- Saturday, September 30, 2006 `x

Life is a great big canvas, and you should throw all the paint on it you can.
Danny Kaye

life is a painting where u are the artist.
and i am the artist of my life.
i decide what gets drawn onto the canvas and wat to be kept away.
and i am happy the way my life is going.
ppl ard me are always there for me.
and i am really so thankful!
i will continue to create the beautiful painting of my life.
so enjoy walking wid me through this journey.
and if u are reading this means u are impt in my life and deserve to share this journey wid me!

i woke up and got ready to head to baby's hse.
we were supposed to go check out fashion lab today.
so we did.
i met mummy & nessa at the expo first then baby came along.
after that baby and i headed to causeway point.
we went in search of fashion lab.
at last we found it,
BUT i did not find anything i liked.
so we headed to go and eat as i was starving!!
we went to yoshinoya. (sorry i think wrong spelling)
then we walked back home.

we watched lake house,
but cld not really see properly.
the picture quality is bad but i still watched.
i din quite understand the story as cld not hear properly also but i'll watch again.
baby slept through the movie as he was so tired!!
we stayed in his hse a while more.
i was playing wid nessa.
we were imitating the miss world candidates.
so funny la..
had dinner then headed to telok blangah.

i took my lappy outside my hse and used it wid baby.
checking on ppl and chatting.
haha.
after so long i chatted wid deepa.
so nice.
i had a wonderful chat.
anw after that baby n i headed to 24hrs as we were hungry.
we went to eat nasi lemak.
mok forgot me alr la.
aiyah i am so sad.
i dun wanna friend him alr!!!

overall i had a wonderful day.
tired but wonderful.
i am loving every minute of my life,
cause u will not know when it all ends.

*people dun have their own hse.
wanna go and stay in other ppl's hse.
what the hell!!
wonder what they tell to get in the hse.
must be crocodile tears!!
stupid ass.
grow up la.
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A pleasure is not full grown until it is remembered.
C.S. Lewis (submitted by cjcoxcpal)

today i felt so darn tired.
i woke up ate macs breakfast.
i played my com a while and then headed to bed again.
haha.
such a big pig!!
i was planning to go causeway point to check out fashion lab.
so i woke up and made my way there.
baby was so tired after his ippt.
i din force him to go also cause i know he is very tired.
we stayed in his hse and chatted instead.
i just feel so nice bein in his hse and chatting wid his family members.
i just love it so much!!
baby sent me home.
i love him so much.
baby thanks for everything dada.
u really make me feel so much better.
my endless love for u will never stop growing.

i am happy yet still lost.
dun know why.
i shld just stop thinking!!
arghh.
really hate this feeling.
i shld STOP!!
anw thanks for everything.
i am loving every moment of it.
although i still feel out of place but i enjoy myself.
muacks!!

*UPDATED!!
i totally forgot abt this but baby reminded me so i am going to write.
i helped baby fix his motorbike.
it was so dirty.
haha.
but it was fun doing stuff wid him.
after that we came back to the hse.
baby massaged my leg for me.
so shiok!!
he use some oil and rubbed my leg.
felt so gd.
thanks dada.
i love u so much!!
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- Thursday, September 28, 2006 `x

sitting in the big swinging chair.

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- Wednesday, September 27, 2006 `x



We are what we repeatedly do. Excellence, then, is not an act, but a habit.
Aristotle

try and try again.
dun give up.
if u really want something u have to try over n over again.
cause when u try there is a chance in acheiving it one day or another.
BUT when u give up,
u will not even have a slight chance in it.
so do not ever give up in anything that u want in ya life.

feeling so tired.
so i slept till 12pm.
baby was scolding me.
but he was making me a bigger pig by asking me to get up eat n all then head to bed again.
madness.
actually tts what i do if i have no where to go.
but i cld not head to bed back as i am supposed to go tekka wid mummy.
i helped my bro do his work and then got ready to go tekka.
met mummy and headed to collect out sarees.
i was ok wid the design except that the back is so high up.
but its ok.
not as if i wanna strip and show ppl.
but i like the colour so much.
tml we will be heading to another shop in kampong bahru.
wanna sew punjabi suit and also saree.
haha.
so traditional out of a sudden.
but i have yet to get my dream punjabi suit yet.
must go buy the materials.
short of cash now.
hopefully soon.
anw after collecting out sarees,
i headed to baby's hse.
cause mummy cooked bee hoon.
i love her bee hoon.
and baby called me to his hse for tt.
since i was so free and all i went there to eat.
the 960 from tekka was such a freaking long journey to woodlands.
then my head started to be painful.
arghh.
anw i got to spend time wid baby.
i love him so much.
baby followed me to buy sweets for the kids for tml.
after that,
baby sent me home just in time for my csi.
yay.
muacks dada.

pls dun do things out of pity.
i dun wanna be pitied!!
i want it to come from ya heart.
dun feel bad or anything.
i will be so happy just to see u happy.
i dun need fancy gifts or concern or attention.
all i need is ya love n care.
n i know its always there.
maybe i am a person who needs all those to be shown,
but i somehow or another will understand.
just want u to be happy.
when i see what is happening,
i get reminded of what it used to be.
sigh.
i dun know if what i am feeling is gd or bad but i am just feeling the way i do now!!
i am just praying.
thats all i can do.

shinaa dun worry.
if i think its the same person u are talking abt,
he will realise it one day.
and i will pray for u always ok.
jsut leave it to GOD!!

~heading to childcare tml.
i cant wait.
missing all those small ones.
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How To Be A Better Couple

10 steps to enjoying each other better...

1. Be realistic about each other.
Don't try to turn ur partner into something he or she is not. Let's face it, guys-there's only 1 Pamela Anderson in the world, and even she has had her implants removed! Give ur gal a break and understand that her physical appearance is NOT going to change overnite with the help of a few facials or treatments. And ladies, Brad Pitt has already been taken, so u're gonna have to do with what ur guy is like! Chill out, love each other for what u are. There is more to ur partner than what meets the eye.

2. Always talk things out.
Now guys, I know this is not ur fave pastime or mode of resolving issues, but u know what? This works with the gals. Don't make assumptions about each other's feelings. Learn to xpress urself better so that ur partner undrstands what u're angry about, or hurt about, or even happy about! When u stop talking to each other from the heart, it's the beginning of the end.

3. Do stuff together.
Make an effort to do t hings together. Do some sports or involve urselves in some shared activities; something both of u enjoy or are interested in. It could be as simple as watching movies together, or jus strolling hand-in-hand down Orchard Road. Watch soccor with him once in a while though the green patch on TV puts u to sleep in 3 seconds. And guys, do give in if ur gal asks for another day at window-shopping, rather than suggest that she go out with her girlfriends for "that sort of activities" instead. If u're spending more time with ur friends rather than with ur partner, it's a warning sign that u're drifting apart!!!

4. Meet each other halfway.
If he agrees to throw out that rotten T-shirt with the "The_Rock" print, u shouldn't kick up much of a fuss if he asks u to keep ur room tidy... There's gotta be a little giving and taking in a relationship, so learn to meet each other halfway.

5.Show ur love
Buy her flowers or candy or perfume everynow and then, even if u have been together for 5years. It's wonderful to continue showing someone that u care for him or her. Cook him a special meal, paint him a Valentine's Day card. Knit him mini-socks he can't wear ( like for decoration purposes => ), buy him a packet of milk for breakfast, or pack his wardrobe for him...so he knows u can still be romantic and loving despite having been together for quite a while.

6. Respect each other.
Stop making jokes about her hair or skin, or whatever it is u love to laugh at. Ask urself if she thinks if its funny. And if he has an inferiority complex about his height, stop ogling at tall guys and make him feel worse! Love is about respecting each other's feelings and being sensitive to each other at all times.

7. Bury the past.
Stop bringing up the past. Gals..don't bring up the happy things about u and ur ex to ur guy, it would jus make him jealous or unhappy. And guys, don't talk about the happy times that u had with ur ex or mention about her in ur every other sentence as it would make ur gal feel un-happy and she might think that u saying all this b'cos u are gonna get back with ur ex or not interested in her anymore.

8. Sit on ur jealousy.
All of us go thru' spells of insecurity at the beginning of the relationship, but don't translate that insecurity into jealousy. If u're gonna go through ur partner's mail and cupboard, and eavesdropping on conversations, u know something is wrong - with u!!! Jealousy is like a poison that slowly spreads thru' the relationship before finall y killing it. Trust ur partner; love has to have trust in it.

9. Keep ur commitments to each other.
If ur partner is standing u up all the time and cancelling dates and breaking promises, u need to talk! If u're in a relationship, make ur partner ur priority and don't disappoint them if u can help it. It's really terrible when someone promises to take u to dinner, and then calls to cancel it. Don't make promises u can't keep. If ur partner starts to feel that he/she is not important enough to u, u may jus lose him/her.

10. Be honest.
Honesty is not scowling at how awful she looks first thing in the morning, or telling him that he has the biceps of a fly~! When we say "be honest", we mean expressing <>ur feelings clearly, not being bitingly cruel. When u're hurt, say so, and when u're angry, tell him/her, w/o getting hysterical. If u can't be honest with ur partner, who can u be honest with? æ Love is also about honesty, and a relationship where no honesty exists probably isn't worth it!
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A friend hears the song in my heart and sings it to me when my memory fails
Pioneer Girls Leaders’ Handbook

i've been through this situation so many times.
my friends always knows what i am going thru and they intervene.
i am so grateful that i have friends like them.
they always say the right things to me when i really need them.
thanks alot for everything.

i woke up and supposed to head to NDC to pay my outstanding bill.
but my bro's friend was so sweet to pay for me.
she works there btw.
i was talking to misha and mok on conference.
mok kept making a fool of himself.
he said i din smallen the size.
then he said something which made me laugh like MAD!!
one of his dance grp members took basic tamil in sec sch and even failed it.
OH MY!!
and that guy was supposed to be my love!
how can he be like that.
~LOL~

so i got ready and met misha near my place.
we are going to mok's hse.
actually mok din know that misha was coming.
haha.
its was a surprise.
anw i msged grj to ask for mok's add and all.
after some time we showed up at his hse.
he was cleaning the hse and all.
so cute la he.
his hse is nice.
i like!!
we slacked in mok's hse all the way.
his mother is so nice.
i felt so at home.
she cooked for us and all.
so sweet la.
mok was supposed to plan the whole day for us but we ended up just staying in his hse.
but it was ok.
nice also.
anw aunty rani invited shawn to the hse and all.
she said he looks handsome and looks like a person who will take care of me n all.
which is so true.
he really takes care ok me.
anw grj came to his hse also.
then baby came.
it was so nice.
we took pics and all.
then i showed them the cd that baby did for me for our anniversary.

after that we headed home.
baby sent me home.
spent some time wid me in my hse then headed home.
i loved my day alot.
thanks darlings for making it a pleasant one.
muacks.

i am feeling all wierd.
dun know why also.
feel so left out in alot of stuff.
i mean i dun wanna be KPO and stuff but its just how i feel.
i feel i have been replaced.
but like what i told baby yesterday,
ppl come and go in my life.
i mean maybe not literally but move away.
sigh.
i get upset and all but i do not show it cause i dun wanna make the other party feel bad and all.
i mean its life.
so just live wid it.
i am happy for those who are ard me alr.

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this is what baby did for me for our 2 year anniversary.
watch and enjoy.
just wanna share my happiness wid u guys.
anw there is a song wid the video.
dun think u will be able to hear it wid my blog song also.

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- Tuesday, September 26, 2006 `x

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- Monday, September 25, 2006 `x



If you don't know where you are going, you might wind up someplace else.
Yogi Berra

plan what u wanna do and where u wanna go.
cause u dun wanna be lost.
even if u wanna confront someone,
plan and watch what u say.
cause if u say the wrong things,
u will be in the wrong.

i am so tired.
my whole body is aching.
its that time of the month.
i least i din have low blood pressure signs again.
it so much better this month.
maybe lesser stress after pushing alot of asses out of my life.
anw i tried to hybernate.
i just love doing it.
i woke up after that and started to do my bro's work.
i am being paid for doing his stuff.
yay.
it was quick.
anw nod called and said that he was on his way here.
so when he came i went and met him.
it was alright.
just spending time out of the hse instead of being a bum.
so thats it for the day.

baby i am missing u.
cant wait to see u.
and also get the cd.
love u so much da.
i keep smiling just to think abt the weekend.
thanks.

mok it was so nice to talk to u for so long.
its been long since we had talks like that.
i will be happy for u if u are happy.
i know u know wat i mean.
i love u alot n will stand by u no matter what ok.
muacks.
i cant wait for tml.
so excited.
u better be a gd host ok.

mega i am here for u gal.
dun be confused.
its not ya choice.
sometimes ppl are just selfish in thinking abt emselves.
GOD will take care of that ok.
pls be strong.
i'll be praying for u da.
i love u alot ok.
hang in there.

=( feeling kinda jealous these days.
is it right or is it wrong??
shld't i be happy??
i dun know.
maybe its just a normal feeling.
i mean since i am a jealous person esp for those who are so close to me.
sigh.
i dun wanna have this feeling,
i wanna be happy for the ones i love.
i want them all to be happy too.
and i know they will.
so i will stop feeling like tat.
i love u guys so much.
muacks.
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- Sunday, September 24, 2006 `x



Saturday

Dreams are but thoughts until their effects be tried.
William Shakespeare (submitted by BRADBEST)

my dream came through wid baby today.
i spent one whole day wid him.
although we din have much monye to spend but it was wonderful and all worth while.
thanks baby for making my dream come true.

in the morning i woke up and got ready to go to the bank and all.
i had a cheque to cash in.
i realised i cant put in the cheque.
as i din have acc wid ocbc.
anw i headed to tekka after that.
i pushed myself to go as i was alr out.
when i came back baby and i were planning where and how to go.
i was kinda irritated.
i dun know why suddenly n all.
but after some time i was ok.

i got ready while baby headed to TB to fetch me.
i was so excited.
it was all so nice.
it was still like a dream.
anw baby fetched me and we went to balestier.
we booked in to the hotel.
it was so nice.
last min my dad say he cld not transfer me the money,
so baby went all the way to my hse and collected it.
when he got back,
we got ready for our dinner.
we took pics before and after we got ready.
we decided not to take the bike,
as we wanted to sip drinks and all.
so we took a cab and headed to kensinton park.
we were supposed to eat at ice3 but the place looks so down and all.
so we settled for country mana instead.
we took the window seat.
hehe.
then started to take pics and all.
i took pics of the food too.
anw the food was average.
quality really dying off.
the last pic we asked the waitress to take for us.
and it was nice too.

after that we walked out and took a cab to town.
we wanted to meet vinod and uma there.
that ass made us wait quite long as he went to eat.
dumb ass.
then we walked all the way near orchard towers to meet matthew.
i never fail to laugh whenever he is ard.
when we met him,
he wanted to hold baby's hands.
haha.
i was laughing so loud la.
that guy ah.
then we bought some drinks and sat down.
matthew went to fetch his gf and came back.
we chatted a while.
took some pics and then the both of us left alr.
baby and i headed back to the hotel.
when we came back,
i asked him to sit in the toilet as i wanted to do his surprise in the room.
so he sat there waiting,
while i was placing candles ard the room and all.
i did it as fast as possible.
when it was done,
i called him out wid his eyes closed.
when he opened his eyes,
he was shocked and so happy.
i think u can see in the pic.
baby said that he wanted to do something like that for me also.
anw we both keep thinking of the same things to do.
we wanted to surprise each other for dinner,
do the candle stuff and so many other things.
haha guess we think alike.

~~Lights Out~~

Sunday

I like nonsense; it wakes up the brain cells.
Dr. Seuss

i am a nonsense person.
haha.
so it always wakes me up!!

Happy 2 Year Anniversary Baby!!
Thanks For Standing By Me & Making Me Happy Always!!
Muacks =)
Happy Birthday Joavan!!
Loving U Always!!

today we woke up at abt 10am.
caused we had to check out at 12pm.
but we did earlier anw.
we got ready and all.
after that we went to eat at a prata shop near the hotel.
i called mok and was acting all bad.
hah.
but he din know that we were going to surprise him.
we pre planned everything alr.
after breakfast,
we headed to TB.
baby went to stephen's hse to rest while i had my shower and watched my csi.
yeah at last i got to watch it properly.
after all the csi and all,
i got ready and left wid baby.
we went to baby's hse.
he showered and all.
baby gave me a surprise!!
i was so touched!
he left me sit in front of the come wid my eyes closed.
then he asked me to click something and let it run.
and asked me to open my eyes.
it was so sweet.
he did like a video clip of our pictures and also msges for me.
my tears were on their way up to my eyes.
i felt so loved and fortunate to have him as my bf.
i kept smiling and smiling.
i just cld not stop.

after some time,
we left and headed to yishun.
misha was late.
as usual!!
baby and i were hanging ard the cc.
but we were outside as we din wanna see mok.
but when we were sitting outside the macs there,
he came out was so close to us but din recoginse us.
then he went back in.
he so blur!!
so we ran away and hid behind the bushes.
but he found out and came running.
haha.
i cld see the happiness in his face.
he must be thinking,
'at last agatha came!'
cause he always ask me but i will not go for indian shows.
anw misha came and he saw her too.
haha.
he said now the stage will be on fire!!
mok also saw his melons.
=)
after talking and all,
we headed to go in.
we sat and was waiting for the show.
quite draggy actually.
but i was just waiting so anxiously for mok's dance.
when he danced,
i cld not take my eyes off him!!
hair all bouncy!!
i was so excited.
mok danced like a gal also.
i mean tts what the grp supposed to do.
damn cute la.
i think mok u shld go n change ya sex alr.
yayness.
i also knew i was going to see unwanted ppl.
arghh.
but its ok.
i cld not be bothered at all wid their presence!!
mok u better be happy i come ok.
see i come and have to face alot of annoying faces!!
u ah.
but i am still happy to come.
cause i got to meet ya mummy!!
so nice.
i got so many hugs from many ppl.
so loved!
and it was the first time watching u dance.
and i am not regretting it at all.
haha.
anw i am sorry for biting u!
hehe.
u deserve it for hugging me so tightly.
pandi.
oh mok got 4th place.
its ok.
i think its politics.
but at least got top 5 what.
better than nothing.
anw after the competition,
we walked all the way to the interchange.
mok and his family went home,
while misha, baby and i had dinner.
after that misha went home and baby and i too.

i enjoyed my whole weekend.
no words can describe the feeling.
i am feeling so gd.
when baby gives me the cd,
i will try to upload the video for u guys to watch ok.
so swt.
just wanna share it wid ppl close to my heart.
dun worry its not a porn video or watso ever.
its clean and sweet!!
ok now i am heading to bed.
so tired and whole body aching!!
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misha and mok.
mok giving a sombong look.

smiley!!

same expression always!!

threesome!!

yummy yummy.

mokkie i love u so muuch!!

i know u were so surprised!!

waiting for the monkey misha.

i loving every moment.

baby's place.

just loving it.

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lamp wid herbs.

chocolate ice cream.

thanks to the waitress for the pic.

wid our drinks!!

sweet.

yummy.

matthew and baby.

baby was so happy and shocked!!

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- Friday, September 22, 2006 `x



A male driver is pulled over by a cop and the following conversation takes place:
Man: What's the problem officer?
Cop: You were going at least 75 in a 55 zone.
Man: No sir, I was going 65.
Wife: Oh Peter. You were going 80.(Man gives his wife a dirty look.)
Cop: I'm also going to give you a ticket for your broken tail light.
Man: Broken tail light? I didn't know about a broken tail light!
Wife: Oh Peter, you've known about that tail light for weeks.(Man gives his wife a dirty look.)Cop: I'm also going to give you a citation for not wearing your seat belt.
Man: Oh, I just took it off when you were walking up to the car.
Wife: Oh Peter, you never wear your seat belt.
Man: Shut your mouth, woman!
Cop: Ma'am, does your husband always talk to you this way?
Wife: No, only when he's drunk.
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Experience is not what happens to a man. It is what a man does with what happens to him. Aldous Huxley

i was so sleepy and stressed that i used today's inspiratonal quote for yesterday's entry.
so the above one is for yesterday and the one u read in the 21stsept's post is for today.
tts why i feel quite funny when i was writing the previous post.
anw my experiences are making me a better person.
i really get to understand how evil ppl in this world can get.
they really say mean stuff and turn to very evil ways just to bring another down.
its really sad.
and no matter what i will never turn to such ways just to get my revenge.
and i dun think of revenge.
i believe in karma.
some ppl just keep saying they believe wat goes ard comes ard,
but they are just uttering rubbish.
cause they do not wait for the punishment to hit but they inflict the punishment themselves.
everything that is happening in my life is just really making me a better person.
i am really so happy that GOD always shows me a sign.
i am at least grateful for that.

today i slacked at home only.
i was supposed to go settle some stuff but i was not in the mood.
i was supposed to meet sister to catch up wid stuff also,
but i just have so much in my mind.
feel like i am going to burst any moment.
baby was so worried for me that he came and see me.
spent tiem wid him a while.
he was really there for me.
thanks da.
but i still have so much in my head.
one side my family,
another side ppl trying their best to ruin my life and relationship.
i dun care abt the other ppl la.
they can just die for all i care.
i feel my family is falling apart.
i am so scared.
its all so confusing and complicated!!
i really dun know what to do.
i feel so helpless.
why cant everything just be ok??
arghh.
so sick and tried of all this.
just feel like running away.
i cant face all this anymore.
my brothers say that ppl r old enuff and can think for emselves and also have their own free will.
BUT why?
why this??
aiyah i am so tired of thinking and worrying.
my chest pain is acting up again.
its all too much for me to handle.
i just really thank misha and baby for being there for me.
esp for this prob tt i am going thru.
i guess misha kinda saw another side of me.
haha.
this is life i guess.
i think that i keep thinking of all the stuff so much and just get myself worried.
and tts why i get my chest pain and all.
i guess i have to calm down more.
i just place all the probs on my shoulder and it becomes a heavy burden.
sigh.
that is so like me!!
but i am happy t o have friends and my baby by my side.
thanks so much!!!

=)mokkie u better be free next week ok.
oh else i will kick ya ass.
i might be coming down to ya place since u came here last time.
we can hang out.
haha.
i love u so much ok.
muacks.
=)grj since i am going to come there u better be free also ok.
missing u angel.
=)misha my sweet love.
thanks for today.
hearing me out n all.
dun freak out abt what happened ok.
thanks so much.
i am missing sharon also.


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- Thursday, September 21, 2006 `x



Nothing gives one person so much advantage over another as to remain always cool and unruffled under all circumstances.
Thomas Jefferson

i am amazed that the inspirational quotes are always there to help me wid my life.
its like god sent msges for me.
anw i am being cool and calm.
ppl are just trying to implicate me but i am not giving up or giving in!!
i keep saying that they can try as much as they want but they will never win.
i've learnt to be more calm and think positively.
things are looking good on my side even though ppl are trying to make it bad.
i will keep my calm in all situations as much as i can.
cause i know i will win this in the end.

on the bus to baby's hse w/ my new hairdo.

so cute.

i received this pic in an e-mail.

u want some of me??

i dun think u r even worth.

i woke up having the feeling to go cut my hair.
so i did.
when i was on the way there,
nessa msged me and ask me to come to their hse as mummy wanted to talk to me.
i was wondering why but baby called and then told me.
sigh.
some ppl trying to create probs again.
its ok.
they are just doing harm to emselves and not me.
la la la.
after cutting my hair i bought food for my brothers and myself.
i got ready and left for baby's hse.
when i was at his hse,
it felt very diff.
after the talk and all.
i was sad.
sad to hear all those stuff coming from the one i loved like my own.
sigh.
its ok.
i guess this is life.
anw she is the one trying to do all this shit.
i was so waiting for baby to return home.
i felt so lonely w/o him.
and when he came i was relieved.
thanks dada.
i came home by taxi as it was late and baby was tired also.
i love baby so much.
w/o him i think i wld have failed in many things.
thanks ma.
i am tired.
gd night.
=)

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- Wednesday, September 20, 2006 `x



Only I can change my life. No one can do it for me.
Carol Burnett

i am the only one who can change my life.
ppl can be by my side and help me but i am the one who makes the difference in my own life.
now i am making a decision by not caring abt ppl who are trying to spoil my life.
they are not going to get the better of me.
they can rant all they want.
which they are doing right now in their blogs and over the phone.
i am happy that ppl close to my heart are by my side being there for me.
i am strong but now i am stronger.
just wanna say thanks to everyone who stayed by me.
u know who u are.

Happy birthday Elias (my norway cousin) & lesley.
today i stayed at home earlier in the day.
i am just bored.
so i keep slping.
haha.
i just play games and slp and eat.
tts what i am good at.
sharon left so cambodia.
missing her so much.
havent seen her for the whole hols.
anw after my afternoon nap,
i got ready to meet baby.
going to go ikea.
yay.
i met baby at ikea.
i was late cause of the bus.
baby was waiting patiently i shld say.
after that we headed to look for my rocking chair and computer table.
i was suppose to buy a table lamp also but the bulb costs 12 bucks while the lamp costs only 6!!
no logic!!
so i only got the table and the rocking chair.
i've been wanting a rocking chair since i was so young but never gotten one.
so here it is.
to me its not childish or wat so ever.
anw after buying all,
we went to eat at BK.
was so freaking hungry.
i took a cab home while baby rode his bike.
baby came to my hse and helped me fix the table and chair.
thanks alot my love.
if u din help me no one wld have.
we din mistakes but we were able to amend it all.
haha.
damn funny la.
i really enjoyed my time wid baby.
be it the trip to ikea or fixing up the stuff.
i just loved every moment of it.
thanks ma.

i am missing mok alot!!
i dun know why but i just do.
anw yesterday night i msged him before i slpt but he called me within a min.
he said that he actually tot of me n woke up but then he saw my msg.
he says i can predict things and all.
but i think i can wid him involved.
thanks mok for making me smile before going to slp.
love u alot.
better make time for me next week ok.
and a great big hug!!
=)
dun know what to do for baby tis weekend.
our 2 year anniversary.
sigh.
ran out of ideas.
aiyah nvm.
will think of something to do.
ok i am going to turn in.
this weekend will have more pics to see ok.
cheers.
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- Tuesday, September 19, 2006 `x



When the only tool you own is a hammer, every problem begins to resemble a nail.
Abraham Maslow

for me the trust, love and strength is my hammer.
and all the ppl who are giving me probs are similiar to the nails.
i am glad i have my loved ones beside me esp my baby.
he is really patient and helping me through it all.
actually we are doing it together.
and thanks for those who have been praying and helping us too.

today i just slacked at home.
dun know why but i am feeling so tired.
so i just sleep, play com and slp again.
now i feel better.
haha.
anw baby complained to me abt some prank calls he have been receiving today.
some gal keep calling and calling him baby and all.
then ask him to leave me and all.
say i am not gd and stuff like that.
baby spread her number ard.
haha.
these ppl really no life la.
such asses!!
why cant they have something better to do?
maybe they are just so interested in our lives and actually trying to break us up.
haha.
try harder like how i say earlier also.
nothing much happened today but i am missing alot of ppl.
anw tml i might be going ikea to buy some stuff wid baby.
cant wait.

*missing my baby.
my lil bro mokkie.
my angel grj.
my wonderful sweeties misha and sharon.
and the kids in the child care.

UPDATED!!
i just watched just my luck and take the lead.
i am bored.
anw baby said he saw the bitchs' face today at yishun.
and she had the guts to wave and say hi to him!!
such a big hypocrite!!
never seen one like that before.
LAMER!!
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baby did this for me in sentosa.

i am so touched!!

this one confirm damien and vinod did.

awwweee so cute!!

so yummy!!

view from cable car.

look up!!

nice pose!!

our last grp pic.

wat was all this suppose to mean??

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- Monday, September 18, 2006 `x

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• Monday

Courage is not the towering oak that sees storms come and go; it is the fragile blossom that opens in the snow.
Alice Mackenzie Swaim

Baby, vinod, damien, mok, misha and myself we went to sentosa today.
was fun.
and like the phrase says i need loads of courage.
its really breaking me.
alot of things happening in my life.
alot of complication and probs.
i am so stressed.
but i am happy i have got my family, friends and baby by me still.
i had lots of fun in sentosa.
played twister which misha brought.
it was fun.
entangled in alot of knots and all.
then we went to eat at harbour front interchange.
nice.
i was so hungry that i finished eating all my food and also din not talk through out.
haha.
everyone was amazed!
anw i had a good day.

• Wednesday

Dance like no one is watching, Love like you'll never be hurt, Sing like no one is listening, Live like it's heaven on earth.
William Purkey

this phrase is really for me.
it is teaching me how to love and be strong for the ppl ard me and esp myself.
thanks baby.

today we met vinod after so long.
we went to watch Little Man.
darn funny.
i really enjoyed it.
except that my mind keep drifting away and coming back but i am still good.
after the movie we just hang ard town.
then we sat at starbucks and chatted.
it was so fun disturbing vinod.
suddenly my chest pain and all came back.
arghh why am i going thru all this.
i am so confused wid all this stuff happening.
someone help me.
after that vinod went home, baby and i headed to PS cause we were suppose to meet his camp friends.
it was so nice meeting them.
we went to Istana Park and had drinks.
suresh, matthew and izzan were very friendly and funny.
i am so glad i met them.
this grp is one of the best grp of friends baby has.
i can really see that they really care for him.
it was really nice to know that baby has ppl to look after him in camp.
i had a wonderful time.
but when i was wid them i suddenly felt the confusion again.
kept pushing baby away.
but its ok.
he was there to be strong for me.
and we fought the feeling together.
his camp friends were so funny.
we played truth or dare.
they kept asking nonsense questions.
but it was so fun.
we went home at abt 5 am in the morning.

• Thursday

Whenever you fall, pick something up.
Oswald Avery

i am trying to pick myself up wid the help of my baby and others ard me.
i am really trying so hard.
really need alot of strength for all the shit i am going thru.
i know alot of outsiders are so happy i am being like that and all.
but i am still strong.
no one is going to break me.
i will stand strong and beat u in anything.
i still dun understand why ppl just wanna break relationships and so happy abt it.
r u saddist??
i dun understand.
no matter what i know GOD is wid me through it all.

anw today baby and i suppose to meet mok and misha to watch tamil movie.
but we got stuck in the rain and only reached there when it was half way thru the movie.
so we decided to go eat instead.
we ate at tappenyaki. (think tts how u spell)
it was super food as we were wet and it was so filling.
after that we met mok and misha a while.
then we left.
mok i always love the hugs i receive from u.
make me feel so nice and loved.
i love u so much ok mok.
muacks.
after that we went back to baby's hse.
actually while we were waiting for mok and misha,
baby and i shopped for his daddy's present and for my bro too.
we bought daddy a cup and a card too.
we bought for my bro a card.
i enjoyed myself in baby's hse.
we surprised daddy at 12am for his b'day.
it was so nice.
i think u all saw the pics alr.
so now just updating.
anw mummy ask me to stay over so i did.
cause i was so tired also.
it was so nice.
i feel so loved and all.
i enjoyed every moment wid baby's family.
i love em so much.

• Friday

Age is all imagination. Ignore years and they'll ignore you.
Ella Wheeler-Wilcox

Happy Birthday Daddy!!
thanks for being there for me and baby.
u r like my real father.
i love and respect u so much!!
muacks.
like the inspiration says age is just imagination.
even if u are 51 its ok.
we still love u no matter what.

morning baby sent me home and he spent time wid me in my hse.
my labtop came today.
yayness.
i was waiting for it for so long.
then in the evening we went to baby's hse.
had dinner and all.
i had fun again.
then baby sent me home.
when i got home,
i saw mant tags in my blog.
i dun know what i did to ppl now.
sigh they are just so free.
lame asses!!
anw some bitch also tagged me and said its not her and all.
what the hell.
u wanna say like that means u so guilty rite??
haha anw u r just so stupid la.
use same IP add but diff name to tag me!
stupid sia.
u will get all of it back one day.
watever it is i know u r not happy wid me and also very jealous cause i stayed over and all.
haha.
good for u.
but u cant do anything abt it BITCH!!
try harder to break us up.
u will never achieve it.
NEVER!!

• Saturday

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- Sunday, September 17, 2006 `x

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- Tuesday, September 05, 2006 `x



Reality is merely an illusion, albeit a very persistent one.
today i had a wonderful yet tiring day.
first of all i woke up early and went to meet my mum in novena.
i offered flowers for mother mary as i prayed for my driving.
after that went to eat in tekka.
saw her friend.
so funny that aunty.
then after that i went to bbdc to make my licence.
after that i went to woodlands to meet my brother.
we took the car then went to fetch my mum and daddy.
later we went to the changi chalet.
it was the same one as we went when we were very young.
anw we ate our dinner there.
after that we went back home.
half way i drove my bro's car.
i was so happy when he let me drive.
haha wat a good experience.
anw i drove all the way back home.
the car was quite ok la.
excpt the clutch tts all.
i love it.
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- Monday, September 04, 2006 `x



Pleasure in the job puts perfection in the work.
Aristotle

oh my the inspiration quote really worked for me today.
i really took pleasure in doing what i did today and I PASSED!!
yay.
at last.
i passed wid 16 points.
shld be 8 but one last mistake i did which caused me another 8 points.
at least that din cause me to fail.
my family and baby are so happy for me.
i am so happy for myself.
i cant believe it.
tml i will go & make my licence cause i din bring money today.
i am so damn tired now.
i din slp yesterday cause of the tension and excitement.
now i can slp peacefully.
am so so happy.
ok i din do anything else cause i was so darn tired.
so i just slept.
so thank u all for ya prayers and wishes.
muacks.
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- Sunday, September 03, 2006 `x



To err is human; to refrain from laughing, humane.
Lane Olinghouse

i woke up just in time to get ready for my driving lesson.
i was feeling a tad bit of nervousness alr.
sigh.
dun know how i will be feeling tml.
anw driving was gd.
feeling confident and all.
the feeling is so much better than the pervious one.
after driving i just had a feeling that baby was going to come pick me up,
and i was so right.
he was waiting for me outside bbdc.
so happy to see him.
yay.
baby sent me home.
then we met the gang in TB and after having lunch.
it was really fun.
i only get to see them once in a while even though they stay just blocks away from me.
i came back and got ready to go Novena.
there is this huge procession for Mother Mary every year ard this time.
last year i din go as i was sick so i really made it a point to go this year.
no excuses.
i had alot of fun wid my cousin joavan and irenaeus.
real fun to be wid them.
anw i am looking forward to the chalet.
cant wait.
after the procession,
my whole family went to banana appollo and ate dinner.
it was splendid.
i ate so much and was so freaking full.
now i am feeling quite nervous n all.
i hope i can slp and have rest.
i hope everything goes well tml for me!!
pls pray for me.
my test is at 1.55pm so if i dun reply u means i am not done.
so wish me luck.
take care n will update tml.
hope it will be gd news.
love u all so much.

*i heard my angel grj was at the procession together wid laxhmi but i din get to see them.
so sad.
sigh.
tml i will see if i can come for the shine jesus shine ok.
hope to see u all there also.
muacks.
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- Saturday, September 02, 2006 `x



Habit is habit and not to be flung out of the window by any man, but coaxed downstairs a step at a time.
Mark Twain

i woke up and went to novena today.
i missed all the nine weeks of it,
so i decided to go for the last one before the procession.
i went wid mummy.
i saw this toddler who was so cute.
i think she is a special needs child but she looks so cute.
i prayed for and her family too.
anw after going to novena i feel so much better.
much more at ease.
i feel like i have left all my burdens and probs in church after praying.
i feel good and fresh.
after church we went to eat in tekka.
then we headed to ps to this fashion.
i bought a top there.
very nice.
then we came home.
mum told me that we might be going for dinner for daddy's b'day which was yesterday.
i came home n slpt a while.
was darn tired.
woke up and found out that we were not going out to eat as my sec bro went out.
so we ordered food back home.
i just watched some drama on central.
damn lame actually.
i am going to slp now cause tml i have driving and also going for the procession in the evening.

*mok i alr said it will be hard for me to be angry wid u so dun worry.
yesterday was not ya fault n i was not angry wid u.
when u told me how u n aswad reacted i was feeling bad.
anw aswad and mok no need to say sorry on behalf of ya friends.
if they do not realise u dun need to say for them.
its really ok.
dun worry about it ok.
chill guys.

~motivated~
i am pushing myself in my driving.
i wanna do it right.
i dun wanna have another try.
i wanna get over wid it.
now i am clouded wid so many things on my mind.
i wish to put it all down tml.
look forward and never have to turn back ever again.
i am tired.
i am in pain.
i wish u were here.
to be in ya arms and make me feel all better.
guess this is not our week,
cause we are so busy.
its cool i understand.
maybe next week i'll get to see u.
just wanna say i am missing u more than ever.
my head has been giving me probs again.
sigh when is it ever going to go away.
i will take it as long as i can.
~strong~

GOOD NIGHT!!
SWEET DREAMS =)
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- Friday, September 01, 2006 `x



Only those who dare to fail greatly can achieve greatly.
Robert F. Kennedy

yes i agree too.
when u fall then u realise and will learn ya mistake.
failure is a stepping stone to success.
and i am proud to say that i have failed many times in life but during that time i learnt and brought myself up.
never did the same mistake again.
but of course wid the support of everyone ard me.

today i had driving after 2 months plus.
it was good and i enjoyed it.
feeling more confident.
my instructor helped me alot.
after that my body was aching so much.
after driving i headed to baby's hse.
i was supposed to teach nessa but instead we sat down and chatted for so long.
had so much of things to talk to mummy & daddy.
thanks for being there for me.
i really missed u all so much.
so long never come there & all.
we had so so much to say.
anw dun worry i am much stronger now and i know what i am facing.
thanks for everything.
so i din teach nessa but had a very long conversation wid her, mummy & daddy.
i loved every single minute actually.
it was so fun.
although i enjoyed my day,
i was in pain cause of the weather and the driving after so long.
after all that i headed home.
i was just in time to wish my daddy.
yay.
his b'day and its teachers' day.

*missing baby so much.
oh i finished the book i read and i loved it so much.
was so nice.
yay.
now to another book.
cant wait.

UPDATED!!
~mok~
yes i agree that our conversation are getting more hilarious.
i always look forward to it every single time.
despite our busy lives and schedules,
we still make time for each other.
i love translating eng songs to tamil and vice versa.
it can really make me laugh so much that my chest hurts.
sigh.
enjoy ya weekend dear.

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If you want to make peace, you don't talk to your friends. You talk to your enemies.
Moshe Dayan

i dun create enemies.
its their who create probs for themselves.
u can talk bad abt me can carry all for all i care.
cause i know nothing is going to make them realise anything or will make them stop!!

happy birthday my lovely daddy.
thanks for everything that u have done for me and my life.
its also teachers' day.
which means its MY day!!
haha and all my fellow classmates too.

woke up and headed to driving.
was rushing but made it in time.
it was good.
bum and leg are very painful though.
sigh i will motivate myself no matter what.
after driving nessa called and asked me to go town wid her.
of course i will go wid her la.
she my angel what.
so i went to meet her at woodlands.
on the way to woodlands in the mrt,
i saw this child who was very smart.
so cute.
he said mummy we r not horses cause we dun stay in the turf club,
we are human beings.
aiyo that boy had a slang also.
so cute i was just laughing and smiling.
then i saw clifton and sathiya.
so talked a while then headed to town.
we waited so long at the repair place.
arghh cld die of boredom but i was wid nessa.
anw after that we headed to tekka.
did my eyebrows.
was very pissed wid the person.
so annoying.
after that we headed home.
nessa took mrt to go home.
and i took the bus.
in the bus i saw mohaan.(think tts how u spell it)
so i came home and now i am blogging.
hahah will go rest soon.
damn tired and whole body aching!!

oh ya me and my bros bought my daddy a ipod for his b'day.
he was so shocked and happy.
am glad he liked it.
muacks my daddy love.
thanks for everything in my life.
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