Sunday, July 12, 2009
I am feeling loads of mixed emotions now. I do not know how do people carry on with their lives after losing someone they love so much or worse still their other half!! I am watching P.S I love you and I am crying. I am putting myself in her shoes and it feels so sad and lonely. I really cannot imagine myself in that situation living without my dada. Its so sad. I cannot live one day without him and how am I supposed to live without him for the rest of my live. I am just so grateful that I have so many wonderful memories with him. I will miss his smell, miss the way he kisses me before he leaves from work, miss the food that he cooks for me with love, miss all the things that he does for me no matter what happen. Its all the good memories that we have to take with us, yes I know!!! Its just that you are my life and I cannot think of you not in it anymore. Its not complete without you. You may be grumpy, annoying, scolding me and what so ever, but you are who you are and I love you for all those reason too. Sometimes I wonder, what if you fight so much or you are not happy for many reason and 1 day your other half wont be able to be there anymore?? And you may never have another chance of telling that person how much you love him/her or what ever so. Then what will that be like? Just be grateful and happy for all the things that you have now. Be contented with everything in life on a day to day basis. Do not regret anything in life. Cause its no point at all. Live one day at a time and be happy no matter what. Baby I would like to say that I love you so much. Thank you for all the things that you have done for me. I will always remember everything that we share in all the time we knew each other. And it will always be with me no matter what happens. I will always love you till the end. P.S I Love You <3 9:52 PM
Saturday, July 11, 2009
Smile tho' your heart is aching,
Smile even tho' it's breaking,
When there are clouds in the sky
You'll get by,
If you smile
thro' your fear and sorrow,
Smile and maybe tomorrow,
You'll see the sun come shin-ing thro' for you
Light up your face with gladness,
Hide ev-'ry trace of sadness,
Al -'tho a tear may be ever so near,
That's the time,
You must keep on trying,
Smile, what's the use of crying,
You'll find that life is still worth-while,
If you just smile,
10:14 PM
Spoken by child:
'Think about the generations, and say we wanna make it a better
Place for our children and our children's children, so that they...
They, they... They know it's a better world for them.
And think if they can make it a better place...
'There's a place in your heart
And I know that it is loveAnd this place could be much
Brighter than tomorrow
And if you really try
You'll find there's no need to cryIn this place you'll feel
There's no hurt or sorrow
There are ways to get there
If you care enough for the living
Make a little space
Make a better place
Heal the world
Make it a better place
For you and for me
And the entire human race
There are people dying
If you care enough for the living
Make a better place For you and for me
If you want to know why
There's a love that cannot lie
Love is strong
It only cares of joyful giving
If we try we shall see
In this bliss we cannot feel, fear or dread
We stop existing and start living
Then it feels that always
Love's enough for us growing
Make a better world
Make a better world
Heal the world
Make it a better place
For you and for me
And the entire human race
There are people dying
If you care enough for the living
Make a better place For you and for me
And the dream we were conceived in
Will reveal a joyful face
And the world we once believed in
Will shine again in grace
Then why do we keep strangling life
Wound this earth, crucify its soul
Though it's plain to see
This world is heavenly
Be God's glow
We could fly so high
Let our spirits never die
In my heart
I feel you are all my brothers
Create a world with no fear
Together we'll cry happy tears
See the nations Turn their swords into plowshares
We could really get there
If you cared enough for the living
Make a little space
To make a better place
Heal the world
Make it a better place
For you and for me
And the entire human race
There are people dying
If you care enough for the living
Make a better place For you and for me
Heal the world
Make it a better place(Oh, my friends)
For you and for me
And the entire human race
There are people dying
If you care enough for the living
Make a better place For you and for me
You and for me
You and for me
Heal the world we live in
Save it for our children
9:46 PM
Friday, July 10, 2009
Have you ever thought for some reason or another, you will somehow lose the person you love the most or your family members? I have somehow always thought about it. I have also dreamt about all of it as well. I guess I am very afraid of losing the people I love the most, thus all these nightmares and all.
It is quite scary for me to be going through all of these thoughts. I will tend to feel upset and will be scared if something is going to happen to that person. I will also start to think of all the good times we have had, the love and memories that we share together.
I am most afraid of losing my mum and my boyfriend. They mean the most to me in my life. I cannot imagine a life without them. For my mum I do not have to explain why I feel like such. As for my boyfriend, I have been staying with him for quite some time and it feels more than just a BGR. Its a feeling I cannot describe.
I was just going through the book I made for him, and it made me think so much about how I have grown so much because of him. And I was looking at all the pictures where we were so happy and enjoying ourselves so much. I have never felt this happy in my life. I have never felt this kind of feeling in my life ever.
I am a person who is just so afraid of losing the persons dear to me. And I have no idea how I am going to cope thereafter. I just have to somehow seek the strength to get by all of the things that will come ahead.
Anyway, this is just a random post. I was watching something and it made me think about all of it. And watch P.S I love you on star movies on Sunday 12.07.09 at 9pm if you have. Its a wonderful movie!!
9:26 PM
Wednesday, July 08, 2009
Relationships are not always easy to handle. Both parties have different personalities and also different ways of handling things. You do not have to change yourself for the other person, you just have to accommodate how they work, cause you would want the same too.
Its not always very flowery and blissful. There will be obstacles and barriers that you will have to face in time to come. And if you know how to overcome all of this, the relationship will be stronger and it will be more happier for the both parties.
Relationships cant be based on lies or cheating. That is the wrong way of starting a relationship or even to sustain one. There should also be a mutual understanding between the two parties. I know this is not easy at times or even certain situations. But if one is truthful and shares stuff with the other, theer will not be any misunderstandings.
Another important thing is also not to be bothered by another external party. If that person is just a friend or even if you know that the person has some kind of feeling for your partner, you just have to be aware but not to take action. You need to trust and belive your partner no matter what happens. I know another problem is when that partner is really cheating. BUT like I said it all comes down to being honest and sincere to the other person.
I used to be a very protective and suspective girlfriend, but in this relationship that I have, I am not like that at all. I do not suspect or what so ever. I know that we have a mutual understanding and that we share a lot of things together. I love him for everything that he has done for me and I am very grateful. I am very happy with my relationship cause there are no secrets!! To me thats the most important thing. When you suspect and all, you just strain your relationship and make things even worse. So just be happy and enjoy things that comes your way.
8:56 AM
Tuesday, July 07, 2009
My Nephew The Devil!!!
My Niece The Screamer!!!
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1:46 PM
Monday, July 06, 2009
You're 2 years old already!!!
It was a very good party!! Red, Blue & White, in accordance to America's Independence Day. Since my darling of a nephew was born on that day, my cousin and bro-in-law decided to use that as a theme. It was really nice to see loads of people coming in the colour theme, some even tried to wear all three colour which was very sporting.
I had a blast, although I was freaking tired and all from the cooking and standing. I just missed dada cause he was at work, but I guess there was not really much time for missing as I was super busy taking pictures and entertaining people.
There was a clown who entertained the kids with jokes and games, but it was kinda scary actually!! Maybe its her voice and her costume. There was just something scary about her. There was also popcorn machine and candy floss. Yummy!! The kids really did have a wonderful time.
My nephew sure was happy, getting all the presents and also a chance to bully all the kids who was at the party and bigger than him. What a devil he is. But I still love him. He just knows how to hit you in the soft spot where you will give in. He is one charmer for sure. When he grows up, he will sure have loads of girlfriends, but he will be very protective of his sister!! That's for sure!!
Anyway my darling, I know you are not able to read this yet, but I just want to say that you are a very special person in my life and will always be ok. I love you so much little devil. Muacks!! Try to be good pleassssssssssseeee!!! God Bless You Always =) Labels: Pictures
9:27 PM
Wednesday, July 01, 2009
You know in life, you will meet many people and there will come and go. BUT there will be that one person who will stick with you through many heartaches, ups and downs and every thing else in life. No matter what you can count on that person to cheer you up. And that person might even be the one who hurts you also. But the whole idea is that, without this person your whole world is a different place to be in. It makes no sense and meaning to your life at all. Or maybe just a little. I have always thought I would find a person who would really take care of me in ways I never expected, showering me with gifts and surprises, pampering me and over pouring with love. But I never realised I would end up with someone so grumpy, óld and handsome who gets annoyed for the SMALLEST reasons ever!! BUT that's what makes this person really special in my life. Its not that he never showers me with gifts, love or pamper me. He just does it in all his own special ways. He may be grumpy and annoyed for many reasons, but that's his character. And its ok, cause I know that he will not be who he is without all of that. I cannot ask for more, cause I have gotten so much more instead!! He is a person I can not imagine without in my everyday life. A person who I miss so much. A person who I think of in everything that I do. A person's feelings I consider before I decide what I want to do or say. A person who really mean the world to me. A person who has taught me many things, that I doubt I will ever learn. A person who inspires me in many ways which I will never be able to express in words. You are the total opposite of me. You are so quiet and soft while I am noisy, loud and annoying. You are tall while I am short. You prefer to stay at home while I prefer to just get out of the house more often. You do so many things which I have never done in my life, but now am doing. These are the things that makes us special. These are the reasons why I love you and there are many more still. I know I will never find a perfect guy who will do everything!! BUT to me, you ARE the perfect one. And I will never trade that for anything. I Love You Dada!!
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12:04 AM
My Nephew The Devil!!!
My Niece The Screamer!!!
You're 2 years old already!!! 
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