Did you ever look at a picture of yourself and see a stranger in the background? It makes you wonder how many people have pictures of you. There are so many times when you feel that you are out of place somehow or another. When you think of what you have done, there is nothing that comes to your mind as you know you didnt do anything. Cause the situation and tension just change all of a sudden. So what should you do about it? Just leave it and carry on with you life? Talk to the people who are making you feel such a way? Or just suck it up and ignore it all?

I guess it comes down to each single individual. To a certain extend it will affect you, and after some time of being like that I guess you will just ignore it. What is the point of thinking so much about it when it is going to be of no use? And if you talk to the people involve in it, how sure are you that you will be able to accept what they will say? So it comes down to my previous post, about accepting the truth.

So many things keep popping up in my world. People keep coming to me and telling me stuff about their problems. I am not saying I do not wanna hear any of it, but the more I hear the more I think about it. And when I know I cannot do anything to make things better, I go bonkers and think even more!! I know I drive MYSELF nuts, and no one else is doing that to me!

This is who I am! I think so much of others that I tend to forget about myself and my health. I wanna help as much as I can and at times I feel I am being taken advantage of. How sure are you that the person is telling the truth? Or just saying things to gain sympathy? I guess I will never know and it is down to that person. I will just take everything in. That's me!

The important thing is not to be bitter over life's disappointments. Learn to let go of the past, and recognize that every day won't be sunny. And when you find yourself lost in the darkness of despair, remember, it's only in the black of night that you see the stars, and those stars lead you back home.

'There are things that I heard and what is past is past and it will not affect me. People do make mistakes and I do not want to brood over it. Even I have made mistakes, so who am I to judge you? Thank you for everything no matter what happened in the past.' -Oreo-

If I'm gonna live in the moment,
I wanna live it with you!
10:34 PM

Are you strong enough to hear the truth? Even if you are strong, are you willing enough to accept it? I guess somehow or another, it will affect you. For myself, I keep finding out certain truths and it hurts and shocks me here and there.

At times when I know certain truths, I am shocked that I never knew all of it and why must things come suddenly.I try my very best to keep calm and acknowledge the issue, but it never stops me from worrying or feeling upset. Certain things I cannot really digest it in and I think about it alot and mostly all the time. I do not know how to overcome it at times.

I keep re-playing it over and over in my head and it hurts so much. How can I ever overlooked that in my whole life? It always crossed my mind but never did I know the truth till recently. I am so at lost and do not know what to do about it. Sometimes when I think too much, I feel its overwhelming and that I need to see a Shrink. But, then again, I guess this is all small matters compared to those who really are in need of that kind of help.

It truely hurts from deep withing and its really killing me so much. I need to get it out of me. Everything is just building up inside of me and I am so scared that I will burst out soon, and there will be no turning back. And I seriously do not want that to happen ever.

Please help me! I am in need to talk. In need to open up my heart and show what's buried in there for many years now. On the other hand, I need to be left alone and away from all the hurt, lies and fakeness!!

If I'm gonna live in the moment,
I wanna live it with you!
8:23 AM

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If I'm gonna live in the moment,
I wanna live it with you!
5:55 PM

1. Nite - Sleep with air-con; Day - Bathe with heater on

2. Day - Cannot Wake up; Nite - Cannot Sleep

3. Cigarettes - Convenient to buy; not convenient to smoke

4. Chewing Gum - Can Chew, Cannot buy?? (Restrictions on buying)

5. Smell Of rubbish besides letterboxes; Rubbish inside Letterbox

6. Private Cars - Cheaper & Cheaper to Buy, harder & harder to Maintain

7. Education - Teachers teaching Less but expects students to learn More

8. High-tech barbaric singaporeans - know how to use state-of-the art equipment, but dunno how to use a simple dustbin or a toilet

9. There are quite a number of rich/poor in spore -! They have C! ar, Credit , Card, CPF .... but no Cash and lots of loans

10. Translation is needed between Singaporean Chinese and Mainland China Chinese

11. Sporean never like to vote, but like to complain

12. Half Sporeans rushed to buy Hello kitty, but the other half busy killing stray cats

13. Public Bus - Half the Crowd squeeze in front section of the Bus, Second section is for Carrying Ghost

If I'm gonna live in the moment,
I wanna live it with you!
4:54 PM

Today after getting all of Pope Benedict's luggage loaded into the Limo,the driver notices that the Pope is still has not entered the Limo.
'Excuse me, Your Holiness,' says the driver, 'Would you please take your seat so we can leave ?'.
'Well, to tell you the truth,' says the Pope, 'they never let me drive at the Vatican, and I'd really like to drive today.
''I'm sorry, Your Holiness, but I can't let you do that. I'd lose my job!'.
'Who's going to tell ?' says the Pope with a smile.
Reluctantly, the driver gets in the back as the Pope climbs in behind the wheel. The driver quickly regrets his decision when, after exiting the airport, the Pontiff floors it, accelerating the Limo to 105 mph.
'Please slow down, Your Holiness!' pleads the worried driver, but the Pope keeps the pedal to the metal until they hear police sirens.
'Oh, dear God, I'm going to lose my license -- and my job!', moans the driver.
The Pope pulls over and rolls down the window as the cop approaches, but the cop takes one look at him, goes back to his Motorcycle, and gets on the radio.
'I need to talk to the Chief,' he says to the dispatcher.
The Chief gets on the radio and the cop tells him that he's stopped a Limo going 105.
'So bust him,' says the Chief.
'I don't think we want to do that, he's really important,' said the cop.
The Chief then asked, 'Who do you have there, the mayor ?'
Cop: 'Bigger.'
Chief: 'A senator ?'
Cop: 'Bigger.'
Chief: 'The President ?'
Cop: 'Bigger.
''So,' said the Chief, 'Who is it ?'
Cop: 'I think it's God!'
The Chief is even more puzzled and curious, 'What makes you think it's God ?
''Well', said the Cop: His chauffeur is the Pope!'.

If I'm gonna live in the moment,
I wanna live it with you!
4:40 PM

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If I'm gonna live in the moment,
I wanna live it with you!
6:59 PM

Its been quite long since I really fell ill. Now, I am having slight fever, sore throat and flu. Arghhh!! I took MC today and stayed at home. I wanted to cook beef sauce and fry chicken, but unfortunately there was no gas. So much for wanting to cook. So mike bought for me food. Thanks.

This friday we will be having National Day celebrations at work and this is the first time we are doing it for our kids. I think its going to be fun and it is a good way for the parents to mingle around. But for this to be a success, we need to do loads of work. It will be fine.

Last Sunday, my brother, his gf, baby and myself went for Singfest not to watch the concert but to sell the tickets off. *LOL* We were lining up and nearing the enterance already and we realised that the tickets sold there quite high and people would want it lower, so we sold all four tickets. I know you people must be wondering why on earth did we do that. BUT we were not at a loss, we earned actually. Anyway it was worth it.

This weekend is going to be a tiring one for me again. On friday, we will be having the celebrations and then maybe dinner for my aunt. Saturday, Baby plan to go to esplanade so that we can watch the fireworks and will be having picnic by the bay. Yippie!! And on Sunday, someone is doing for their 4 year old child a party and my dept was invited, so I will be going. I actually took my in lieu for National Day on monday, but I realised I will be having too many kids on that day, moreover baby will have to work too. So I took on tuesday instead.

I better get some rest now or else I will not be able to go work tomorrow. =)

If I'm gonna live in the moment,
I wanna live it with you!
6:27 PM

I am back in contact with some people whom I have lost contact with, or I would say I chose not to have contact with them. But I am glad I took a chance. Cause I am very happy to have that person back in my life again.

Thank you so much for being there for me always no matter what. Times have changed and now I am trying to be there for you. I guess we really know each other well, but now on a different level. I m glad we had this opportunity to at least have a friendship that I will treasure.

Just do not bother about what lies ahead of you. Just trust in yourself and lead our life. I know how much you are going through but be strong and show no worries. You taught me that by ignoring your enemies that is a way you teach them. So practice that too.

God bless you!!

If I'm gonna live in the moment,
I wanna live it with you!
10:12 PM

Recently, I have learnt quite a few things about my life. It has made me realise how easy people take me and how twisted this world is. I have made myself think in a different perspective altogether. It made me a little sad when I found out certain things, but now I do not care. I am just living my own life and minding my own business.

I am just surviving. I am loving the things that I am doing now. Pray that everyone I love is doing well.

If I'm gonna live in the moment,
I wanna live it with you!
7:55 PM

There are will be lots of events where you have to give in to others. But this is not always the solution to a problem. When you keep giving in to others always, they tend to take advantage and may never realise their mistake. You think that by giving in, you will help to make the other person realise his/her mistake but at times it turns out the other way round.

Then there comes a time when the person has reached the peak point and will burst. This is natural human reactions and emotions. You cannot help but go through all of this. You cannot blame that person for reaching that peak point, cause the other party has pushed that person to reach there.

If I'm gonna live in the moment,
I wanna live it with you!
10:15 PM