

2nd day of deepavali,
we went to vinod's place only.
i saw some unwanted faces and spoilt my whole day.
i rather see a ghost man!!
arghh but that day was totally screwed up.
dun wanna talk abt it alr la.
BUT she knows what will hurt me most so she is using that.
damn it.
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- Saturday, October 21, 2006 `x

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- Friday, October 20, 2006 `x



If you really do put a small value upon yourself, rest assured that the world will not raise your price.
Anonymous

i know i am priceless.
my love, family and friends are too to me.
but i feel that i am worth only a small amt if i compare it to great ppl.
despite the small amt i still think i am able to reach their level.
and while i am on that journey to reaching that level,
the value of myself will raise.

Happy Birthday Uncle Haja!
Thanks for all the math tutoring when i was in sec sch.
b'coz of all that i am where i am now.
u are the nicest and best math tutor i know.
thanks for everything uncle.

u embrace me wid ya love.
u hold me wid love and tenderness,
i can never receive from anyone else.
u are always there to support and guide me,
thankful for everything.
i cant explain the feeling i contain inside.
its too intense to even say it in words.
u make me sing the happiest songs.
u life my spirits up whenever u smile and look at me.
i cant thank u enuff.
i cant repair u all of that.
but all i wanna say is that,
i wanna live wid u all my life.
maybe in that way i can give back the same love and care.
muacks my dada.

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- Thursday, October 19, 2006 `x



It is no longer good enough to cry peace, we must act peace, live peace, and live in peace. Shenandoah proverb (submitted by ta-ho-da)

i guess like wat i said in one of my earlier posts,
u have to work at what u want.
u cant keep wanting peace when u dun even make a little effort at it.
but certain things are really better left unsaid.
i learnt it from someone whom i have hurt so much just recently.
he taught me that if u said the things which were supposed to be left unsaid out,
many unwanted things wld happen.
n now i know why he kept telling that its better left unsaid.
and now i am learning from my mistake.
i am trying not to hurt anyone or force anyone to tell me stuff they are not supposed to be telling.
i am living life as it is.
and i am happy wid it.

Happy Birthday Joel.
love u always.

baby u life me up when i am down,
u make me smile during my sad moments.
i am thankful u are in my life.
never have i regretted a day,
for ya presence in my life.
sometimes i wish i cld turn back time,
but then again if i did,
we will not be how we are now.
loving, appreciative, sharing, caring, and full of surprises.
we have grown so much in this relationship.
i am glad.
i cant live a day widout u.
i pray and hope that GOD has planned our lives to be wid each other forever.
and we will work at it to happen in such a way.
i know we can do it if we put all our heart and soul in it.
and that is happening now.
i cant bare to see anything happen to u.
or anything to happen between us.
the open talks we have, and the no hiding policy has really been working.
i am loving our dates,
afternoon naps,
dinners and everything else.
on top of all i am loving u more each day.
i love u and i wanna spend the rest of my life wid u.
thanks for being in my life.
i owe u alot.
=)

kabhi alvida naa kehna
'never say gd bye'
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- Wednesday, October 18, 2006 `x



Keep your fears to yourself, but share your inspiration with others.
Robert Louis Stevenson

yes at this point of time i fear alot.
or worse still it is happening at the current moment.
BUT i am still going ahead!!
cause my baby is by my side.
sometimes i grow a little weak but i still wake myself up and carry on.
i am HAPPY.
i really am in total bliss.
but some where in my life i am fearful.
of many things.
loosing the ones i love and cherish.
BUT there is one thing that happens in my life which never changes.
people get so close to me or something and some how after some time,
they will drift away or disappear in my life.
i've gotten so used to it that it does not affect me much.
i mean for that person to drift away,
there must be some reason.
maybe he/she is happier wid someone else or doing something else.
baby said that maybe i expect too much from the ppl i am close to.
i feel thats the reason too.
but its ok.
i am still cool.
i hope i have shared my inspiration wid ppl ard me.
i guess i have.

head is feeling so bad.
before i slept i had a long talk wid baby.
sharing what i am going thru and how i feel.
he was really there to listen and comfort me.
i am happy.
my clique decided to wear our glasses today to sch.
actually i came up wid the plan.
sch was nice.
i figuered that our year 3 lecturers are kind of insane.
all wid their lame jokes.
hehe.
but they either entertain or annoy us.
i am really going to push myself for one of my module,
administration and management of programmes for young chn.
i like the lecturer.
i mean i am going to push myself for all my modules.
after that was one module,
abt leardership.
wah i cant tahan that lecturer la.
her name is Gurmit Kuar Sroya.
her comments and the way she teach ah cant take it la.
while we were presenting,
she kept interupting.
so annoying.
but i cant be bothered.
after school,
i met my lil angel.
havent seen her for very long.
then baby gave me a surprise by droping by my sch.
so nice to see him.
his eyes was so sharp that he saw my friend duanne'.
i had a chat wid her.
so nice.
and we took pics.
after that baby & i went to tekka.
i did my eyebrows.
when we were leaving we saw mok a while.
small talk and left for TB.

baby came over to my hse first.
we waited a while then went to brick woods to have dinner.
i had my bbq chicken after so long.
yummy.
but i cld not taste much as i am still sick.
we came abck to my hse and rested a while.
then headed to steph's blk to meet the grp.
vinod and uma were here too.
had some fun there.
took many pics.
i was so tired.
no sch tml so i can slp.
waited for baby to reach home and i slept wid him.

my head is killing me.
dun know why suddenly have pain.
hmph maybe i am thinking so much.
head is spinning.
pin-like pain wid intervals.
sigh.
but i am happy baby is here for me.
muacks.
thanks alot da.
muacks.

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ms malay & ms white!!

smiley!

piggie face!!

studying, actually writing notes!

baby all strong and carrying me.

he just turns me on.

yummy.

baby wants to be a monkey in the zoo.

the 2 couples.

wanting to be intimate??

crazy frog!!

i am laughing at him.

random pics.

jerry did that to nod's hair.

uma n me.

she cut her hair.

lil angel.

after much waiting.

my pretty & sexy sec sch friend.

duanne' dream.

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- Tuesday, October 17, 2006 `x

my lil angel.

my granny & me.

the reason i am here.

the love of my life.

mr mokkie acting cool.

my angels.

ms famous pink and ms wannabe pink!!

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- Monday, October 16, 2006 `x



The man who views the world at fifty the same as he did at twenty has wasted thirty years of his life.
Muhammad Ali

i feel that in my life i am going through and learning new things.
as each day passes,
i face many problems and also situations where i am so happy.
i am glad that there is a mixture of both.
i am happy wid my life.
being wid the ones i love and ignoring the ppl who dun deserve to be in my life.
thanks for being in my life.
cause widout u ppl i wld not have gone through alot of stuff.
and special thanks to those ppl who constantly try to break me,
cause u have actually made me a stronger person.
THANKS ALOT!!

today is the first day of sch but i woke up and still had fever,
so i din go to sch.
really felt upset as i din wanna miss sch.
anw i slept.
baby came and surprised me.
he told his officer that his gf sick n all.
so the officer say can go.
hmph so swt eh??
when baby came over,
we ordered macs.
we ate,
watched tv a while and then went to slp.
baby slept wid me on the same bed.
wah so shiok.
hehe slept all the way till late afternoon.
then we went down to eat.
some unwanted person was in TB.
arghh.
so annoying but i din wanna look at her also.
anw i was wid baby and then came home.
so tired.
but i am happy i feel much better.
cause i dun wanna miss anymore of sch.
i am missing my gals too.
hehe i am dead bored being at home.
cant wait for sat.
going for visiting.

muacks to everyone.
sorry if i am too busy or wat ok.
being sick and juggling alot of things is quite hard for me.
anw i cant wait to meet my cousin also.
will be going for dress hunting wid the fellow bridesmaid too.

oh baby thanks for today.
i feel so much better after u was wid me the whole day.
so good.
yummy.
i love it when u take care and sayang me.
thanks da.
muacks.
ook now off to slp.
good night.


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- Sunday, October 15, 2006 `x

baby trying to walk on the wall.

doing some pose in fish and co.

is he sitting down or lying down??

before our food came.

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Pray for a good harvest, but keep on plowing.
Nancy Otto

do not just wait for something to happen.
if u want it so badly,
u need to work for it too.
prayers will only come true when u really show tt u are also putting in some effort.
things do not just drop from the sky.
GOD always test those whom he really loves.
he will delay gratification.
BUT when he gives,
he will give loads and it will be no end.
so wait for that time,
cause u will never regret.
for those who is giving now,
they will only know the value when its all taken away from them.
i keep praying and at the same time i am working hard at it.

today i woke up feeling so sick.
having slight fever and very bad throat.
but i had to go n collect my specs.
anw i woke up and followed my bro to collect his car.
cause yesterday he parked it outside MOS cause he drank.
so i drove it home wid him at my side.
was really tired also.
i came home and slept again.
woke up,
got ready and went to jurong.
met baby near the place.
collected my specs and am loving it.
then i went to baby's place.
was dying cause i think i was getting worse.
my parents went to m'sia so no point being at home alone.
so i stayed in baby's hse a while.
then his uncle came over.
and i love his kids so much.
after some time i begged baby to send me home as i cld not tahan.
then baby came over to my place and was wid me.
after miss vasantham,
we went down to eat.
then went to see a doc also.
he gave me one day mc,
but i'll see if i am ok i'll still go sch tml.
met jerry n the rest a while.
after eating i vomitted.
baby was so nice to be wid me and take care of me.
so nice.
then baby sent me back.
i took meds and went to slp.
baby pat me to slp.
so nice.

pls pray that i get well.
i dun wanna miss sch.
i wanna push myself for good grades this sem.
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- Saturday, October 14, 2006 `x



True luck consists not in holding the best of the cards at the table; luckiest is he who knows just when to rise and go home.
John Hay

u need to know when to STOP.
if u know u had enuff,
just walk away.
not like some other ppl.
who just want to keep staying the game.
sometimes i feel that they just want the attention,
that they have no heart to leave at all.
sigh wonder why ppl just need that kind of attention.

Happy Birthday Shaun Camoens.
U are no more a teen.
Happy Birthday Amama.
Missing u so much.
Hope & Pray that u are resting well and peaceful where ever u are.

anw today is my second shopping spree.
hehe.
i went to harbour front to cash out my check.
after that i came back home and got ready to meet baby.
dada came and fetch me in TB.
then we headed to bugis.
we walked ard looking for clothes.
i wanted to buy a pants which looked nice.
and i wanted that long ago alr but very hard to find and no size.
but the pants i saw was kinda expensive n i din have enuff money.
i bought 4 tops.
wanted to buy a skirt also but not enuff cash.
we went to eat at fish & co.
there is this new dish.
new york fish & chips.
and its nice.
i ordered the wrong dish for baby.
i was so darn sad.
we headed back to the bike.
so tired alr.
i was a little sick.
my throat was sore and itchy.
went to meet jerry at the pondok.
i was tired and restless.
i came home to put my things.
my parents went for some wedding.
then baby came to my hse.
so nice.
yummy.
we ordered macs and ate.
then we went down to meet jerry.
this saturday was kinda boring.
dun know why also.
anw i was starting to get so sick.
head so painful and all.
so so tired.
i am happy i got to shop.
but wish i cld do more shopping.
but happy as it is now.

good night.
i am tired.
wish i dun get worse,
cause i wanna go sch.
i dun wanna miss it.
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- Friday, October 13, 2006 `x



I am not afraid of storms, for I am learning how to sail my ship.
Louisa May Alcott

yes i am not afraid to go through probs as i am learning and being stronger.
cause the more probs i face,
the more i learn and get stronger.
and i always have my loved ones ard me to help and support me through the bad times.

today my last day ok work.
very tiring but i was loving it,
as i wun be coming back alr.
arghh some kids were really killing me.
but i just tried to tahan.
i received my pay too.
yay which means tml is shopping day.
after work i took bus to meet mok near his place.
baby came after some time.
then we went to the optical shop.
i searched for a ncie pair of glasses.
and at last i found it.
baby and mok helped me.
while we were walking back,
mok stepped on something and made my jeans wet.
dumb boy u.
but its ok.
felt uncomfortable though.
anw we went to meet his sister and rebecca a while.
then walked and baby sent me home.
oh ya mok ah very naughty.
talking some stuff abt melons n all.
hmph i dun wish to say it.
thanks da for accompanying me to choose glasses.

baby thanks alot ma.
i cant wait for the weekend to spend more time wid u.
missing all those times we get to spend widout thinking of the time.
sigh next week my sch starts.
but i am still going to make time for u.
loving u so much babe.
tml is shoppingw id u.
muacks.
cant wait.
=)

mr mokan acting like a biker.

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- Thursday, October 12, 2006 `x



In dreams and in love there are no impossibilities.
Janos Arany

for me there is nothing impossible in my life.
sometimes it seems hard but i still wanna try to make it gd.
i mean i still try to reach for it.
so dun just give up.
no matter how hard ppl wanna bring u down,
u just keep on trying cause one day u will win.
like how i am now.
i am so much happier after trying so hard.
all the best.
=)

anw today 2nd last day of work.
i cant wiat for tml.
took pics wid some kids and of some kids.
so cute la.
one of them look like rugrats the baby.
and another looks like one of the triplets in child of our time.
if u watched it then u will know.
i will post the pics up soon.
have to wait for my friend to send me also.
after work,
baby came to fetch me.
we headed to heeren.
i wanted to buy flip flops,
but it was too ex so i din.
we walked ard window shopping.
then we headed to cine.
i bought a flip flow which costs 1/3 of the other one.
hehe.
but i am still happy.
then i bought lingerie.(guess its tt spelling)
cheap man.
anw i wanted to buy this blouse its a tube.
damn nice but not enuff cash.
so i din.

after that we headed back to TB.
we met stephen and all a while.
i just love being wid baby.
thanks da for following me to buy stuff.
hehe.
i know i made u go in n out of alot of shops.
sorry.

tml i might be going down to jurong to make my specs.
i think its cheap there.
i want the plastic frame.
but i must really choose.
hehe.
cause very hard for me as my face small.
might be meeting mok.
hehe.
baby will be coming along.
muacks.
ok i am tired.

good night.
=)
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me wid the big ship.

wah baby looks bigger than the ship.

wid the surrounding.

sharon's b'day cake.

we baked it while baby decorated it.

threesome!

ooo happy b'day to u!

hippo and mickey!

misha doing making the cake.

baby asked me to put tcaption as,

'at last i am doing some work!!'

happy ppl acting cute!!

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- Wednesday, October 11, 2006 `x



The real art of conversation is not only to say the right thing in the right place, but to leave unsaid the wrong thing at the tempting moment.
Dorothy Nevill

yeah u have to control yaself and hold back alot of comments,
cause some might be hurting or even cause an argument.
and i am experiencing it now.
alot of things are supposed to be unsaid.
but some times it hurts so much to keep it inside.
u can never tell out everything that u feel inside.
its just not the way.
and things will not turn out the way u want it to be also.
so just control yaself ok.

today i went to work like normal.
a little tired only cause i slept quite well yesterday.
recharged my energy.
2 more days of work and weekend i am going to enjoy and rest.
cause monday is SCH!!
yayness.
i've been waiting for this day.
but now i am a little fearful.
nvm that.
i will get through it.
after work i went to meet baby.
i am so happy cause i missed him so much.
we walked ard vivo city.
it is HUGE!!
u ppl shld go check it out.
its really nice.
many many shops.
baby n i went to watch stay alive.
nice movie too.
shld go catch it.
after that i went to apply for the crew for gv vivo city.
hope i get it la.
so near my place and flexi hrs.
sigh.
then we walked ard vivo city.
so nice view.
baby n i took some pics.
will upload it soon.
now no time.
but its nice.
very big space to hang out and all.
we will be going there in the day soon so we can really see more things.
but the view is so nice in the night.
facing sentosa and all.
baby n i can walk there even.
so near my hse.
yay!!
anw we came back and went to meet steph at his void deck.
was there a while and my mood was spoilt.
but nvm.
dun wanna talk abt it.
ok i am tired and wanna slp.
muacks.
will upload the pics soon and show u who are the naughty kids.
gd nite and swt dreams.

got some stuff to talk abt but soon also.
cause now not much time think abt all those stuff.
so will let u guys know soon.

+baby thanks for everything da.
i am really loving everything.
u just make me fall more deeply in love wid u.
muacks.
=)

+missing many ppl in my life.
but i can see them more often since my sch is going to start next week.
yay.
reena and shinaa we shld meet soon.
maybe next week if possible.
fix a date and time and let me know.
loving u all.
muacks.
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- Tuesday, October 10, 2006 `x



The fire of anger only burns the angry.
Chinese Proverb (submitted by ccm05)

anger gets u no where.
when u are angry it just spoils all the happy moments.
thats why i am trying my best not to get angry.
i just refrain from it.
cause i wanna enjoy all my happy moments.
i do get angry and upset but i try not to make it get the better of me.
so try to think of happy moments instead of building on the anger.

my angels b'day.
i am so happy she enjoyed her surprise from us.
i am glad.
anw today woke up and got ready for work.
i am dead tired cause i din have much slp.
but i din wanna give up on work.
i am forcing myself to work.
cause i need the money.
and this is something i like.
i mean compare doing this to office work.
i'll prefer this a million times!!
although i have to run ard chasing all the naughty ones.
but i am still loving it.
anw when the kids was slping,
the supervisor of my centre asked me to head to another centre.
cause they were short of teachers.
so i went over.
it was near my church at bukit permei.
i was ok wid it as it is near my place.
the chn there were more chaotic.
oh my.
my throat was so sore at the end of the day.
i am so tired also.
but i managed to go through the day.
i was paid on the spot.
after that i went to the grandma's hse where i gave my punjabi suit to sew.
i went to collect something.
then i headed home.
i came home and i slept.
so darn tired.
after some slp i woke up and blogged.
now i am going back to slp.
gd nite.
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If Columbus had an advisory committee he would probably still be at the dock.
Justice Arthur Goldberg

i woke up and got ready to go to the childcare.
i was there on time.
place looked quite big.
very big space and all for the kids to run abt.
the chn were really uncontrolable!!
i mean esp the 2 year olds.
they just knwo how to rebel and run ard.
my oh my.
i was loosing it esp to one kid.
his name is akaash.
arghhhh.
baby was keeping me company wid his sms-es.
i really miss him alot.
hehe.
after work,
i met misha in harbourfront.
we went to buy some stuff to bake sharon's cake and headed to my place.

we placed to stuff at my hse and went to meet baby and steph at the coffee shop.
we ate stingray and all.
hehe and baby was saying this is the thing tt killed steve erwin.
so cute la he.
after that misha n i headed back to my place and we started to bake the cake.
my dear misha made one egg fall and break.
and she DIN clean up.
pig u!!
after that misha left.
she had to go to her aunts place.
then baby n i did up the cake finish.
i slept a while but not really well.
baby woke me up and we got ready to go sharon's place.
baby decorated the cake.
and its nice.
better than how i wld have done it!!

my bro came wid up and baby was in the car too.
i drove to sharon's place.
had some prob on the road.
hehe.
my car stalled at the traffic light.
then i was panicky as the ppl behind were pressing their horns.
then i somehow did it and started the car again.
i was so scared.
then after some time we reached her place alr.
i waited for misha and then headed up to her place.
i called sharon n said i was at her place alr.
so i asked her to come down.
BUT we were waiting for her outside her hse instead.
when she came out we sang her a song and made her cut the cake.
misha said she wld cry but sharon din.
hehe.
i think she was on the verge of it.
anw we slacked at her place for a while eating the cake and taking pics.

Happy Birthday My ANGEL! =)
GOD bless u on this day and everyday.
may all ya wishes come true and make u a happier person.
remember that we are always here for u ok.
make sure u tell us everything and not after everything tt happens.
muacks darl.
hope u enjoyed ya surprise.
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- Sunday, October 08, 2006 `x



The greatest use of life is to spend it for something that will outlast it.
William James

i am glad i am spending my time wid someone who really makes me so happy.
i am happy we r building wonderful memories together.
and i know it is going to outlast everything in my life.
cause this has been the most wonderful 2 years so far in my life.
and i am looking forward to many more of it.

today i woke up and got ready to meet baby.
he came over to my hse a while first to eat lunch.
baby loves my mum's fish curry.
after that we headed to his aunts place a few blocks away.
when we reached there,
mummy, daddy and nessa were abt to leave alr.
so i tagged along wid em,
they went to jurong east first to check their eyes at the optician.
after that we went back home.
we spent some time chatting ard.
then baby wanted to watch the movie alr.
we watched a little then went to watch miss vasantham.
quite ok la.
the talent round was a disaster!
they know nuts abt that la.
the jamuna really cannot make it.
she din even ans the question.
she thinks so highly of herself.
sigh.
then we watched the movie again.
while watching,
i got a call from xp asking if i cld work or not.
it is in a childcare for this week only.
n i said ok.
i mean i need the money also.

tml work from 9am-6pm.
hope the place is gd n wid nice ppl.
its at harbourfront shopping centre.
near my hse too.
yippie.

baby thanks for a wonderful day.
u never fail to make my day sweet and nice.
i love u and am loving u more and more.
muacks.
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- Saturday, October 07, 2006 `x

helping out in Sarada Kindergarten.

this boy super hyper.

mr yoganada.

the gals all so pretty and dressed up.

misha and me.

see misha's glasses matching her lanyard.

matching couples.

we din plan it though.

my sexy and me.

riding me??

haahaa.

me on my sexy's bike.

comtemplating on taking bike licence.

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- Friday, October 06, 2006 `x



If it's a good idea, go ahead and do it. It is much easier to apologize than it is to get permission. Grace Murray Hopper

ya its much easier to apologize but whats the point in it??
cause its not going to make everything disappear!
nothing can be changed beacause of a simple word sorry.
and thats what i am going through now.
i guess i really deserve all that i am going thru now.
maybe even worse then this.
sigh.
i am really sad.
but nvm its all my fault.
i shld not have done all that.
i shld just really forget everything.

i reall dun feel like blogging.
i am so confused and annoyed abt everything.
i just wanna be alone!!
anw thanks mok for listening to me.
muacks.
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4th Oct 2006, Wednesday

You should not suffer the past. You should be able to wear it like a loose garment, take it off and let it drop.
Eva Jessye

i always have this habit of thinking.
and i know its bad but it comes naturally!
now i am trying to brush it all off.
i mean its all for the better!

today i woke up and was kinda tired.
but i got ready and went tekka.
i wanted to thread my eyebrows.
after that i was walking to the bus stop when baby was behind me!
i was shocked!
hehe.
BUT my baby was so sweet.
he sent me home.
we ate lunch at the coffee shop and i went home while he went home also.
i came home washed up a bit and bro allowed me to go driving wid him.
so we went to the car.
my bro drove the car out of the carpark for me cause its so narrow.
then i took over.
whoohoo.
after a month i get to drive again.
we drove all the way to pasir ris cause my bro wanted to see a car,
but the guy left alr.
so we headed to my aunty's hse in tampines.
we sat there a while,
watching tv and talking to my aunty.
then we headed home.
i came home played com a while and went to slp.
vinod called me and irritated me.
haha.
then he talk to me abt some stuff n i purposely said rubbish.

after waking up n i went to get ready and all.
baby was coming to meet me!
baby came and we met at the shelter.
stephen, jeri and damien was there too.
suresh brought for us pizza and garlic bread.
after some time,
we headed out.
before heading out,
mok called me and all.
he said he was having a headache and slping at home.
BUT HIS BACKGRD DOES NOT SOUND LIKE THAT!!!
baby said we were going camping.
he said his 3 men tent was in his bag!!!! (he thinks i am stupid)
then he said he wanted to go sentosa,
but he din.
and after entering the highway,
he said alamak we supposed to go sentosa right?
aiyo he ah.
hiding something also dun know how to hide!
anw i did not ask baby much cause i din wanna spoil the plans.
we parked the bike and then walked to some place.
sat down and just talked!!
he just wanted to watse time only.
when it was nearing midnight,
he made me walk but ask me to promise not to open my eyes.
so i did as i was told.
but i was so scared cause i feel so insecure when i close my eyes.
then baby kept turning me ard and all.
haha.
after that we came to the place alr,
i heard so many footsteps,
i was so scared.
it sounded like so many ppl were there.
i covered my face and all cause i though ppl were going to throw stuff at me and all.
then baby asked me to open my eyes.
i saw the cake and my friends who mean alot to me there!
vinod, misha, sharon and mok were there.
i was so happy.
but i alr know something like this will be happening.
anw i was nearly in tears but i held it back.
i went to hug each one of them.
thanks alot darlings!!
then i gave baby a bigggg HUG!!

5th Oct 2006, Thursday

A nation is a body of people who have done great things together in the past and hope to do great things together in the future.
Frank Underhill

at abt 12 i cut the cake!!
i fed baby,
he actually licked everything off my fingers.
then i fed vinod, sharon, mok and misha!!
we started to eat and all.
after some time,
sharon had to leave.
cause she was not feeling well.
so sad but still so happy i saw her after so so long!!
misha and i sent her off in a cab.
after that we sat down and started to drink n all.
yummy.
then vinod threw flour on me and all.
and he literally rubbed the flour on my leg.
arghh he even rubbed it on my face.
bloody ass.
lucky i was in a gd mood la.
if not u die!!!!
i went to the toilet and cleaned up.
mok asked when is shawn's b'day then i said 14th july and he said oh Valentines' day ah??
hehehe...
pig la he.
after that we played truth or dare.
it was really so funny.
one of vinod's questions for truth is how many times he masturbates in a day or watso ever.
i shall not sya the ans la.
we asked mok is melons was in front of him now will he do something to her,
then he gave that cheeky smile and said yes!!
hehe.
mok drank quite alot.
his eyes were so droopy!!
one of his dare was to give a seductive look,
and he had to be seduced for him to give.
aiyo.
then we just talk and talk.
i had a lot of fun.
in the morning at abt 7am,
we got ready and left for home.
while baby was starting his bike we were just waiting.
there was a lizard on his bike!!
hehe.
then mok was disturbing me and i hit his balls.
he was so in pain.
sorry da.
i really din mean it.
so so sorry!!
after that baby sent me home.
he stayed wid me a while and left.
i had my shower and all and went to have my gd sleep.
i was dying alr!!

then i woke up at abt 6 pm.
hehe.
went to wash up and all.
then helped my mum to buy drinks and paper plates.
my auntys adn some cousins came my hse.
vinod and uma also came.
my mummy cooked chicken samble and dhalcha.
some were also supposed to come but they cant make it.
its ok i understand.
i had another cake and i cut it as well.
then took pics n all.
after that we started to gamble and drink the left over vodka.
wah my dad cannot drink for nuts.
irritating!!
i won some money together wid baby.
hehe.
baby gave me a teddy bear.
and we named him bronze.
very cute.
like the olden doll.
anw baby left for home.
i was so tired i waited for baby and went to slp wid him.

thanks everyone for a wonderful day!!
this is really the best b'day i've ever had!!
i love u all so much.
muacks.
and just to tell u all,
for me material thinsg DO NOT matter!!
i just want to be surrounded wid love and wonderful ppl like whoever is reading all of these.
thanks alot.

although i am happy,
inside i am kinda sad.
someone who was actually so close to me did not even wish me.
last year he called me at midnight just to wish me.
BUT today he din even call me at the last min.
maybe he just dun want me in his life alr.
i am quite upset.
its hurts actually.
but maybe its gd this way.
its ok.
hope he's happy.

THANKS FOR EVERYTHING!!
special thanks to my lovely baby cause he made all this happen!!
i am so so happy u are in my life.
i am thankful GOD brought u back in my life.
muacks da.
i love u so much.
cant express how happy i am.
=)
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- Thursday, October 05, 2006 `x

my b'day cake at home!!

mummy gave me!

from sharon n misha.

baby bought this for me.

all the bears from baby, since we went on!

twinkle, teddy and bronze!

my bro went out so did not get to be in the pic.

uma, vinod and myself.

naughty me!!

pretty one and myself.

crazy frog and b'day gal!
u make me wanna kiss u so much!

i think i am LOOSING WEIGHT!!!

baby cld not sit properly n take a pic!

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Happy Birthday To Myself!!

me driving my bro's car.

vinod lucky u still alive!

wonder how i am able to smile always??
snappy!

thanks baby for the wonderful day!

vinod thinks he is CUTE!!
my lil brother!

we drinking alcohol!

after getting me all floured!!

baby's dare to drink!

vinod had to lick him!

no comments!

nod aka 'crazy frog' wanting to be a gal!

pls dun punch me!!

i'll shoot u down!!

oh whats happening!!

HELP!

looking at the calmness of the waters.

my own absolute vodka!

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- Tuesday, October 03, 2006 `x





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- Monday, October 02, 2006 `x

my sexy boy.

looking hot in his uniform!!

Kindly words, sympathizing attentions, watchfulness against wounding men's sensitiveness--these cost very little, but they are priceless in their value.
F.W. Robertson

some ppl find it so hard just to do all these stuff.
for example wounding men's sensitiveness,
the 20 year old gal is like making use of the 16 year old boy.
i mean he really thinks he is in love wid her and all.
aiyah what does she really want from him?
i really give up la.

anw today i woke up and played com a while.
was watching tv when my bro ask me to go buy for him season parking.
so i got ready and left for bukit merah.
i also bought stuff to do my banana and bread pudding.
i took a cab home.
i realised tt i din buy certain stuff so i headed to the market near my place to buy.
then i bought chicken rice for myself too.
after eating i started to do my B&B pudding.
it was not very hard making it.
then i placed it to steam.

i started to play SIMS again.
haha.
so addicted to it.
yummy.
after that i took out the pudding and let it to cool.
i tasted it and its ok but i guess i added too many bananas.
i totally forgot to take a pic of it.
its ok.
baby came to my hse after his camp wid his uniform.
i love it when he wears his uniform.
so handsome.
a pic for u guys to see too.
baby said that the B&B pudding is nice.
hmph.
i guess he really meant it,
cause i kept asking him again and again.
and he still said the same thing.

after sometime,
baby and i headed to 24hours cause there was no food in my hse.
we shared sambal beef fried rice.
damien came and baby screwed him up.
bloody ass scolded me cause of his stupid GF!!!
now got gf throw me aside!!
MONKEY!!
everyone was scolding him.
haha.
deserve it!!
after that we headed to the shelter and slacked.
jeri was wid us too.
then vinod and uma came.
we chatted n scolded damien.
stephen came.
after some time we went back.
uma and vinod came to my hse a while.
they ate the pudding.
uma said its nice and ok.
vinod said it was ok.
hmph its ok.
i understand.
i never steamed a cake or pudding before so bare wid me.

i enjoyed my day.
thanks alot.
esp wid my baby.
so nice.
i love u so much baby.
muacks.
u make my day.
u look so HOT wid ya uniform.

pls get a life ok.
u said u tolerated me all these years??
why the hell u keeping the stuff that happened until now??
grow up la.
arghh.
i really have better things to do.
i saw what u wrote wid my own eyes and u say otherwise.
so let it be.
call me a pretender??
ask yaself what are u then.

i am kinda sad and lost still.
dun know what to do.
maybe i am really thinking so much.
just leave it agatha.
be happy wid what u have.
i am happy wid what i have!!
but i feel like something is missing.
i mean i have always been thru this kinds of situations,
but why does it matter so much now?
sigh.
i pray and hope that everyone ard me is happy and safe always.
muacks.

+UPDATED at 2.30am

i feel so loved!!

mok thanks for everything da.

i love u alot too.

muacks.

thanks for being there for me!!

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- Sunday, October 01, 2006 `x



We make a living by what we get, we make a life by what we give.
Winston Churchill

do not always wants things.
at times try to give.
cause it will come back to u one day.
trust me it really happens.
if u do gd to others,
gd will come back to u.
and if u bad,
~evil laughter~
it will come back to u double as well.
for example u wanna be a total bitch by breaking up relationships be it family or couples,
u will get a broken nose!!
or maybe even worse to come!

Happy Childrens' Day!!
today i had a wonderful time wid baby.
i dun know why i cld not slp properly.
i kept waking up.
but at last i woke up at 1o plus.
cld not force myself to slp anymore alr.
i played sims on my lappy.
haha.
got hooked to the game alr.
i mean i wanted to play it long time ago alr.
ok after that baby lied to me saying that he wants to slp till 1pm,
BUT then he showed up outside my hse!!
piggie.
anw i had a feeling u will be coming like that alr.
i am really so lucky to have u as my bf.
thanks.

baby waited in my hse while i got ready.
then he went to cut his hair.
he looks so nice after cutting his hair.
hehe.
so short and smart.
then we headed to his aunty's place.
we were supposed to draw lots.
cause they are doing some money thingy.
dun know how to explain.
so i get the money at the end of sept next year.
whoohoo.
i am so happy cause i can celebrate my b'day.

after that i came back home and got ready to go bugis wid baby.
went to d'meyson to collect some free gift.
it was a gift spa voucher.
after that we went to take neoprint.
it was so fun.
after so long the both of us taking.
~i cant wait to take wid my gals also~
i am loving every single picture.
we walked ard bugis village a while.
saw many things tt i wanna buy.
very nice and gd price.
so will head there next week maybe.
if i can get cash.

we headed back to my hse first to change.
then we went to his aunt's place again.
nessa and i took pics.
i took wid baby also.
hehe.
so nice la.
i just love to spend time wid my babyboy.
was supposed to go watch movie tml,
but misha is going out so its ok.
i'll just stay at home and play my game.
may go and rent some vcds so tt i can watch.

i love u baby.
thanks for always making time for me.
i am really happy to be wid u.
i wish i can spend my whole life wid u.
thats what i am praying for.
really hope tt GOD has planned a wonderful future for us together!!
loving u always my babyboy.

i dun know whats happening!
maybe its just me.
why am i feeling like that?
ok fine i'll just move away.
i dun wanna be a burden or a pain in the ass.
enjoy.

+UPDATED
i heard the news of someone being wid a small boy.
i mean not literally small la.
but 16 years old.
and the gal is 20 years old!!
haha.
no offence to my other angel.
but this one i will explain to u ok.
anw u talk so much abt romance and all,
BUT I DUN UNDERSTAND WHAT U GET FROM HIM!!!
i just laugh when i heard the news!!





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